I feel like crying But not in front of even a single soul. I don't need people to tell me it's okay, Instead I want ‘me’ to make ‘myself’ whole.
I don't want a thousand glares of pity at my tears, I don't need empty words thrown in the air. All I need today is a smile, A flower blooming from inside.
everything become dull when you left me i hate that, it's a never ending storm, a haunting fear. eyes filled with tears, as i cry myself to sleep hoping and wishing every morning, you come back for me.
Do you think I'm broken? 'Cause I can't tell anymore. My smiles aren't mine; And I can't tell anyone Because they'll only pity me, Or take it too personally. But it's not about you It's about me. Maybe I am broken, My mind, My heart, My head. My happiness is a lie Because I'm broken.
pressing on my chest with a suffocating force. burning eyes, under firey skies, throat tight and coarse. melodies slipping, through the scars on my skin a melancholy heartache from the worry within. two worlds colliding as we finally touch, but why does crying hurt so much?
I wiped at the window Until I could see clearly Through the tears that threatened my facade The tears that told the truth Which I swallowed with the lump in my throat.
Paint the town black and it'll fit right in with my soul If I even have one that is, I guess I just don't know I often feel like there's something wrong with my mind Everyone tells me that I am just wasting my time, That I'm wasting my life
Kicking and screaming and fighting and crying all night Scratching and tearing my skin until I stop my fight I'm done trying tonight Guess I'm done trying at life
I'm just a scared little girl who doesn't know what to do In my scared little world reaching outward to you But you won't help me And I don't deserve it I'm worthless Not a single purpose Just hurting
You say that you don't mean the bad things that I hear from you I guess you don't but sometimes I really want you to I love all the pain but I hate how it makes me cry Because I know I love it but you think that that's not alright
I'm just a scared little girl with no one to hold onto In my scared little world wishing I could just be held by you But you won't let me Even if I need it
I'm tired of wanting the fire to burn me up inside The burn would clear up my lungs, my bones and my mind Clear my skin of it's bruises The bruises would fade My day fades away My soul finally feels safe at home Even though homes where the heart is And you said I was heartless
I guess home is where my art is I guess my home is in the darkness And you won't come inside Though I try and I try To welcome you in my life
I wonder why your cheeks don't hurt, Even after all those hours of faking that pretty smile. I wonder why your eyes don't ache Even after crying recklessly the whole night. I wonder how your throat is still okay, Even after all that screaming in the locked room, out of fright. I really wonder how you are keeping up, Even when the tremendous pain has been breaking you all this while.
Cause maybe you have become so numb that you feel alright even when you aren't alright.