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It's not uncommon
for me to question my future
and not know what I want
for my life

All the uncertainty frightens me
and when the options are weighing me down
I cling to what I do know

**I know that I love you
Aishah May 2018
What does it mean to feel anxious?
To feel a feeling,
a simple feeble feeling.
It is bigger than you know and
it's bigger than you,
you know?

What is it like to lose all rationale?
No comprehension,
a simple tiny tension
Dormant, yet always active...
on standby.

You try and take a stand but he
grabs you,
chokes you,
shrinks you,
with nothing but his hands.
Be glad not to understand, if you don't,
for Anxiety is but a cruel old man, and he won't
stop pushing,
stop unpicking,
stop telling you fake news
til you fit right into his shoes

And he says it all with conviction, he does
but he will not convict you, he can't.

So, disembody his truth,
the subordinate and inconsequential statements.

He is but an intangible being,
with no vision of the world that you are seeing,
no reliable perceptions
no means to perceive.
He is not here, not in this world, and not in your heart
and there it is; his real truth, that he attacks your heart
Since he doesn't have his own.
You're not the one with a problem,
Anxiety is.
may May 2018
i was not prepared for something like this to
happen

i thought we were never suppose to talk again

because of the choice i made almost a year ago

but here you are slowly making it into my life again

i can’t decide if this is for better or for worst

i want to see the bright side of this i really do

though when i start to really think about it all

my anxiety gets the best of me

im ready to see what happens next
although scared at first, i’m so glad this happened.
Leila Valencia Apr 2018
The night came like to the woman in white like thunder, but it was unlike any dream she had ever seen before.

Nothing could compare to this. Nothing could compare to this scale, this intense freedom.
She kept running
She walked into a kind looking abyss

And still there was a new way of living that tore her away.
From her current reality

What a dream she thought, what a confusing, chaotic dream.

Losing and finding it all
at - once -

She looked up
Wiped the tears and sweat


A thought caught her by surprise,


This is magical beyond all desires.
Just allow change because change can sometimes be incredible.
Millie Apr 2018
I curl into a ball
To get a clear view of my feet
Why am I looking at my feet
And not at the stars

I lay on my bed of worries
It’s comfortable here
It’s warm here
I can’t seem to stand up
My worries need me

I know they are no good for me
But I can’t seem to do better
I want to do better
My soul wants better
But I’m comfortable here

My life feels over
Without even starting
I have no goals or drive
Everything is meaningless
I am comfortably numb
Raw and unedited from a moment when I was feeling hopeless, empty and down
may Apr 2018
I can't help but feel out of place
There's something I'm missing
You all have this
Something I don't have
And probably never will
Though there's one catch


I don't know what that thing is...
I feel weird again
grimthepoet Apr 2018
“I need something to take the pain away”

I need something to take the pain away
Not drugs, not alcohol
Something addictive but not deadly
Something that won’t break it’s promise
Something I can run to
Something that will protect me
Something that can teach me
Something that can change me

Something that will love me for who I am
What I’ve done
What I’ve said
What I’ve thought
Who I’ve hurt
The promises I’ve broken
The pain I’ve given to others

Something that can see the pain I feel
The tears I’ve hidden
The thoughts that I think
The anger I’ve felt
The words I’ve said to myself
The words I’ve written in paper
The sleepless nights
The walls I built
The cages I’ve locked
The endless flashbacks
The secrets I keep

I need something that understands the reasons why
I wake up feeling emotionless
I wake up feeling emotional
Feeling angry
Feeling sad
Feeling like a disappointment
Feeling like a waste of space
Energy
And love
Why I don’t feel loved

Why
Why do I feel anger
Sadness
Why do I get anxiety
Why I lock myself in my room and cry
Why I like sitting in the dark killing myself with my own thoughts

I need something.......... or someone that will be there for me and love me. That won’t betray me, that will forgive me. That will make me feel strong. Something  can grow with.

Or someone.
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Tatiana Feb 2018
I think i'm sick
and I can't find out yet
if what I suspect
is what I should expect.
I'm avoiding researching
The internet
Because it'll put my mind in a panic
I can't afford to be manic.
I can't afford to panic.
I've had some scary symptoms and i'm being vague on purpose because I don't want to diagnose myself. However, we're going through a change in insurance which means I have to wait because having a preexisting condition would cause more problems. I'm not going to elaborate more until i get an answer, but that doesn't change the fact that i'm very concerned and I need to express that.
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