My life is in your hands but you don’t need to save me
I am nothing to you but your everything to me
Leaving me to the idea that nothing is good or loving
But that everything is black and bleck

I guess what you give is what you get
I didn’t realise what it felt until I got what I deserved
Tossed out like trash I am
Abandoned by my best friend just like the horrible friend I am
Rejected like the Reject I am
Played with like the player I am
Life dies in front of me into a puddle of understanding and feeling sorry for what I put other people into……..

There's a little bit of devil in her angel eyes

I'm a angel, but anger makes me a devil

The devil doesn't come dressed in a red cape and pointy horns, he come in everything you wished for

333 I'm only half evil

My attitude will always be based on how you treat me

I don't care if I fall in love with a devil, as long a devil loves me the way he loves hell

You must have the devil in you to succeed in any of the arts

Black as the devil, hot as hell, pure as a angel, sweet as love

We are the kids our parents warned us about

What is light without dark? Right without left? What is goodness without the choice to be evil?

There's someone in my head but it's not me

Never regret something that once made you smile

Everyone needs someone that can handle your dark side

The scariest monsters are the ones that lurk within our souls

Here in the forest, dark and deep. I offer you eternal sleep

If you can't wake up from a nightmare, maybe you're not asleep

If you are reading this, then you blissfully unaware of what is creeping up behind you

She was like the moon; part of her was always hidden away

Death is not scary. It's where we'll go that is

I have already been through hell. So give it your best shot. Not only will I survive. I will win.

I am afraid of speaking.
I am afraid of the texture of my voice, and the effect it will have on you.
I don't want to be pressed into the caricature of an angry woman; voice raised in what they call a hysterical display of emotion.
Calm down. Be rational.

Stop being
So
Dramatic.

Well let me tell you something:
I am an angry woman.

Because all I can see is my best friend’s blonde head, coming within an inch of becoming the crushed drywall beneath his fist.
All I can see is the false piety painted on his pastor’s face, asking, “well… did he hit you?”

I see her eyes closed in the darkness, fingers gripped in the sheets he tore off of her body to wake her. She has to hold on to something.
He says, “Show me you're enjoying it.”


Calm down. Be rational.

Like he wasn't gaining access INTO her BODY by FORCE. Like, of course it's her job to lay down and take it. Like it. Lick his lips for the taste of honey, because honey, he told you to.

but it's poison. It enters her bloodstream, weakening her will to resist it.

She looks at her phone, at a text she did not compose herself, or send,
“Hey hot stuff. When you see this, let's have ***.
“If I pretend I didn't write this I'm just playing hard to get.”

Do you get it?

Yeah. I am an angry woman.

Stay calm, dear sister. Be rational.
Rationalize the gaslighting, because the big picture doesn't look beautiful when you hang it above the sofa; and her home was staged to look like a family so that when you look in the window, you don't see that she was a hostage.
You don't see that her son was asleep in the bed when he grabbed her face between his hands and crushed it,
And called it “gently redirecting her gaze.”

From the window, you can't see his body blocking the exit.
You can't see her baby, with his little fingers curled around her *******, begging for comfort.

I will not calm down. And in case you are so damaged by devotion to comfort that you can't see it, it is right to be angry.

It is righteous.

I am angry, and more rational than I have ever been in my entire life- rationally, righteously begging for justice to flow down like rivers.

I am an angry woman.