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Max Neumann Nov 2019
take me away from this journey
i am trapped in the land of placelessness

blind / hypnotized
route 36 / bolivia
deaf / treated with ultrasound
simultaneously

scarcely knowing
what all that means

i am feeling the rising of blood
a wave of heat like sandstorms

inevitability: willful / knowing / aware

i am putting myself at risk of dying
long ago i read about the risks and consequences
of my ******* abuse
pervaded them intellectually while

my heart remains deafly because
of *******
bitter
sear
aflutter and in panic

there is just:

one life
one heart
one body one man

man what are you doing?!?!
i am hollering into my inner
embracing the envelope
obsessed over bitterness
numb love
in the dungeon of plotted heavens
lofty as never before
is where i am running away from:
every day

in the 1920s there was a man
who they called "koks-emil"
he sold ******* in the nightstreets of berlin

the national archive has been keeping
a picture of him doing business with
two girls out of gangland we
can't see the face of the one standing left only  
her back

however her companion typifies precisely
what the drug creates in our souls:
a form that can not be imitated
like the effect of the drug

a form of longing and greed in the
girl's face

longing and greed
balancing each other
not one of
these states predominates

while beholding the girl i am becoming
horridly conscious
about myself
horridly about

my relationship with *******
my affair with *******
my love to ******* this
sounds sick?
indeed it is

we call it
suffering from an addiction

we call it
suffering from a dependency

become clean.
i wish you willpower
wish you strong luck
wish you peace at last

the rate of relapsing
******* users is vast
during the night

when the wind is
breezing mildly

when the stones of the cities
are breathing out the heat of the day

while you are
sneaking over the streets

while every street corner resembles
the very one where
koks-emil used to sell his product

while you are sensing the smell
of bitterness

while you are being preoccupied with
her face: her longing her greed

while you are experiencing
yourself:

more deeply
more soberly
and more knowingly
as before

while you
are reaching out your hands searching
with kidfingers for koks-emil

the guy with the warped corner of the mouth
the reliable / greedy one

the one who is always ready

a salesman has to be available for
every second of your longing
every second of your greed

koks-emil: your world is made of black and white
your hat is grey its bonnet is vanishing as your
shivering hands

hands that spread capsules
hands that grap at bills
hands that you use to brush away your sweat

**** between the lipps
shabby coat

koks-emil your spirit
blows through inner cities like gas fumes
a grin on your face coming from
lurid lights

you became immortal
you underwent rapid decades
you were an addict
you created addicts
you served addicts

the ****** expression of the girl
your child-like customer
remains for

all for everybody with a
*******-addiction

for all and for everybody
who depends on *******

for all and everybody
who is clean from *******

for all and everybody:
longing and greed

rest in peace girl
Based on true events.

Today is a good day.
Big Virge Oct 2019
If You LIKE Coc' ...
  
REMEMBER This Quote ... !!!
  
You May One Day ...  
Just ... End Up Broke ... !!!
  
******* Gives Lows ...  
As Well As ... " Highs " ...
And Has ... DESTROYED ...  
Some Peoples' ... Lives ... !!!!!
  
That's ...
NOT A Joke ... !!!
  
So ... Trust Me Folks ...
If You LIKE ... Coc' ... ???
  
I'm ... NOT The Bloke ... !!!!!
To ... " Offer It To " ... !!!!!

I'm ... WARNING YOU ... !!!
Don't Make Me HAVE TO ... !!!
  
Give You ... " Clues " ...
  
Don't Make Me HAVE TO ...  
BREAK ..... The News .....  
  
Like ... " Coc' Misuse " ...  
To ... Make You Cry ...
Into ... TISSUES ... !!!!!!!!
  
" Coc' Heads' " ....
  
As I've ... Said Before ...  

Talk NONSENSE ... !!!
So I ... Ignore ....  
  
The Words They Speak ...
  
So ...  
What's The Score ... ?!?
  
Could This Be ... " Why " ...  
The World's At War ... ?!?
  
Has George Done Coc' ... ???
Ask ... Michael Moore ...  
  
I'm ... NOT Sure ... ???
But DO ... ABHOR ...  
  
Those Who LIKE ...
Their ******* PURE ... !!!
  
Because Reality's Lost ...................................................
To Them ... Fa' SURE ... !!!!! ...
  
