You ask
If I'm okay
But not because
You really care
But because you're trying
To convince yourself
That you do

The lies that lie within me
Has tortured my soul
And renched my body
Drenching in my own sludge
Where coming back
Seems too hard
The smile that stretches
Across my face
Is another lie
Inside, its another me crying
To breakthrough from
The unworthy bonds
That promise alot
And laugh away
Like nothing ever mattered
As tho, my existence
Is meaningless
How much will I cry?
How much will I subdue?
How much will I endure?
Before, I let go off this life
Merging with the fear
And losing self control
Over the past years
Living like a hog
Rooted to the reclined
Unmotion state of speaking
How am I going to emerge?
How will I continue this life?
How will I matter to anyone?
In this selfish world
My existence, will not matter
For even, if I disappear
My existence, will not matter...


©sim

I try to be true to myself
I want to be free
But when I show my courage
It reminds me of who I turned out to be

I bleed the colors of my pride
But I hope I don’t lose to much
Or I may fear for my life

I want this simple life
I long for simple times
As you left this Earth
I wish I didn’t have to cry
But it was a shame to let you go

I did my best to make things right
I searched the havens and Earth for you
But I just needed to give your time

In the end
It was just the two of us
After I have exhausted all my foes
The pain I caused for satisfaction
Wasn’t worth adding to all your woes

I’ve only thought about myself
For my devotion has been fickle at times
Life is a long game of chess
But when I felt like it was time to be defeated
You helped me see past this test

Now I wait
And I don’t know
If I’ll ever see you again
You’ve touched my heart
And made it for the better
I just hope I don’t lose my way
Because if it’s too late
I’ll surely lose it all
But for now let’s enjoy
Right now, today

Consider me selfish
But I’m moving past it to heal my wounds

Consider me selfish
But I don’t need you in my life to be happy

Consider me selfish
But I’m living my own life and not trying to live the life of another

Consider me selfish
But I care about me more than you

If you could see him through my eyes
You'd think he's wonderful too
If you could feel through my heart
You'd fall for him just as deeply

But keep your narrow minds
Your selfish expectations
All your rotten, hollow words
Far away from him

Simply because you can't see his worth
Doesn't mean he isn't worthy