Almost a year of low level stress
a summer and winter of trying to guess
will it be over, can we progress
the urge to cheer up and get on has expired
not sure about you
but my God I am tired!

I swear
I don't drink

but it's 2:19am and
I'm ******* wasted.



I swear
I've been clean

but please don't
pull up my sleeves.



I swear
I take my meds

but don't look
in the trashcan.



I swear
I'm fine

but do you really
still believe me?

Enervated with these demands of
needing explanations to everything
she had done.
She was worn out, until her nose bled
her heart pounded, her ears rang and
her eyes turned white
— She was almost out of breath.

Did you even bother to know this?

Because the very first thing
people would ask to her
wasn’t “How do you feel on this?”
But, “What is your contribution on this?”

I'm tired of everything
mostly of sleepless nights
and distressful days

Can I go somewhere quiet?
"My mind."I thought

I thought it was a quiet place
coz I stopped thinking of pain and sorrow
The pain and sorrow I thought I conquered,
I did not

There were still lot of hurting questions unanswered
which became molecules colliding in my mind.
There was no quietness there.

Where can I go?
"No where."I remembered

My mind was destroyed
by a broken heart
and a troubled soul
so there was no place at peace that I could go to.

I can not do this anymore

Can I just die?

lately life has been
too suffocating
that tears no longer
make me feel at ease
instead
it drowns me
into the depth
of sadness

i can no longer breathe

my head hurts
i don't know if its from the light from my phone
it probably is let's be honest
or from thinking of you
i think about you a lot though and have never suffered anything more than heartache
so im going to go with the former