i.
The LAUGHS, the SMILE—
Everything beautiful
             I showed to them TRANSPARENTLY.
    The CRIES, the GRIEVANCES—
Everything hideous
            I intentionally UNDISCLOSED to them.

ii.
I TRIED, I FOUGHT—
           Brutally following
           The TREND of this world,
     But their JUDGEMENT continues
           As if I transgressed
           The DOMINION of the kingdom they ruled.

iii.  
All I ever wanted is to be ACCEPTED
       All I ever needed is to feel the LOVE,
              but this world DENIED my EXISTENCE
              and they marks my life BELITTLED.

iv.  
They UNDERSTAND only my songs
       and HELPLESSLY UNHEARD my inner voice.
      They APPRECIATED only my talents
       and couldn't see my TREMENDOUS efforts.

v.
I might have the FAME,
           the WEALTH and the POWER
           But still my soul longs for
           PEACE, FRIENDSHIP and a LOVER.
    Inside of me was full of INSECURITY,
          ANXIETY and SELF-PITY
          and SHOOT! I CAN'T TAKE IT NO MORE!

vi.
The AFTERLIFE awaits me,
              Maybe there, I can find SERENITY.
       A place where no people to please,
              No more hurting feelings
              And geez! No more of me
             PRETENDING.

vii.  
As the night begin to passby
              I could finally get some REST.
        To all perfectionist out there,
              be GLAD, cause you won't see either
              hear me anymore, ADIOS!

"FROM THE EYES OF A SUICIDAL"
Written by: Yhin2x (Ate Yhin)
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I'm not Alice,
How could you call me that?
Although I could speak to animals,
Doesn't mean I'm that Alice,
Your Alice as you say it;



I'm not Alice,
Could you stop telling me that?
I'm trouble and a mess,
If I'm Alice I'd be lively,
And spread happiness that once gone;



My Alice, Our Alice,
People always said that to my face,
After I moved in with you,
And they saw me talking to the animals,
It weird me out so much;



I'm not Alice,
I couldn't save you,
I hope your mother happy with me leaving you,
Leave me with your disease on me,
And maybe we'll be together after this;



The street are cold and *****,
But my companion keep me warm,
It will always be animals helping me,
Because I cannot take care of myself,
I don't care if I'm that Alice people talking about,
For me that Alice has gone,
At the time you pushed me away.

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