I felt in my bones accepted and seen I felt picked up Cherished Loved "You are mine." Not a question Not a comand A statement of fact A release of such pent up fear and frustration My body shook with it And I was one with the Earth One with Him And all was Finally Finally Right
These are the biggest industries in the world manufacturing information buying yours selling you fabricated dreams and hateful wishes to turn you into time bombs picketing angry on main street buying pamphlets buying lies buying momentary good times so that the dividends incessantly continue to fund
And you fear youtubers? with thoughts different than the conglomerates and the fourth estate in beded on the capitol building drinking martinis jacking themselves off on an american flag, saying Land of the free
silencing the opposition quietly behind the scenes MKULTRA greedy and mean
and you'll eat it up thinking you're kind playing exactly the cards they printed for you and handing their printed money over with interest siphoning the wealth of a generation like ticks
but the solution is not to redistribute it is to reinvigorate the innovative engine and accept, maybe, that all states are doomed to die eventually
but don't fear death please that's the first way they get in your skin and through that wound will inject you with sin
You can hate me, call me whatever you'd like. Won't change the fact we'll look back and wonder....
The long wait is over. The big fish is finally in my hands. It is not really something worth for a cry but it isn't also something worth for laughter. It is something that brings peace in my mind, a moment of solitude. That big fish is an acceptance - a reality. The only reality that makes my heart heavy but at the same time, halfhearted.
How can be something brought you silently in pathos and in equal time, brutally in felicity?
I dared to dream about hoping for more. I dared to dream for a bigger picture of us. I dared to dream of having you beside me. I dared to dream for everything for us. But I did not dare to dream for a reality, all I dream was an exaggeration of my own fantasy.
Now, I don't want to know the price I'm gonna pay for dreaming that way, cause this reality and pain is enough. Or maybe for now it isn't, but I hope it is.
I finally have the big fish. It is finally mine. I don't what to feel but, I know this situation will lead me to something better. I am now going to start letting him go. This is that start of a rough-tough ride to acceptance.