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494 · Jan 2015
And so we made love**
S Smoothie Jan 2015
Etherial touches urging into heated strokes
and a declaration of unwavering love.
gasps of 'oh how beautiful i look'
while devouring the mead of my generosity,
complements falling from your mouth
with every ****** an oath of desire
but i heard none of it
all i could see was her picture,
wiping every word from your mouth.




The doubtress flaunting my pain.
S Smoothie Jan 2019
Hi I’m a forever puppy looking for my forever home
I dream of a special place to share
Full of love and great times with people who care
I’m smarter than your average dog
And a battle witts is definitely on
Laughing as we learn how to live with eachothers rules
And make sense of all your cues
I promise, my love will never roam  
I’ll always welcome you with excitement when you’re home
When I hear your cries,
I’ll lovingly lick the tears from your eyes
We’ll need long walks to talk things over with you
And do some great exploring too!
We’ll take eachother to places we’ve never been!
Together we’ll be something to be seen
Don’t worry I’ll keep you safe!
Teach me anything  I am really keen
I’ll be patient and never mean
I have some doctor and dietary requirements too
But there is nothing I won’t do for you
Just please don’t leave me home alone all the time
and just throw me a bone
I’m a very loyal character and I’ll forever be there for you
Can you promise me the same for you?
My love will never be lazy
Are you really be my special forever person and could you really be my forever home?
493 · Apr 2014
a small token
S Smoothie Apr 2014
magnificence was never a trait of mine

thats why i always wanted to be near yours



the sun scrawls out fingers of light on your crown

The birds sing of love whe youre around

and it fills my heart with longing

how many others open their doors to your glory

and which if ever will you walk through?

my archway lays bare

all my hopes and despairs lace the floor,

curl your soul around me

and lay upon my heart

pick the beat you want,

every one is yours

and with it hope endures.
S Smoothie Apr 2014
my poetry lives through my tragedy.

my wonderful accomplishments a world of #fuckitupanywhichwayyoucanandwhenyoucantdontworrysomeoneelsewill
­
its a new word for my creative soul.

life is good and the poetry bad.

something everyone should aspire to.

not me.

i live in bittersweet notions

novel novels that live and breathe alternate realities

my realities, with just enough tilt to deny it convincingly well.

ive had the gamut of pains and ills

spared just a few that I still in some twisted way feel ungrateful for.

my hand crafting what my soul denies

my soul suffering my cruel intentions of self demise.

and all for what?

a revelrie in my  hidden thoughts?

an appreciation of my unique set circumstances?

a combination of wordss and thoughts, feelings and contexts peppered with an acute irony that defies psychological definition?

my words are my life,

my knee **** reaction to what i miss most;

the feeling of innocence,

of righteousness,

the world before the seduction of evil,

before the awareness of deception and cruelty.

the safety ive lost,

the horrid deeds done in the name of innocence

and the defiled love that stains my soul with its constant attacks of dark beauty

these are my tragedies

these are my wordss

what else is there,

but wait for applause?
492 · Dec 2014
Gutted...
S Smoothie Dec 2014
guttural groans seep
releasing themselves from me
I ******* ache for you!

The missing returns a thousand times faster than it leaves
Grabbing nothing but air and fantasy.
We used to paint the skies in colours you and I
Now the strokes are of no substance
Tracings of heat dissipating like my hope to catch our meaning
It's a guttural instinct,
a fidelity that knows no carnality only the faintest hope of it.

Another groan escapes me.
Oh **** I miss you,
like the desserts miss the rain!
I ******* need you!
Worse than the Poet needs the pain.
S Smoothie Aug 2014
the eyes of my soul have been opened

tears on dust

dead hearts and headless bodies



the mark of the beast rising

crucified by lucifer

and he cries our lord is his name

not begotten, but made.



Where there is no mercy there is no God.

