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Michael Dec 21
When we recognize the con
And it settles in our bones
Will we realize rights are gone
Or cast ourselves before the throne?
Will we see what’s wrong and right?
Mesmerized by gilded flair
I wonder - will we still fight
for our favored billionaire?
Kundai N Nov 26
We've cut the tree for warmth in winter's chill,
Only to lose its shade when summer's heat is still.
Cut only a branch, and let new life begin,
And you'll have fire and shade to cherish within.
Zelda Nov 23
I think he was right
When I said I wanted to stand on the roof,  
he said he'd push me off.  
Then he smiled.  
I guess that’s funny.  
What do I know?  

Does that translate to "**** myself?"

It’s been years.  
I should be over it.  
But I still run from anyone  
who tries to get close.  
It’s been years,  
and I genuinely hope  
he’s happy with her.  

I just wish I understood why—  
he hated me so much,  
when I gave my all,
trying my best  
amidst the chaos.  

It was all my fault

I just wish I understood why—
Did he have to toy with me
when I expressed my fear of falling?
Why couldn’t I walk away

Maybe I was just that desperate
for connection
How utterly pathetic

It’s been years.  
Why am I still trash,  
causing problems—  
everywhere I go?  

And I don’t know.  
From time to time,  
That moment haunts me
Is that why I fear the heights?  
Or have I always feared the fall?  

I know  
I’ve earned the pain.  
It's all my fault
Maybe one day,  
I’ll learn not to fear the heights anymore
and perhaps then,  
I’ll be able to fall...

Well, you know...
We’ll see.  

Maybe I'll smile
Maitsholo Aug 26
Words I wish to hear,
from the ones I love and
the ones I value

I realized I'll never get to hear them
because "I am sorry" is not for the weak
"I am sorry" is heavy
It comes with responsibility and accountability
And... Many fear that
Sometimes it's all to much
The pain won't go away

Sometimes I don't feel normal
Becoming socially ******* from hiding myself away

Sometimes the noise doesn't leave me for days

Sometimes it gets to easy to reach
For the quick fix that will take the pain away, to help me feel normal not constricted by insecurities, to dampen the noise of life to allow me a second to breath

But I don't want that life, I don't want to be tied to a crutch filled with shame and guilt to get me through each day.

Most times the quick fix will lead to bigger problems

Most times all I need is someone who understands me

Most times we're screaming, crying on the inside
Allowing our 'problems' to become us
Feeding it without realizing it's going to consume us

Most times we make a choice
To put ourself and life first, or to watch it slip away
Our 'problems' and worries sometimes get to much for us to carry anymore. We're not heard or supported often isolated or associating with the wrong crowd.
It can be hard to face the things that are ailing us. So falling into addiction is often the easy option, the short term feelings of peace are chased as they fade away quickly.
It can be hard to watch friends or family slip into addiction, and see it change who they are.
It's a taboo subject that is tearing society apart.
I'm a demolitions expert of renown
Star of the show, the talk of the town
A destroyer of worlds they say
Or at the very least a destroyer of one

Voices rang inside my head
When things were good in my life
The urge to sabotage, the want to destroy
The desire to go off-course, the desire to stop

It has been there for as long as I can remember
Guiding me to the dark path
More often winning than being ignored
It was something I blamed for the way things are

But that was just me, my subconscious, my insecurity
Molding my decisions to be as suboptimal as possible
I need to accept, and got to learn accountability
Face the consequences, and fix the broken crucible

I want to destroy no more, for destruction is already here
Already suffering for the mess I have made
What I thought I deserved, I definitely do not
Now I have to make do with what little I have left

Let it stand as a lesson, let it stay as a warning
Beware when you light the fuse and watch the sparks
They may shine beautifully, but they are searing to the eyes
And if you do continue, give the big boom my regards
Self-destruction and sabotage is a struggle some people cope with daily.
One way or another some people think that they don't deserve all the good things that go their way. So they do some action, or enact upon a decision that will harm the self in ways beyond the physical.

Then **** happens.

There's also the self-fulfilling prophecy of some people thinking they deserve bad things, and do get them one way or another. The law of attraction is a *****.

By some people, that includes me. Self-awareness is a pain that one must endure.
Jeremy Betts May 24
Oh no, they see me
They'll soon know me
They'll know I'm only
A one trick pony
A phony
Full of bologna
No one below me
So
No one to hold me
To the business end of accountability
Ignoring any responsibility
So I fly free
With no pilot license on me
Obviously
And predictably
I did what y'all we're waiting to see
Sorry y'all had to wait endlessly
I hope y'all where more entertained than me
Sorry that me is all I could be

©2024
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