you will die this way.
trying to handle all of this mess,
trying to keep it all even though it is too heavy to hold.
it will seep into your soul
until it becomes too much to deal with.
it will bleed
and smear red onto the walls.
and you try to clean but
really you are just pushing it
further into the crevasses.
and you try to organise
but really you are just moving things around.
moving them into their new graves, to gather dust and to rot.
and even though you have hidden it,
it is still there,
the decay is still happening.
the mess it still
buried and decomposing
behind a curtain.
you need to cull, and burn.
throw out and throw up all of the things you are carrying.
rid yourself of the weight you hold so tightly onto.
let it go,
set it aflame,
laugh at its ashes as they settle into the fabric of the curtain.
you don’t deserve to be confined to a life
carrying it all.
it is not your job to carry the universe,
you are not atlas,
you can put it down.
i promise the world will not end.