there is no lord without compassion

I will not be fooled by fears

I will hold my faith high



I hold on inspite of my fear of whats to come

I draw arcs crossing over in the sand

I breathe courage from the lord

the holy comforter



tears on dust

heartless deeds on ***** hands

our Martyrs are not lost,

they are cradled in the ***** of heaven

for only their evil acts will bring us saints

there is no greater honour to suffer,

no greater glory,

let our saints grow in number,

holy, holy martyr

let the angels outnumber the demons

the holy war is eternal

for every lost innocent taken by evil

an other worldly battle is won,

the trupets are sounding

the seals are broken,

Lord have mercy

before we are capable of none.
490 · Feb 2017
Back to numb
S Smoothie Feb 2017
What is there to do?
it's so hard to be a passenger
watching us fade away
you're slipping through my fingers
lost to the tenements of duty and time
the choice is made
constant echos catch me off guard
I swear I hear you calling
but when I come
you're  not there
you send your ghost to taunt me
remnants of glistening hopes
swallowed by their smiles
They win again
They always have
I thought I had that one part of you
that tiny piece they never could
but it seems it's halved and quatered
there's not much left
if any at all
you've replaced us, me
and our impossible reality
with some other imposter
the lies you told were so real
I hold imaginary notes in my hand
and cast them to the wind
endless notes
I try to purge you
Every thought an easy betrayal
was it really ever for forever?
in the next life we said
that's too far away
so I write
endless notes
trying to forget you
endless possible futures
Torn away
carved out the deep ones with lies
how do you do it?
Look through me as if I wasn't there?
you'll be back
another note offered to the wind
Ive begun tearing out hopes
to get to the place before I met you,

back to numb
S Smoothie Dec 2013
http://hellopoetry.com/-i-write-dumb-poems/
S Smoothie Feb 2016
Folder:  CUNTISM
Firelight softens your cruel eyes,
taken by your mystery
I waited for your arm around my shoulder
But it never came
Neither did the passionate kisses
Your hand on my cheek was menacing
I knew the beach sand was soft
I waited eye to eye
I didn't resist your push
I knew what I wanted
I hoped
The soft thud of sand nestling before it scratches
Rough fingers
Drew moistened desire
  From  deep inside my aching crevice
Without looking away he pulled me free
Naked skin rising to greet warm air
Cruel intentions darkly made their  way  through me
Pushing past pain and delight
unto a land of torturous confusion
Heightened senses warn of impending danger
I rush to find my own nirvana scraping sand against velveteen
A flicker,
I broke him
he gasped,
fingers dug deep into skin held me there.
  
As he left,
Deep inside my bones
I felt colder than ever
a sweetness begging like a ***** on heat
knawing at me
Swollen and dripping,
oceans roared indignation in sympathy
A burnt ember,
He knew what I was doing when  he walked into the night
Never looking back once.
S Smoothie Feb 2016
Sauntering stealthlike
Emotions raise hairs
Clawing through snow
The senses bark
Panic over pain
And pain over panic again
Scratching ice
Numb is the new state of calm
Blood on white
Shadow slips through light
She fell and lost her heart
There was no way back
The rest was uneasy Silence
Her red hood felt see though as glass
It was a long way home
She thought of him
In every shadow cast
In red drop trails
Panic over pain,
Pain over panic again
484 · Jul 2015
It's not beautiful
S Smoothie Jul 2015

Beaten
breathless
bruised
broken
torn
tattered
stiched up
resuscitated
and
resuscitated again.

that was the function of her heart

- to be pulled to pieces
Or pushed back in together again

and still
she managed
the miracle
of love.

...

her love was
unconditionally blind
but the strong quiet
beautiful kind
that no one thought
beautiful at all.

...

A perfectly perfunctory love.


483 · May 2014
I Found my God
S Smoothie May 2014
found my God in your eyes

I found my purpose but your religon made no sense

I still suffer from disobedience

sinfully taking what i need

and ignoring all others

you filled my soul

and I can never pray enough

for your eyes to look upon me with ferver

keep your religion

i hang my hopes on the spiritual,

i want a connection

not a mandate of impossible laws

your designs fail me,

everyone a sin to confess,

i dont want your favour

i want your control.

to elvate above you and find your God in my eyes.
483 · Apr 2014
Sweetly assasinated
S Smoothie Apr 2014
your sweet touch lingers in the memory of my skin
tiny pinholes of pleasure gasping for breath
the hardness of you pressed warmly against the hollows
the sheath laid to the floor
no barriers
all guards let down
acceptance of the inevitable
as you drink deep, what is offered so willingly
after a hard fought battle
pleasures escape from your lips lies caress my soul
and mark my heart for disaster
and in the warm panic of approaching ******
all confessions obtained by blunt and assertive force have been wrenched away from this guarded heart,
and yet nothing but the mechanics of your lips and fingertips linger
the warmth swept away by the cold resolution in piercing eyes now
rolled into cold disregard
and deadly ice sets upon blunt trauma shattered by the inevitable truth
the years fall away as a game of love versus lust is thrown to the dogs
and I exquisitely and completely assassinated by love,
one sweet blow at a time.
you get what you believe you wanted only to get what you really asked for. a right hook is the best defence of a left jab.
481 · Jun 2014
Love happened
S Smoothie Jun 2014
---

