A man is someone
who will protect you
until his last breath.

A man is someone
who will love you
no matter what.

A man is someone
who will care for your children
when you cannot.

A man is someone
who doesn't mind your faults
even when they're huge.

A man is someone
who stays by your side
even when he's not there.

A man is someone
who will not smother you
even when he wants to.

I lost it all
to slowly die inside
kingdoms of death
looming over me
Fighting with what is real
and what isn't
My walls I built to protect
my fragile heart now
crumbling

I lost it all
to face my demons
not truly ready
to stand at the
kingdoms of death
But here I stand
accepting my defeat

You said you loved me
when the clock hadn't ticked five minutes.
So I said it back,
just to keep you happy.

I know I'm a liar,
and I shouldn't be.
It was the only way
to protect your feelings.

You were smothering me.
So many I love you's,
so many love notes.
Too much for me to handle.

I felt like I was suffocating,
choking from the inside.
I didn't know how to handle the situation,
I'm sorry that I lied.

Please don't be sad.
Please don't cut your wrist
only because I cut our 'ship.
Please don't die...

I'm always here,
if you need a friend.
No, not another lie.
Just something to live with.

I'm sorry
for all the pain I caused.
I'm sorry
your emotions got too much
for me.

*I'm sorry I never tried.

They burn in my bones.
They course through my veins.
They eat at my stomach.

Each and every one of my fears.

This is my life now,
All shrouded in panic.
Picking away at what sanity is left.

Muddling my brain.
Sharpening my reactions.
Piercing through my eyes.

Each and every one of my fears.

My world is nothing
Except a whole lot of confusion,
As to why the world isn't collapsed.

My dear parents,
please shut up.
I'm tired of the yelling,
tired of the fighting.
Your hurtful words
hurt more than each other.
"Our marriage is in jeopardy."
No, that's not what I want to hear.
Please shut up,
or you'll break
our already shattered lives.
Think of the consequences
of your actions.
If you split up,
you'll tear me apart.
From house to house
I'll go when you make me,
but when it's time for sugery
have fun paying.
You two are children,
seeming I'm the adult.
You fight for no reason,
it breaks my heart.
I just want to be happy,
though that's a joke.
Your arguments are choking me,
the fear and anger battling inside me,
ready to explode.
I wish you would just shut up already
before you tear our family more.