don't you dare smile
in the face of the
day. don't think for
a second that
you are in control
of your feelings.
see that person ahead?
don't acknowledge them.
head down, eyes forward,
mouth shut, heart
closed.
...good, now you're
getting the hang of
it. now, accept everyone
else's authority but
your own, amass financial
debt, relieve yourself
with the proper drugs,
find someone under
the same
enchantment as you
and call it love.
have kids because it's
the next step. raise them
in your image.
then,
watch them repeat the
same cycles
and as you're dying, have
a flash-thought-
"did I even notice who I was? what I wanted for this life?"
and as the thresh
ceases to be held you
light a candle of hope-
your love the spark,
your children the fed flame.
you say,
"they will sever the momentum I couldn't, they will
see it."
-after all they are made
to be better than you,
not simply blind copies.
yet as the kaleidoscopic walls
usher you on you wonder,
"how many of my ancestors have lit this same vela del lecho
de muerte? how many were hoping it was their daughter or
son?"
the security of tradition and
the risk-reward of novelty
played out across
lineages. both correct
and incorrect in their
own ways...
which one reaches through
the ages and hums
in
your spine?
