Sometimes fear stems from not understanding

Blame is but a gift in a hateful society

Lack of encouragement leads many astray

The river streams in one direction

But forces some to struggle against the current.

How does one break out of line-

if it is enforced with barbwire?

Embrace the injures life inflicts and

rush through stomping on brittle pavement.

Ignore the trembles in your chest cavity and brave a smile

Negativity surrounds you like an endless sea,

but divert your gaze to brighter portions of the sky.

Fear is another form of ignorance,

only if allowed to cloak judgment.

My head is a warzone in itself.
Sometimes there's no victors.
Sometimes there is.
I hate to convince myself that i must confide
A amoeba that's restricting me so i can abide
There's no true purpose in where i hide
And taking unnecessary sides
I just want something tasty on my side
Nothing too dazzling
But that's exactly how i describe myself
And i want to run it away
Not so it can come back another day
I tend to be vociferous
And it irritates me
Why can i have a mind that entices the thought and not berate it?
I feel disjointed, jaded
Far from elated
Somehow my reinforcements become instant vaporization
Nothing adds up to a stimulation
What was i put here for?
To quarrel, to entrench myself with misery?
I need something to distract
Keep me in humble tact
Busy
As a bee
But i don't want to sting
Or the frivolous bling
Why can't i figure it out?
Nobody can for me
As easy as that pleases the ear
I must adhere
To my own belligerent madness
And find some sanity in it
It's a unembellishing feeling.

He stabbed me in the back
And **** ***** me.

A lover?
No. Love itself.


-- Eleanor