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Moon Ariella Dec 2014
If all you seek is a release for your testosterone and a hiding place for your hormones then leave me in peace, for I'd much rather wrap myself around the words of greater men like Bukowski, or Hemingway, or Poe, Wilde, Cummings or Nietzsche.

They'd write about the words that slip from my lips and the way in which they somehow all of a sudden take them back to their childhood when they were three years old again, standing in the kitchen doorway, observing the verbal missiles being shot during the bitter separation of the parents marriage. 


They'd write about my eyes and the way they glisten with hope, brown orbs lit up like a fire, only to be dampened out again with realisation and truth and disappointment.

But, these boys, they don’t bother trying to find out exactly what, or who, I am. yet their concerns regarding me lie within more trivial areas.

They don’t know the map of green and blue that my veins depict. they don’t know the emotion that washes over me and grabs a choke of me, leaving me decomposed and gasping for breath. they don’t know the way the mechanics of my mind work. stop ******* disregarding my soul, my PERSON.

I am more than a body, i am more than a body, i am more than a body, i am more th-

in the words of Sylvia Plath, “kiss me and you will see how important i am.”
Lee Louis Dec 2014
I don't miss you. Not at all not even a little bit
I'm not heartbroken. Far from it to be exact.
What I miss is the feeling of being wanted.
I guess I couldn't keep it going
You finally saw the light. I couldn't keep ******* you over. ******* for taking it away.
But most of all **** me for not giving a ****
Tyler Blake Dec 2014
"It's okay to be sad."*

No.
I'm tired of hearing it.

We aren't meant to be sad.

We are made to be ambitious and driven humans, striving to make a change and make lives better.

Don't let sadness define you.

You are more than a body that surrenders to circumstance.

Step up.

Make changes.

Find the beautiful things and the beautiful people and share them with the people who need them.

Help them realize

It's not okay to be sad.
I just want happiness in this world.
(stopping here to tell you about my first
******* because it was terrible &
the one thing I remember most vividly,
a pock under her left eye
marking my shame & confusion &
this portion of the poem is a lie)
How many days until tomorrow
(& do not bolster me—I know the day is long)
because tomorrow I promised something
to myself, a sort of present for the hard work
of not repeatedly ramming my skull into a pack of
venture capitalists & I'm pretty sure I could take
the Koch brothers in a fight even though I am the minority &
Fox News killed racism just as MSNBC killed watchable TV &
all of this is so incredibly unimportant because
I saw the sun born of yesterday's ashes
the rebirth of light as so many slept & dreamed
but I do not dream, no, I do not wander so far away.
I think I hold my world closer than that.
A Jim-Davies-esque poster cartoon of my guts
on display at the Smithsonian as though
I could pretend to be any other poet
with my insides outstretched because
I cannot feel without cohesion or medication or
either, or—
it's lost upon synchronization.

I hear some wormy **** gobbling
(insanely might I add)
about Marx or Engels or one or both twice over.
I'm too busy trying to impress myself with this
Jenga block tower of carefully balanced fibs to notice
why you cry when the sun sleeps.
I don't exactly care so much as it intrigues me.
Another feeling stimulating what's lost.
I imagine sunshine & weep.
I thought before this writing I might
tear out this paper & roll up
give me some numb for the numbers &
no one is asking how I've been sleeping but
my words caught my urge mid-rip & said
You are so sad and not even you know why.
Blisters on your tongue from bottle-bottoms
chasing a rising air bubble running for life.
Copperhead, half-thing,
whole-brain, funnelmouth,
throwing bricks from bedroom windows hoping to
hit my head at the end of flight, free-fall.
I forget a few times daily how much animal
seeps past this face & I have not been outside this head
since who knows when & I just want it to—
Candy canes for teeth and I am indifferent.
The television smiles for me, red-white-mint lit
in the faded glow of almost-morning.
They would almost certainly mourn for me.
I have to keep believing that is true.
I am funneling and it will not stop.
Michelle Garcia Nov 2014
i wonder if you still think of me
when you hear our song on the radio
and i wonder if it echoes
in waves of blue to you, too

i wonder if you think of me at all
or if you have to press your lips together
so you won't utter my name
when someone else's frigid hands
fill the gaps between your fingers

i wonder, i wonder
and i cannot let it go
Dawn Anderson Nov 2014
I know I'm awful
And I hate my choices
And I hate myself
And you should hate me too
But that doesn't justify
You using me
As a place holder
A side ***
I'm not someone
You can just have
So you can say
you have someone
I will not talk to you
I don't like your voice
Not anymore
But I need you none the less
Because without someone
I feel like I am alone
And being alone
Is the worst thing in my world
So I do need you
I need you
To deal with me
To break it apart
So I don't have the choice
Of putting it
*Back together
I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT MY LIFE IS AND JACOB IS A ***** THAT CAN GO DIE IN A HOPE BECAUSE I HATE HIM SO MUCH AND HE IS ULTA MY FRIENDS AND HE MAKE THEM FEEL BAD AND I CANT DEAL ANYMORE WITH THAT *** THAT THINKS HE'S WORTH MORE THAN ME BECAUSE IF ANYTHING HE IS SHALLOW AND ONLY LIKES ME BECAUSE IM CONFUSED AND DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING SO WHY CANT HE JUST BREAK UP WITH ME HE SAYS HE LOVES ME NO NO YOU DONT YOU'RE 14 OKAY? YEAH I KNOW YOK CAN SIT HERE ALL DAY AND EXPLAINABLE TO ME WHAT LOVE IS BUT YOU DONT UNDERSTAND I DONT LOVE YOU SO DONT ESPECT ME TO SAY IT! AND WHEN IM TALKING TO YOU ABOUT ANXIETY DONT SAY "just don't think about it" YEAH I ******* KNOW IM TRYING NOT TO BUT YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THAT U CANT STOP AND THATS WHY I CANT BREATHE YOU SUFFICATE ME AND TAKE MY AIR SO THAT YPU CAN BREATHE BETTER! YOU LIKE THIS OTHER GIRL AND YET YOU ASK ME OUT BECAUSE YOU KNOW I AM TOO WEAK TO SAY NO! THATS A ******* MOVE! AND GO A HEAD DONT TALK TO ME FOR A WEEK SEE IF I GIVE A ****! IM NOT THE ONE THAT NEEDS Constant ******* ATTENTION!!!!! I'm sorry for the rant
Jacob Nov 2014
Through restless pupils,
I struggle for success
I bend over backwards
To try and be something
What is that word to me?
Is it the answer to feeding myself
If I end up without a bright future?

I used to wonder what struggle was
As though my teachers
Didn't define it clearly enough
My mom explains to me,
Be something—don't settle
For the basics like I did.
I wonder if she bruised her nose
Searching inside thick textbooks,
Questioning what it would teach her
And where her future
Would be in twenty years
Did any teacher show her
How to pay her taxes
Or write cursive as beautiful
As she writes it today?

All I ever think about is
What topics I'll be forgetting next
And what grade I'll manage on the test
Maybe one day my children won't
Be forced by their teachers,
Who listen to a corrupted government,
To learn to hate the idea of learning.

The time is 5 a.m.,
Time for school,
I repeat.
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