There’s times you’ll be at peace and there  will be times were you’ll be in pieces.

And one day you’ll finally be at peace, instead of being in pieces.

- JGMC•¥• ©

You don’t have to fly me to the moon,
No my favourite colour isn’t blue,
Glowing, I can see it by my hue,
I swear this feeling is something so new.

there is this girl that lives far away
we may be falling for each other
but...I think that it's just me

somedays I contemplate
"are we better as friends"
other days my feelings come
"I wish she saw through my lens"

I would ask her...but as we've talked
she's said she isn't looking for anything
haunted by past lovers and others
I feel I may be the last one, who hasn't knocked

our friendship is too good to sacrifice
and distance isn't beneficial
nor am I the one to suffice
I'm too anxious and nervous

as I said, I want to take a chance
but I'm afraid I'm not the right man
and that one day
it'll just be a joke, that doesn't land

It's midnight
The whole city is sleeping
But my mind is still beeping

The sky is dark and the stars are blinking
I'm not sleepy, I'm still thinking

Alone,
Thinking about her
And our older days
Suddenly,
Lots of other thoughts raised

Night without her
Is like a nightmare

I don't know
Why I keep thinking About her
She left me
It's almost a year

Again,
I fall in sleep
With her thoughts
And few more tear's spots

How do you know you’re living your best life, when at your best you still feel hollow?
What am I supposed to be doing, when Doing is the antagonist of my Being?
Who am I supposed to BE,
when what I DO is more important than who I AM?
How can I tell you the way I really feel, when words are so clumsy and shallow?
Why do the clouds' imperfections astound you, but my own make me worthless?
If I died and came back as you, could I look myself in the mirror?
If you died and came back as me, would you have the strength to go through what you put me through?
If life is a game, I’m not having much fun at all.
If death is a maze, I hope to always be lost.

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𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 cry
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i always feel so stuck, like there is this strange expectation of me, like i am not the person they are expecting, they are using, that they are searching for. Or perhaps i constantly feel like that towards everything. I belong, and yet i don't. people belong yet they dont.
constantly trying to beat others, yet never knew be friends with them was really the answer. I am not involving myself enough yet i never want to be. I try then act like I never tried, blame others for annoying me yet allow them to.
I use platforms as an escape from people yet show the same people as a way of being accepted straight after. I do things behind people's backs only to tell everything later. i want to be free yet i have no clue what of.i dont know what is trapping me, but i just know it is. im writing things for myself only to tell them to others.
i message people and they finally reply, then only to feel abandoned again. Things come and go, but never here forever or for very long.
i complain of eyestrain yet stare continuously at the screen like some kind of void for the stress and blame inside me.

The art of procrastination, is to not care at all.
What a fool I am?
To assume I could do nothing at all,

other than worry.

Would you pull me close?
If i start to walk away
would you let me in?
and tell me we're okay?

Would you dare choose me?
if i ask you to choose,
Will I win against her?
Or would I just lose?

If i ask you if you love me
I know what you'll say,
you really did love me
but your  "love" is not okay

Yes you do love me,
but you also love her
I'm sorry you have to choose..
or else...we're over