It was raw and it was undeniably there.

it shook my world and I  relished it

i fought it tooth and nail

i dragged the last of my sanity and self respect

and told my self it wasn't right

and I fought the electricity between our skin

i fought the chemistry and passion

I waited years to take you out of me

to breathe without thinking you

But in that crystal clear moment,

a glorious awaking.

it happened;

and

nothing else

mattered.
480 · Mar 2014
Fickerrss
S Smoothie Mar 2014
the light flickers

the candle plays tricks for me

a warm ambient glow,

its life, simply there for my entrancement.

if only you were the flame of this candle.

then I could watch you dance and play sensously

instead of watching shadows

make shapes reminicent of you,

flicker on the wall,

wishing you close,

feeling your warmth.
S Smoothie Mar 2014
Which thousandth time is this,
that  my heart and soul cry out to you?
You have knocked my world senseless yet again.
rendered me incapable, unreachable, unlovable.
I am in the space between life, death and dreams
where I can sit next to you all I want and feel home.
The rage,* quietened by our tenderness,
our tenderness stoked by our synergies aligning
The shape and shadows of our love fall on the wall,
a four armed hypnotic cobra,
two twined into one
an intrinsic vibration,
a holy peace to transcend all eternity;
I could spend forever here...
*-If I wasn't so captivated by his seductive hell.
476 · Sep 2021
Its complicated
S Smoothie Sep 2021
What else?

A tangled bundle of glistening threads

No hint of beginning, no end

What one thread looses

another one pulls,

The highways and byways of life

A stellar matrix

Star lit dot to dots

Jumping from one to the next

The riddle is read

But not in the way it is written

The answer is said

But not in the way it was given

Another black hole

Another pull form the inside out

I go there to find you

But by the time I get there

You are all hollowed out

Where did you go?

Where did I find myself?

How did we lose?

What have we found?

Another tussle

A pull of thread

And another journey

Beyond the veil

Dont say I didn't warn you

Sanity hangs by a thread

Only which one?
475 · Aug 2014
Her Song (confessional)
S Smoothie Aug 2014
Folder: Heart aesthetics

diamonds in her eyes

no hope left in her pocket

heart's a mess

heart's a mess

diamonds in her eyes

no hope left in her pocket

sun doesnt shine warm anymore

moon wont glow

heart's a mess

heart's a mess

pulling stars from the sky

dragging down rainbows

tearing wings off butterflies

heart's a mess

heart's a mess

diamonds in her eyes

no hope left in her pocket

shes so beautfiul

shes so beautiful

when her heart is all a mess

a love dies unconfessed

diamonds in her eyes

no hope left in her pocket

so beautiful,

so beautiful,

she's so beautiful

when her heart's a mess
S Smoothie Mar 2014
oh forever torn and woven back together,
I don't understand the colours of my love
the way they fall and mesh together
the twines twisting and forming buckles and knots
the longing of loving.
the cool practical concern turning my dress into a tunic
the hot fiery passion ripping the fabric from modesty
the warm wool of comfort
the sparse cotton of carelessness
I don't have a shred of love more than I need
or any idea why,
what's woven by one love,
is worn by the other.
466 · Jul 2017
Lit
S Smoothie Jul 2017
Lit
The search for besuty
in the fires of your heart
start at warmth of it and never ends

at its inception
the masterful makers of heart fires
marked you out as extraordinary

I am captivated by the feeling
well before I see it burning in your eyes
Take me with you
light me up like a burning man effigy
explode my heart into a million stars
to chase across the skies
with one simple yess
a doorway
to a thousand and more exhilarating deaths
and rebirths

Set me alight
with all the colours of your love
x
S Smoothie May 2014
still the wires pass on the electrodes of warmth

the phone message sound that used to make my heart leap with an energy uncontrolable now someone else's exhillaration.

somewhere ovehead on the one freequency connected we keep our heart moves open for transmission

we deal with the thought of us, we live through our knowing of us, who we are and what we were born to do.

we keep on doing it apart as sure as its the same stars above in our eyes that keep us together in spirit.

and as we pass by on occasion the flood of relief drenches us as we look with one silent eye to eye transmitting a whole world of love

respect falls away passion takes over and before the damage is done in that one still moment lids fall,

pain takes over, this world of cruel understandings, has no place for us, thus we make our own in singular moments

and over the frequencies because a love like ours never dies and must be lived.
462 · Feb 2018
Missed by Midnight
S Smoothie Feb 2018
The midnight moonlight strained through the veils that hung either side of the old house's glass soul garners beset in lead white painted frames; trickling  onto heavily treaded, rich walnut boards. It was an inviting tease, but seemed so far away than it did last midnight. The clock hadn't quite struck the hour, but sensing it was close began anticipating when...

