A small romantic gesture
Is all you need

To block out the world
And watch people leave

Listening to the hollow whispers
And that one song that makes you blush

You feel the beating drums in your ears
You feel the sudden rush

You try to look away
But you keep your gaze

As if roses were blooming in their eyes
And you can’t break the pace

A small romantic gesture
They make

Can make you feel
Like you haven’t walked for days

A sweet scent of vanilla and musk
Fills the entire room

You don’t know if this is it
Or is it too soon

Mistakes and wrecks were done before
A heart can only bear much

So how is it still so weak and tender
To a single romantic touch ?

One person’s sadness
Is another person’s happiness

One person’s want
Is another person’s need

One person’s reality
Is another person’s dream

Do you see me ?
No you can’t
Do you see me
For who I am
Or do you see
What you want me to be
A person you desire
That’s not me

I lost myself
Pondering in my thoughts
What it is
And what’s not

I miss you
Although I haven’t meet you
I need you
Although I haven’t seen you
I love you
Although I haven’t known you

I am not sad
I am not sad about the lies you told me
I am not sad about the ways you fooled me
I am not sad about the fact you left me
I am disappointed
I am disappointed at the memories we made
I am disappointed at the time I have waste
I am disappointed at the person you became

Sun goes down
Stars shine bright
Galaxies spread
Through the night

Hold my hand
Bring me close
Music starts
Playing the notes

As we dance
Under the moon
Floating in space
Gently in June

Clouds and hues
Cover our feet
Hearts listen
To the beat

Calmness builds up
Eyes are close
Glowing ember
Starts to grow

Lost in time
You are the one
Said the three words
That I said to none

Sometimes I take the ease
And turn it into a battle field

Ignoring the blessings I got
Just wanting what I want

Building walls up high
Between my happiness and I

Keep thinking about tomorrow
Daggers filled with grieve and sorrow

Why can’t I just turn my head around
And enjoy life for what it is now

Magical spirits of the night
Take me to the raising light
Where no human has a sight
And all things glow bright

A burden in my heart
Has prevented me from speaking
As my words can cut through diamond
And still is not enough
To express the heavy burden
That is in my heart

Love is blind
Love is pain
Love is intensely
Both beautiful and strange

Do I have regrets?
It always starts with a yes
And ends with a no
For the things I wish have happened
We’re not meant to be
And the things I wished to never
We’re absolutely crucial
To form, grow, and stand
The beautiful person I am

Speaking is a sign of weakness
Silence is a sign of weakness

Running is a sign of weakness
Staying is a sign of weakness

Love is a sign of weakness
Hate is a sign of weakness

Quitting is a sign of weakness
Pursuing is a sign of weakness

People will always try to define you as weak
Whenever they want, whenever they seek

So do what feels right and fine
And ignore their “signs”

Sometimes I am on the verge
On the verge to cry
On the verge to break
On the verge to die
For all I really want
Is someone by my side

A candy corner filled with treats
All eating and all laughing
As I came closer in delight
Of all the sweets I can get
An old woman reached down
To get the box of treats she fed
But came back up as a witch
With grey strikes on her hair
A gloomy wrinkly face
And darkness cursed in the air
She took what was in her hand
And instantly she stabbed
As I woke up with my hip in pain
This nightmare has left me faint

I want what they have
Oh I want it so bad
If I have what they have
I will feel so glad
This is what I demand
Not walking on broken glass
But having what they have

And as they all looked back at me and exhaled
I want what she has
Oh I want it so bad
If I have what she has
I will feel so glad
This is what I demand
Not walking on broken glass
But having what she has

And at that I slowly rested my eyes and said
Maybe I don’t want what they have
Maybe I don’t feel so bad
The part of what makes me glad
Is right where I stand
And not having what they have

Life is hard
It has never been easy
But the greater the hardship
The greater the reward
If the door closes
The gates will open
If the rain sheds
The flowers will bloom
And we are just like the sun
It goes down and comes right back up

It’s like a race against time
“Should I quit the fight?”
“Or should I hold tight?”

Open endings in movies are always amusing
Some people decide that it’s a happy ending
The guy gets the girl
They save the world
They are still alive
They still thrive

While others decide it’s more of a dramatic ending
The guy doesn’t get the girl
Sacrifices are made to save the world
This person is dead
And the story comes to an end

Maybe our endings just reflect what we expect for ourselves?

Patience is always the key
It is what we need to receive
It is to get what’s meant to be
Not through rush
But by patience and trust

Picture the brightest light
Reflecting the crescent moon
Under the gleaming night
Hearing the sweet calm tunes
Holding the stars very tight
And making the haze swoon

I am changing
I am growing
I am learning
I am knowing
I am doing my best
To be my best

I am resting
I am working
I am focused
I am earning
I am doing my constant
To be my constant

I am scared
I am effecting
I am worried
I am reflecting
I am doing my understanding
To be my understanding

I am either fire or ice
There is no in between
I am either below zero
Or a flame you can see

Grey feelings is what I feel
No colors at all
Desperately wanting to heal

Believe in yourself
You got nothing to lose
Just hold your head up high
It all depends on you

I took my first step, letting you down with what I did
pushed you far and then I watched you fall

But you took the key, never setting my heart free
You just stood up and left with it all

I know it’s too late
I know there is not a chance

I know it’s not faith
But you just don’t understand

I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

“Just take a sip, from the poison that you did”
Never felt so pathetically small

sent so many letters, hoping things will get better
Thought you would finally answer my call

I know it’s not much
I know there is not a chance

But I still have that rush
And you don’t seem to understand

I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

Even after all this time I know we both can
I still think of you I still feel you hand

