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Elizabeth Jul 2018
I want honey and fresh roses at my doorstep but only from you. Is it wrong that I don’t want to be loved by anyone but you? I’m afraid I’ll get hurt again because the last boy with curly brown hair left me in the dirt for me to swallow pain meds and anxiety pills just to make it through. I'm sorry if I’ll never again be able to open up to love again as I did with him, I don’t want you to turn into a stranger who holds my darkest secrets. I want you to love me like rainbows after a storm and soft kittens cuddling up to say goodnight. I want you to love me. Love me.
Honey and fresh roses
may Jul 2018
so there’s something that’s been bothering me
i conjure up these thoughts and they never go away
all my friends are doing so great and i’m so proud

with one being so smart they could do anything
another already having a college look at them
and someone who’s going places with their acting

after looking at them you’ll stumble upon me
someone who realized they weren’t happy with what they were doing and ended it

yeah it sounds great but now i have nothing
colleges like when they see you were a star quarterback in high school
or are at the top of your class

people say if you haven’t found your talent
its not that is not there it’s just that you haven’t discovered it
but i don’t think that applies to me

i should’ve found it by now
i’m losing motivation and sleep over this
and there’s only so much anyone can do
it’s not that i’m jealous of my friends or i wish i never got out of that class, it’s more than that.
julianna Jun 2018
Alone,
Alone,
It’s happening again.
I’m alone in this body
And stuck in my head.
I’m irritable.
I’m worried.
I’m unable to cope
I’m filled with violent dread
And I’m glued to my bed.
I’m left wondering why this is happening again.
It's not uncommon
for me to question my future
and not know what I want
for my life

All the uncertainty frightens me
and when the options are weighing me down
I cling to what I do know

**I know that I love you
Aishah May 2018
What does it mean to feel anxious?
To feel a feeling,
a simple feeble feeling.
It is bigger than you know and
it's bigger than you,
you know?

What is it like to lose all rationale?
No comprehension,
a simple tiny tension
Dormant, yet always active...
on standby.

You try and take a stand but he
grabs you,
chokes you,
shrinks you,
with nothing but his hands.
Be glad not to understand, if you don't,
for Anxiety is but a cruel old man, and he won't
stop pushing,
stop unpicking,
stop telling you fake news
til you fit right into his shoes

And he says it all with conviction, he does
but he will not convict you, he can't.

So, disembody his truth,
the subordinate and inconsequential statements.

He is but an intangible being,
with no vision of the world that you are seeing,
no reliable perceptions
no means to perceive.
He is not here, not in this world, and not in your heart
and there it is; his real truth, that he attacks your heart
Since he doesn't have his own.
You're not the one with a problem,
Anxiety is.
may May 2018
i was not prepared for something like this to
happen

i thought we were never suppose to talk again

because of the choice i made almost a year ago

but here you are slowly making it into my life again

i can’t decide if this is for better or for worst

i want to see the bright side of this i really do

though when i start to really think about it all

my anxiety gets the best of me

im ready to see what happens next
although scared at first, i’m so glad this happened.
Leila Valencia Apr 2018
The night came like to the woman in white like thunder, but it was unlike any dream she had ever seen before.

Nothing could compare to this. Nothing could compare to this scale, this intense freedom.
She kept running
She walked into a kind looking abyss

And still there was a new way of living that tore her away.
From her current reality

What a dream she thought, what a confusing, chaotic dream.

Losing and finding it all
at - once -

She looked up
Wiped the tears and sweat


A thought caught her by surprise,


This is magical beyond all desires.
Just allow change because change can sometimes be incredible.
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