A tiny draft nudged the curtains ever so lightly, elegantly. The darkness of the last days had taken their toll. Everything seemed to protest the efforts funneled into escaping the swallowing coverlet of the bed. But the moon beckoned and its call was a sadness  too  loud to ignore. A moment  of resolve had the tenses at readiness and just as the final vault was about to be taken,  the chimes heralded the hour.

Startled, the vague  sense that a third chime had resonated, releasing its self into the night and melding with the walls into silence. Senses finally consorted themselves into some less vague awareness.  The clock's official count had begun...4...5...6...7 ...8 - a beat as always on the ninth, a quiver 10... 11...12... a delicate fade for 12th's swan song . the hungry serpent slience, quickly swallowed the room once more.

It's hard not to think in the deafening silence. It seems to breed thoughts from mere dust particles, like those captured by the moonstreams  pouring  through and making rivulets between the textures of the worn grains of the heavy wooden boards.

Staring at the glowing, gently suspended swirling particles, lit and extinguished as they dipped in and out of the pale blue-grey filems. They seemed so happy elegantly dancing in the moonlight. Envy struck a renewed a determination to bathe in its entrancing soft light.

Desperate muscles fired and the old bed protested from such a vigerous rousing and flung its squatter into the abyss! Suddenly  falling to the floor helplessly in an unexpected motion. A frozen moment spent an eternity registering its self in the senses. A blink and acknowledgement. A second blink confirming the ridiculous state of affairs! Lying like a broken puppet waiting for some other source of mobility as the mental strings were tugged one by one working its way around asertaining possible movements that would not further confound the tangled mess of limbs.

Slowly a plan emerges. Gathering the strings drawing up limbs propped against the still protesting creaks of the old bed. A final heave and a somewhat vertical slant, gave way to vertigo. Wafting centrivically left to right anchored by arms clutching screaking posts. Pressed Darkness from obedient lids offered a slight repreive.

The  moon waited paitently, peaking under and over a bevy of clouds. Heartbeats counted down the long voyage to the land of respite. The beauty called hauntingly, telling of a wanting so powerful, so necessary,  that eyes and moon ached in symphony.

The  whole house seemed to want to urge on the meeting of moonbeams  and iris. The cool air coalesced around uncertain feet placing invisible wings upon ankles. One foot drawn slightly past the other slid on cool waxed boards.

Enforced  Blindness seemed to be fitting as hands reached out for the window seat. An endless push and desperatte fumbling finally succeed in finding the hard ledge and once heaved up by protesting muscles onto the fitted cushion with the throw wrestled awkwardly and finally drawn up and over, a deep breath took in the fragrant night air.

Sitting quietly for a moment, listening to the faint fllutters of the winds secrets. The moonlight gently pressing into the translucence of thin eye lids urged sweetly to be admired with a sincere promise of exceeding the glowing return. Slowly, unable to resist such gentle persuasion,  a readiness creeped through gathering momentum and eyes slowly flickered open absorbing the beauty. The warmth of relief welled up.  The moon, appreciated so, shined its best!  Having been so lost in quiet symbiotics, the ambience was suddenly pierced, as a solitary chime brought with it, the reminder that one is alone, like the moon in a sea of stars.



.
Some things are worth it.  Appreciation is a lost art left to those who are happy or dying.
461 · Jan 2014
bad haikus
S Smoothie Jan 2014
the badly written
seeks to claim many praises
but the best humbles.
S Smoothie Oct 2014
whirlpools.

thoughts,

ideas about love and other things

you.

me.

everything in between us.

the things I love the things I hate

the things i need.