They Live In ...
... " Dreamworlds " ...

And ........... Ignore .....
  
Those Who SUFFER ...
And Are .... " POOR " ....
  
Until Their ... HIGH ...
Ain't There No More ... !!!
  
They Probably Snort Coc' ......  
Yeah ... Off The Floor ...... !!!?!!!
  
They Use Their Nose ...  
Like ... DYSON Hoovers ...  
  
That's The Place ...
The ******* Goes ... !!!
  
PEOPLE ....
That's A ... BAD Manoeuvre ... !!!!!
  
These Are People ...
I ........................ AVOID .......  !!!
  
Because They Get ....
SO ... " PARANOID " ... !!!
  
of Men Like ... ME ...  

BELIEVE ..... " BIG V " .....  
Because I Talk ... REALITY ... !!!!!
  
Is That ... " You " ... ?!?
Or ... Are You Cool ... ???    
  
With The Way ...  
I Get .... INTO ....  
  
Things Like ... THIS ...  
Through Poetry Scripts ...
  
While Coc' Heads' Go ...  
On ... " ******* Trips " ... !!!
  
Why Do People ...
Go To ... THIS ... ???
  
Just To Get ....
AWAY From ................ Things ... ?!?
  
Things That They ...
Should NOT ..... Dismiss ..... !!!!!
  
I've ... Sampled Yes ... !!!
But Now ... RESIST ... !!!!!!
  
And Use My Nose ...
To SNIFF ... Good Prose ... !!!
  
NOT To ... " Sniff " ...
Old Charly's .... Coc' .... !!!  
  
And Mix With Folks ...
Who Are ... A JOKE ... !!! ...
  
I Don't NEED THAT ...

To ... Get A High ... !!!  
When HIGHS Can Come ...  
From ... NATURAL Sights ...  
  
... " Countryside " ...
Or ... NATURAL Thighs ...  
On A Girl Who ... Treats My Eyes ...  
  
To ... Visions of ......  
A ... LOVE FILLED Night ... !!!
  
WITHOUT ******* ... !!!
  
I DON'T ... Supply ... !!!!!!
  
Sorry Girls ... !!!
Are You ... SURPRISED ... !!?!!
  
Please ...
DON'T ASSUME ... !!!

I'm NOT ... THAT GUY ... !!!!!!!
  
Black Men Like Me ...
Are ..... " RARITIES " ..... !!!!!
  
That's Advice ...
I'll Give ... FOR FREE ... !!!
  
Unlike Guys ...  
Who ... Like To Advise ...  
  
Girls To Come ...  
For ... "Coc' Filled Nights" ... !!!
  
Just To Get ...
BETWEEN Their Thighs ...  !!!
  
Ladies ...
  
Here's Some ...
More ... " Advice " ...
  
A LOT of Them ...  
OH YES ... Are White ... !!!!!
  
Are You ... " SURPRISED " ... ?!?
  
Come On Now Girls ...  
...... PLEASE .......  
DON'T You ... LIE ... !!!!!!
  
Some of ... YOU ...  
Know of ... These Guys ... !!!
  
Words I Write ...
May Make Some ........................................................... "hide" .....  
  
Could That Be ...
Because I'm ... RIGHT ... ?!?
  
Words Like THESE ...  
May HURT My Life ... ?!?  
  
Because ... ******* ...
Is Now ...... SO RIFE ...... !!!!!
  
Coc' Deals Make ...
Some Men USE KNIFE ... !!!
  
Come On People ...
Is This ... RIGHT ... ?!?
  
If ... " Your Child " ...
Ends Up ... INSIDE ...
  
... A COFFIN ... !!!

Over ... Debts That RISE ...  
Because ... ******* " ...  
Became ... Their Life ... !!!  
  
That's NO WAY ...  
For Kids To DIE ... !!!!!
  
But Happens Now ...
  
OH YES ... That's Right ... !!!
And Has Gone On ...
BEFORE ... My Time ...  
  
Trust Me Folks ...
That Is .... NO LIE .... !!!!!
  
I Sometimes Recite ...
These Words I Write ...
Because of Things ...

" Within My Sight " ...
  
Things Like THIS ...
I DON'T Dismiss ...  
  
Because ...
Life Is Something ...
  
I Would .... MISS .... !!!!!
  
