naivete has always played a funny role
shifting from blessing to curse, for the better or for the worse
existing on her own selfish terms
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I drown here silently, not wanting to be discovered
lying in my own hellish, ominous reef
of self-loathing and self-deceit
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the cotton curtains are always drawn in this room
no flame melts wax down the candelabra
no light spills onto the quiet dining table
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I suffocate in the air of hedonistic love
breaking mirrors, denying reflections
I cross myself out of the equation
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there’s nothing inside this skin that looks for escape
there’s nowhere outside to promise solace
I am fragile, trapped Nothingness