you did nothing wrong,
it was me who loves the idea of loving you.

I keep avoiding the reality,
hoping that the idea of mine came true.
But the reality, it's far from happening.

I destroy my own soul.

Just before I thought of you
I was happy
Happy on my own
But then you made me feel
Whole again
Which never lasted
Illusion and too good to be true
But even with my last sense of life
I still wish you happiness and
Nothing less
Maybe one day
I will be courageous enough
To be back again
With my whole self
On my own again

It's raining today
Everyone stands
With their black umbrellas
Opened wide
To catch the sky

Soft music played
Inside the funeral home
It echoes in their ears
Old lyrics scattered
To the beat of the rain

The ceremony was short
The coffin was not open
There were no deformities
But the mother couldn't bear
To see the body

The tombstone is small
Simply carved
No one quite knew what to say
So all it reads is
Gone but never forgotten

That's funny
Considering who I was