For years, I have a doubt
Which I still could not make out
Was it your beautiful face
That made me lose my pace
Or the moon-like eyes
Which kindled my love to rise
Was it perhaps your lip
That gave me a beautiful slip
Or was it your cute cheek
Which played with me hide n' seek
Was it your charming smile
Which threw my heart away a mile
Or your twinkling white teeth
That made me pause to breathe
Was that the rainbow eyebrow
That caused my feelings to grow
Or your cute, timid walk
That gave my nerves a shock
Was it your long black hair
That made me simply stare
Or your elegant eyelash
That gave upon my face a bash
I still could not figure out what
How you did enter my heart
The questions that nag inside me
Has got no answer at all to see
But I am unaware till now
How I did fall in love.

𝓂𝑒𝓈𝓈𝒶𝑔𝑒𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝑜𝓇𝓃𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓁𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉
…𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒 𝓅𝒶𝓈𝓈𝑒𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝐼 𝓈𝒾𝑔𝒽
𝓉𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓈𝓂𝒾𝓁𝑒𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒷𝒾𝓉𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓈𝓌𝑒𝑒𝓉 -𝓁𝒾𝑒𝓈?-
𝐼 𝓉𝑒𝓁𝓁 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 𝒾𝓉 𝒾𝓈... 𝒾𝓉 𝒾𝓈 𝓌𝑜𝓇𝓉𝒽𝓌𝒽𝒾𝓁𝑒.

Dear all-seeing creator
Or figment of our imagination
You are my least favorite ex
But I did really love you, for a time

See, you taught me how to love others
But you also told me loving myself was selfish
You told me I needed to give everything to you
And that having anything of my own was sinful

You told me that all people sin
But you also taught me about forgiveness
You told me that no matter what you’d love me
But also said I didn’t really deserve your love

You gave me mixed signals
Told me I should love everyone
But then that loving a woman was wrong
That loving anything more than you was wrong

You told me I was made in your glory
But that I would forever be shrouded in sin
That evil of my own making would come
And I’d have to remain true to you

So I’m conflicted I guess, or just confused
I don’t know if I believe or don’t
I don’t know if I should hate you or love you
But I do know I don’t need you

So that is why I called you my ex
Because I did love you, and I don’t hate you
Because you were important in my life
But now I’ve found better people and things

Things and people that make me happy
And don’t sometimes make me hate myself
These people let me know I’m worthy
And that’s something you never told me