Friend
through the looking glass
I see
a part of you
a part of me

Eyes that hurt
and eyes that heal
a brother in spirit
in truth
reveal

Imaginary
friends at first
for just a moment
not rehearsed
a reality

brotherhood
patience
and hope

there it is
that reminder
something is missing
though i never had it

what is it
it was a plan
i thought anyway
a task i need to do
maybe it's not important

is it real
did it exist
maybe i'm broken
is this a metaphor
is this moment my whole life
a string of useless empty thoughts

another day
another underscore

Another dead
another broken
another word is left
unspoken

I saw you in your time of need
your sores and pus I'd often bleed
with this we'd formed a sacred creed
I'd be a friend in word and deed

time and  time again you'd  stumble
and the more my tongue would fumble
your flesh grew big I grew humble
both our minds became a jumble

Another dead
another broken
another word is left
unspoken

your every life like night and day
from Hot and cold you'd often sway
whilst my nine empty  dressed in grey
grew stagnant in lukewarm decay

with every passing solid moon
for your howling ache you'd swoon
my fear would take my every boon
in angst I would await high noon

another dead
another broken
another word is left
unspoken

as I watched our friendships dying
I only wished that I was crying
eyes were dry,  was my heart lying?
thought of pain,  felt only sighing

do I pervert and weakness skelp
or in my lonely sorrow yelp?
was it in heart I tried to help
or do I prey on weakened whelps

another dead
another broken
another word is left
unspoken

Would you have me
to have and to hold
forever
moreover
just like this

Would you have me
to have you and hold you
forever
whenever
just like this

Would you have me
to kiss and caress
to watch you undress
without judgment
only inward, smiling,  commentary

Would you have me
to hold you while crying
and commit to undying
friendship
that bleeds when it's cut

Would you have me
to kiss and caress
to help you undress
without judgment
when you need help
just to bathe

Would you have me
to have and to hold you
forever
moreover
just like this

Would you have me
to be and to do
to forever pursue
for you
just like this

Filled with rusty gold
groggy restlessness burns hot
wake to fevered thirst

The Fringle comes
in brawly runs
inside thweem  drums
and peppanuns

In am big
You us thems
Filet see
US cows

Derivative equated
To Dis one time
Remove the s from integral
Dis integrate

Cal,  cul,  us
m,    t,      e,
My
Thermometer
Exercises

The right
to remain

in silence

Everyone is wrong,
even me
there is only one
right,  he's three

In a world
full of falsehoods
ignoring the double edged
Truth

Instead of masking
my shortcomings
I'd rather bleed
as I read

Grant me Courage
Love,  and Understanding

pop pull rumble twist
nothing else matters right now
time to fill the void

Yugen pick your friends
Yugen try to please the world
Yugen never fail
Yugen be who you wanna be
Yugen contradict
Yugen be happy
Yugen steal my words

Yugen, you are
   On your own

Alone  for a time
Aforetime isolated
A reflective dot

Growing tension
Ever threatening
To take the life
That bore its creation
To take the life
That engineered its existence

Proof,  I say
Proof the sharpened wisp is
Self destructive in all its ways
Evidently masochistic,
The snarling horror
Edifies it's stature
Sharpening its teeth
On his own malice

Builds himself up
To tear himself down
At the foundation

What is a name
that which defiles
an idea
a rustic title
for the facade

What's in a name
a few letters
a meaning perhaps
false interpretation
belief in someone real

What is my name
but a way for you to call me
a sound I remember
a curse of things I can't escape
a tag I can't remove and hide behind

~Me

Can I say nothing
(what is the word?)
to happiness bring
(meaning obscured)?

Can I say nothing
(nothing at all?)
and let silence ring
(to peace enthrall)?

Can I say nothing
(is it so wrong?)
for hatred's muting
(deafening song)?

Can I say nothing
(what is this plight?)
can I say nothing
(say nothing right)?