I always have this urge of losing myself 
And I keep on thinking what would happen if all my thoughts were put on a backyard sale 
Will someone buy it? 
Or just ignore such devastated and ruined thoughts. 

It's too late to be forever together 
My thoughts speak evil about your existence 
Those little demons under my bed are terrified 
They don't want you around me anymore. 

Let me loose for a while hear the birds singing 
Lay on the grass let the sun burn my face in the morning hour gold rush, try to understand this complex words i wrote for a devil.

I laid down my life
Like a red carpet
For your beauty
To tread upon,
But you tracked
Filth and rot
Across it
And now
I am ruined

I wear my heart on my sleeves.
As in the cuts that bleed.
Where everyone can see that I´m damaged.
How I´m broken,
ruined,
to pieces.
One can never fully recover.
As my cuts turn to scars,
my sleeves will still,
never be the same.
As the same for my heart.

© Sarah


You made me feel like I was flying,
Like no matter who said what you would be there to pull me back into the clouds,
Like I was something special,
You were the first person to ever make me feel this way,
Then when I realized it was all just an illusion,
The fun ended and I hit the concrete with a cold, hard, awakening,
You left me stranded to die alone,
You left me there to cry myself to sleep at night,
It hurt so much to hear you say I was just a toy,
Something you could play with,
Someone who you wanted to wallow in your misery with you,
You ruined me,
I am no longer the girl with the bright eyes or beautiful smile,
I am now the girl drowning in her tears,
Who can barely breathe at the simple thought of what we had,
The girl who deep down, is slowly dying,
The worst thing is that you can never know,
You will forever more think of me as the girl you threw to the side and didn't hurt,
I am so much more that you can never see,
I will forever be, the girl you ruined...

I've been killing these verses for years
Better put my feet up, have a few beers
Better raise your glass, cheers
I've got a huge brain between my ears
The one that vanquished all of my fears
The one that seen me through all the tears
While I'm thankful for most of my peers
Others tried to stab me with words like spears
Thought they could control me like puppeteers
Just when they thought I would disappear
Laughter is all they could hear
That is when I would reappear
And be all like "I'm here"
And they'd be all like "Oh, Dear!"
And I'd be all like let's change gear
Tell me was that crystal clear?
Why does it feel like I'm in the Ionosphere
Well some of these peeps are quite the racketeer
Shame they'll never breathe freely in my atmosphere
gee ****, listen up kid
I think I just ruined it.