I've tried so hard to write
a poem just for you
but once the pen hits the paper
the words, get dry, they disappear
every motion, every second,
everything
is slowed down to a pause
i'm lost in this universe
that's lacking all things you
even at the thought
or briefest mention
of you
i'm back at the moment
when my life was forever changed
i can't write,
i won't write
because it will never justify
all the things that make you good
all the things that make you, you
i regret so much
yet there's nothing i can do
if i knew there was only so much time
i would have tried more, done more
lived more
loved more
but now i'm stuck
in this moment
that isn't
with you
thought i would make it messy and all over the place because honestly that's how my thoughts are half of the time.
