You are an annoying insect Slithering into my space Swarming around me Ticking off my patience Crawling up my nerves Buzzing in my ears Infecting my happiness Bugging me more each moment Yet I cannot bring myself To **** you
and it took me some time to realize that i was dating a boy not a man that i wasn't looking for a boyfriend i was looking for a dad hold on a second its not what it seems theres no oedipus complex this isn't ******-y this is a girl who can never love a man this is a girl who never had a dad this is a girl that wants love- the pure kind- the lets go for icecream at 3am lets go to the park lets name all the animals at the zoo this is the girl looking for protection by sticking her head in the cage her safety net is a beard and colored eyes and it took her time to realize that every boy that smiles at you doesn't mean well and when they say they love you don't think they will hesitate before they leave you because they won't don't be fooled by their smiling eyes girl you need to realize your father loved you and he meant well still he left and these boys no they don't love you the way he did they won't save you from the demons in your head baby girl still lie still and know that "boy" isn't a safe word and "man" doesn't mean love and that the bridge between those who stay and those who leave is jammed with those who said they'd be here. stop looking for a man. stop looking for a dad. you- you are enough.
You burn So softly, almost As if your light Flickered and fought But dimmed, And bled towards the night, Amidst the broken undertones Of burning plumes Puffing Lost desires.
You need to Own who you are. Know who you are. Grow who you are. Cherish who you are. Nurture who you are. Love who you are. Be who you are. Your sense of self is the knowledge of self. And we don't go to school for just one day.