Even though we’re far apart a thousand miles
I still care for you I still see your smile

Cause I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

Day and night
Disappear out of sight
Brown, white, black, and other
Spots, stripes, and plain cover
Run around the house
“Oh! I saw a mouse”
Eyes wide and focused
Trying it’s best not to get noticed
As it’s curious fur brushes the air
And it’s naughty whiskers flare
“It’s time to go to sleep”
“Don’t touch me you freak!”
“Stroke my head and repeat”
“Give me something better to eat”
Indeed they are prestigious creatures

Why is it back??
That feeling of despair
I thought it was gone
Disappeared into thin air

Not everything is ok
Not even close to ok
I didn’t get the thing I wanted the most
And that makes me feel unk
That makes me feel heartbroken and crushed
And a little bit tired
I really wanted this
But it didn’t happen
And what’s worse
Is that I can’t imagine my life without this thing
And that is not ok
But yet deep inside of me
I have a little just a little faith
Ik that god is watching
And he knows that for me it’s not ok
But it will be ok
In fact it is ok right now
At this very second
Bc this thing was not ok for me
Nor I was ok for it
And so god knows
What is ok and what is not
And hence thinking about that
Just the fact that god
Sees, listens, and knows
What is ok for me
And has already written
What is meant to be ok to me
Makes me feel ok

Black and white
Glitter falls
As the angels drop
From the sky above
Glow and rise
Echo calls
Through the colored wind
Clouds start to mend

You are not patient
Oh if only you knew the pain I felt
You are not patient
Oh if only you knew the secrets I held
You are not patient
Oh if only you knew the heart I killed
You are not patient
Oh if only you saw what I have seen
You are not patient
Oh if only you saw what I dreamed
You are not patient
Oh if only you saw what I bleed
You are not patient
Oh if only you felt my rage
You are not patient
Oh if only you felt my cage
You are not patient
Oh if only you felt my ache
You are not patient
Oh if only you were aware
If only you just listened and cared
You will ask “ how do you bare?”

Motivation isn’t to do
It is to think about doing
Just like strength isn’t to speak
But it is to be silent

My heart is pretty broken
And it *****
To think that one person
Could wreck us
With just an innocent smile
My brain explodes
And within a long mile
I’m at their road
Just stuck in a constant circle
And it *****
To think that my musings are eternal
And still love

We are strangers
Not knowing who we are

But I would love to meet you someday
And travel every near and far

I would like to think you’re out there
Gazing at the crystal light star

Wondering who I am
The girl you thought of for so long

Music through my veins bleed
Spreading the crimson beat

As my mind lights deep
And my soul starts to breath

Melodies start to rest free
From my head to my feet

Musical sheets my heart can read
Sorrow, intense, yet sweet

Words of long devoted passion I hear
Years of uprising and downfalls I feel

All is quite, all is sealed
As music through my veins bleed

The lands are the limits
The skies are the limits
The planets are the limits
Your heart limits the limits

My heart hurts so much
As pain starts to rush
I maybe over exaggerating
Or just hopelessly debating
But I feel cracks expand
When I can’t feel your hand
I feel so very weak
Yet I can’t go to sleep
When I think for countless minutes
Of all the possible struggles and limits
That I will not be with you
That dreams will never come true
I never thought that for a moment
Time could be so worthless
For a person who doesn’t even care
Wither I am sad, happy, or just there
It’s strange that my heart stings
And my head rings
For someone so far of hold
In both body and soul

That toxic blood needs to stop
Flowing into my mind and heart

That poison running through my veins
Locking all of my senses in chains

The wildest thoughts rushing in my brain
Making my body twist and shiver in pain

That toxic blood needs to die
So my mind and heart can survive

The pen wrote this
Not me
The pen wrote this
So free
The pen wrote
What I couldn’t see

Don’t cry
Don’t cry
Hold it together
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
No tears ever
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
It will pass
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
Stop being sad
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
Think about this
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
Just go rest
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
......................
Ok let it out

In my head
Right next to the moon
That’s where I keep you

A small whisper says give up
A smaller whisper says be tough
And there I am stuck
Which whisper should I trust

Dim the lights
Close your eyes
Try to sleep
Begin to dream
Clouds of pink
Rivers to drink
Music to dance
Lovers hold hands
Instruments can fly
Moon can rise
Stars glow bright
Two souls reunite
No pouring rain
Or horrible pain
Dim the lights
Close your eyes

Love is this
Love is that
But in reality
Love is never this
Love is never that
Love can be anything
You think is “this” or “that”

I love the way you lie
It’s just like an onion
Delicious but makes you cry

When your soul awakes
Your chest expands
Your breath slows down
And your hands relax

When your soul awakes
You feel a river flow
Inside your body
It starts to grow

When your soul awakes
You see things so bright
Even the faddist colors
In the darkest night

When your soul awakes
You drown in relief  
As the wind blows
Your heart beats

As darkness strikes the night
And Lanterns light up the sky

An owl flies like a kite
Through the wind cry

Brown and white wings
And sharp crystal eyes

Standing on the tree twigs
As mountains rise

Small feathers fall
As the moon so bright

An owl calls
For shadows in sight

You fall in a dark hole sometimes
You start to panic and scream

You think your about to die sometimes
You think that no one is near

But if you just take a moment to think
A moment to relax and breath

You will notice the hole will start to shrink
As diamonds and gold fill up under your feet

Look up to the sky
And close your eyes

Bring your feet together
In the snowing weather

Hold the gold dust tight
As it lights up bright

Blow it into the wind
And make a wish