If It Ended ....
Because of ... " Coc' " ...
  
And That's NO JOKE ... !!!!!
  
So ...  
Hear This ... CLEAR ... !!!
  
I'm NOT A Bloke ...
Who'll ... Hear You Out ...
  
" If You ... Like Coc' "
I believe the relevant quote is,

" It's One HELL of A Drug ! "
Seamus IV Aug 2019
Thinking with short breath, gripping my chest, sinking with stress?
Just to attest, Imagine putting stress to the test
Over pushing boundaries set with intent
Chasing leads, gaining lost time pursuing a lust with broken trust
Only to rise to the question
Can the duality of morals and ethics which define us..
Be overwritten?
Misconstrued needs for skeptics lost in line
Slowly assimilating breathless methods

Hijacked

Black rose petals spiraling to conclusion, Decomposing as if to forget this
Why don't I neglect this elusive euphoria defined in terms of confusion?
Split paths once veering in opposite directions begin running parallel
I know I'm here, but who's that there?
Ominous reflections veer back with eyes unfamiliar
A face with no definition grabs my wrist lurching me forward
Weightlessly ***** following a diverging direction with questioned intention.
Where are you taking me? (Silence)
Operating in two places at once, questioning who is the driver

Hijacked

There but ever increasingly distant, attempting to reach you
The sunrise rekindling the spark of yesterdays intuitions
Preserving eloquence like a flower in full bloom
Suddenly fades eerie in an instant, dwindling on gloomy restless expressions
Cloudy perception refracted by crystalline illusions
The evanescent cypress terpene, king of bliss
Flowing in the direction towards what has been calling it most
An icy chill enters my chest, a constant race to chase an endless quest
A ploy of acceptance with a cotton ball
Vivek Gupta Aug 2019
Mushrooms on my tounge!
Smoke in my lungs!
White line up my nose!
Viens got 'em dose!
I am flying on a different height!
I am having a different fight!
With my ownself!
Staring at this old shelf!
Yeah I am high!
Seeing things like sci-fi!
We overdosed on love, on hate!
You served me death on my plate!
           -Vivek!
Viens donc ma Muse
Et comme chaque dimanche matin
J'ouvre grand mes ailes
Viens danser avec les fauves
Et prends-moi sous l'aisselle
Plonge dans ma sueur matinale
Tu vois, tu sens le parfum
De la bête qui halète
Quand tu l'allaites de tes désirs secrets.
Cette bête qui dort en moi
Et qui te captive
Cette bête aux mille têtes et aux mille poils
Qui t'épient et que tu guettes
Par la fenêtre
Le parfum de cerf-lynx qui te hante
Une odeur oubliée qui t'obnubile
Une odeur de ton enfance
Comme une souffrance lancinante
Qui te trouble et t'exaspère
Une puanteur charnelle instinctive
Presque un fleuve liquide
Qui se répand comme une onde de rut
Et se faufile entres tes lèvres et narines
Sur les chemins pentus de l'extase.

Sens-moi épanche-toi
Hume-moi respire-moi
Renifle-moi
Essaie de deviner le nom de ce parfum :
Cocaïne de Lanvin ?
Fleurs du Mâle de Guerlain?
Encens Sauvage de Dior ?
Sang-dragon de Givenchy ?
Et si c'était simplement Cyprine de Muse
Que tu secrétais sous mes aisselles?
Hanna C S Jul 2019
And I know,
'Just one last time'
Has been uttered too many times,
Over these white lines,
But whatever kills the cravings,
Sweet amnesia - drag me deeper,
And wrap me up,
Cocoon me in your sweetest daze
Take me on my favourite ride,
And bleach these teardrops dry.

I knew this time would arrive again;
My weighted eyes and tired insides;
My not so central nervous system set awry,
With twitching fingers and flickering eyes.
Tell my mother I'm sorry.
I'm at the doctor's door again,
To me this is no surprise.
Eleanor Sinclair Apr 2019
I’ve contemplated drugs.
Heroine, LSD, *******,
Anything that could maybe numb the pain.

I’ve contemplated leaving.
The state, the country,
But I’m only deceiving.

I’ve thought about the facts.
Rolling over them in my head,
There’s no way to go back.

I lost myself some time ago.
I can impress but not connect...
I have many masks, tomorrow I’ll pick a new row.
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