what is it you want
from me nothing what you want
from yourself question

the words do not create you
you create all the words in
mind that which is you

i wish to call you mine
not because i want to have you
nor i see you as an object i must own
neither as a possession to wield

i wish to call you mine
because you are mine to cherish,
mine to  care for, mine to think of,
and mine to love.

you think
therefore i am

my mind is greater
than me i just say things now
you do what you want

There are moments when I don't think of you.
When I don't remember.
I am blissfully whisked along in the swirling eddies of forgetful fog.

Always when the fog clears, you are there.
Rather, you are not there and I remember.

I remember the way a silhouette remembers— the outline of the place you once were stands stark against the background that is.
I blend into the background and you pop as a silhouette.
Your figure cuts me, sharper than knives and deeper than the despair I feel at having lost you.
Can you lose something if you know where it is?

I spend so many moments thinking of where we used to be and remembering where we are now.

Having caused much pain
And upset to one I love
I looked long and hard
At me to find the root
Of my failing,

I cut deep and discarded
My ego my pride
And a host of other bad
Habits that accrued
Across the years,

And deep within me
I found an eight year old
Little boy with arms
About his knees,
Head down,

His tear streaked face
Framing a mouth that
Screamed silently in pain,
Heartbreak and
Loneliness,

So I looked within
That visceral version of me,
Cutting deeper than before,
And right at his heart
I found a budded rose,

At first glance
It was perfect,
But closer view showed
Dessication discolour
And paper thin petals,

But even as I watched
Your hand appeared,
Caressed the child
Then watered his
Withered heart,

And in an instant that bud Regained its lustre
And its carmine hue,
The petals spread to glorious flower,
The silent screaming paused

In wonder then delight,
I realise now there
Was no fault in me nor
My heart or view
I just needed watering

With love

From you

Hey you,
You there in that empty shell.
Should we talk?
Should we try to connect ?
Choose
It's up to you.

Hey you,
What's up ?
What's down ?

Hey you,
I'm alone,
But not lonely.

Maybe,
Maybe,
Maybe maybe.

Hey you,
Are you smiling ?
Are you strugling ?

Hey you,
I am who I am,
Only cause
You are who you are.

Hey you,
I love you,
Only cause
I love me.

Hey,
Hey you,
You are what makes me,
Me.

Hey me,
I love me.

Hey you,
It's hard to help me,
It's hard to love me.
But I love me.
Only cause,
I love you.

Hey you,
It's for you.

Hey you,
Cause there is no me
Without you.

Only you,
Only me,

Hey you,
I'll tell you a secret.
I'm afraid.
And it's okay to be afraid.
Only cause
I love you,
Ergo
I love me.

Hey you,
Hey you,
Hey you.

It's okay to be you.
It's okay to be me.
It's okay to be.

Hey you,
It's okay to be
Afraid,
Lost,
Angry.
It's okay to be.

Hey you,
To be or not to be ?

That is not the question !

Hey you,
There is no question !

Hey you,
It's a quest.
Don't be stressed,
Rest
And be blessed.

Hey you,
I am a phoenix.

Hey you,
I'll stand still
Whatever the wind
Whatever the courant
I will run.

Hey you,
Run forrest,
Run.

Hey you,
Run for your life

Hey you,
Run for you
Run for me

Hey you,
I love you
I love me.

Hey you,
Hey love,
Hey life.

I love you,
I love love,
I love life.

Hey you,
Hey me.

Hey,
Hey hey.

Hoy hoy,
It's christmas,
It's my birthday,
I'll live my fantasy.

Hey lord,
On christmas,
It's my birthday.
Hey lord,
On christmas,
Bless me with mercy.

Hey you,
Hey lord,
I love you.

Hey you,
Hey you.
Yes,
You,
I love you.

I love you.