I'll whisper my secrets
to the stars and pray
you are far, far away,
because my darkest
desires, and
wildest dreams
were not meant for you,
my dear.
They were meant for the
boy with the tree at his
spine and
all of my fantasies
on his
fingertips.

we can’t focus on ourselves
because we’re too focused on
love
heartbreak
& fantasies

we can’t build our own hearts
without it still breaking over
someone
or something

Bleeding the planet
between life and death.
O invisible, in time and pain
I want you.

Telomere― the capping
has failed. My genes are shrinking..
The acid burnt face still
smiles behind the fingernails.

The spurious drugs will
not allow you to pass away. Lip service
was too fallacious. You never
knew how difficult it was to die.

The night dissents. Day has
many upheavals. You stand alone
in tall grass to count the flames
engulfing the sunset.

Fantasies falling, Reality is calling,
My world falls apart,
Daydreams spinning, this is the beginning,
Of one more broken heart.

i believe in beauty
in love
in happiness

but it is oh, so hard

to still believe
with the way of the world

beauty
love
happiness

fantasies my heart desires
fantasies that are no more
than the fearies who kiss the flowers
than the love between sun and moon
than the gods that rule upon

life has its way
of snatching the innocence
of the purest

i believe oh i do

or do i simply
want to believe in it all?

i see no difference

let it be a god
let it be fey
let it be magic all over the earth

it should be that way
i believe

but just as everything else
it is a pure
fantasy

there are always two sides to the same story
two voices singing the same song
maybe i was never enough
maybe i was, more than enough
sometimes i wonder if you wonder the same things

have you ever had the thought of running back
to put a semi-colon instead of
a full stop to our infinite possibilities?
do you sometimes fantasize us two
lying on paper-thin ice
in Alaska
and having no fears
because i'm holding your hand?
under the green, blue, pink, purple, yellow, red
aurora borealis
and millions of stars?
have our heads tilt toward each other
at 4:09 am
in our fluffy snow jackets and boots
and lean in for a forbidden kiss
just
one
kiss
then go back and gaze at the Milky Way
with more thoughts in our minds than there are stars reflecting in our eyes
imagine a place that is ours
it's where a wise man confused reality for dreams
it's in the middle of nowhere
in our deepest fantasies
it's where we hold on to each other
and everyone else simply doesn't exist...

at 4:09 am
i wonder
if sometimes
you wonder about me too.