Im not sure if you are one of them

but im afraid to find out.

lost in the humdrum punctuated by angry swirls

I find something elegant about your redemption

from your graceless fall each time.

so this is love hey

and i struggle to define it in some useful form

its not pretty at all and yet so strangely beautiful.

it seems the more we hang on the more it transcends

I am hoping desperately that it isnt simply a fear

ove the loss of time spent scaping us together each time

or some stupid hope that if we hang in long enough

the fruits of our labours will come.

or is it that you and i are inextricably linked by some chaotic yet ancient force

that stirs these whirlpools into action

that the sound of my name from your lips raises hairs on my neck

and the touch of your hands warms me to my soul

and in your eyes I see home, the very same  one Ive seen you long for

in mine. and the stupid way you think drives me crazy,

but the way you love me is something of time immortal

and I can feel it burning into me

calling me home when Ive forgotten you on my adventures

and a pull so strong so real that it lights my heart almost as bright as my soul

when I see you and you see me in that way we do sometimes

we know its just so exquisitely right the way we connect.

whirlpools.

thoughts. ideas about love and other things.

you.

me.

us.
S Smoothie Mar 2014
Folder: LOVE AND OTHER RELATED *******


I dont feel like listening to pathetic vows pledged forever,

I dont want to hear another ******* line about love

I dont care to be reminded of the beauty and the pain

I dont feel like hoping in you again.

save the sickeningly sweet confessions

save it.

I dont even want to remember your name

Im too **** busy forgetting your face.
459 · Dec 2013
Love like it was brand new*
S Smoothie Dec 2013
Turn out the lights
Just for tonight
Let's forget our slights

Take me in your warm arms
Let me feel the heart I long for
Forget the words that cut our souls apart
Hold my world up one more time

Turn out the lights
Just for tonight
Let's forget our flights

tomorrow the let pain come
But tonight, let that ring stand for somethin again
I just want to hold you tangled up
crawl up inside you one more time

Turn out the lights
Just for tonight
Let's forget our spites

Let it crash and burn in the morn
but give us that chance to bring it all back
Touch my soul again as if it were brand new*

As clear and full of hope
as the day I left heaven
and fell for you
458 · Jan 2015
if it ever will.
S Smoothie Jan 2015
The frequencies play white noise in my head.
cant seem to catch your tune.
The notes dont make sense the way we used to.
So I write echos caught in the caves of despair
Capturing faded signals from the cracks of light stinging my soul
And the endless night sky.
A meagre emotional existence
clinging to webs of hope
traced from star to star, galaxy to galaxy.
infinite strands;
none seems tethered to you.
Time is endless,
and the missing immortal.
457 · Mar 2015
Finding dark
S Smoothie Mar 2015
Time rules this body and mind
But not this soul.
Searching the endless stars for my dark,
a chance to shine.
Quazars and lightshows glitter so bright,
Evious creations marvels of lightover pure darkness
thier beauty unpolluted by crossed over light.
how i long for you to wrap me up in your darkness,
how wonderfully bright my colours would shine for us, only knowing that your sacrifce, is mine
that each glorous showering lightscape,
pushes you deeper into a darker space
we can never let our true cores touch
or i shall be less me and you less you.
Our tipchasy never at an end
but always our favourite game,
the enless anticipation
of our truest selves on show
to see our colours of love again!
Till then soul love,
find dark and i will find you again.
S Smoothie Jun 2014
The hollow space where you stepped from my atmosphere felt so empty;

void of all feeling and substance. It seems you even took the air with you.

---

As you left I felt my contentment tearing away.

i held my hands awkwardly half shut, half open;

it was all I could do to stop myself physically clawing for it

---

a coldness swooped in and claimed your previously occupied space as its own, hanging itself around me... A strange essence, with the ability to call out my confidence and destroy its underlying ego. It taunted me with the relative ill-ease consuming my thoughts. As I watched each drawn out pace spreading you further away, your physicality dissolving in to the clatter and garbled amusements of the facetious element hoarded into the smoke hazed ornate ballroom.

---

It was clear you had no intentions of pandering to my insecurities, or remotely interested in any other of my womanly charms

A beast of bested burden; how easily he laid upon my heart like a warm blanket

His cruelties stung me with passion, his empty words grew me to love him in spite of him. How easily he tangled my well formed opinions and pulled my perceptions from under me!  I felt I was dancing on an ever shifting carpet afraid for dear life about to topple over the edge and ever rescued from the finite moment...

---

Appalled by my countenances, compelled by my indignation, repelled by my eagerness,  yet, still there ghostly and taunting.

But I had seen it.

A gold moment of freedom, of warmth in his eyes and I pained to see it again. It was this dust particle lit by the sun emanating a warmth to fill the rooms empty space with such a gorgeous sweet freedom, of dancing upon lightness and air!

Eye to eye, soul to soul. In that fraction of a moment it had happened and he was driven to erase it with all and any counter actions. Knowingly I begin to feel a slight crescent nudging the corner of my mouth as I realise suddenly  picking up my ego and dusting the cold off my shaken confidence... Impossible. I left, knowing the manipulations that would follow with the kind of surety of knowing one with a complete intimacy aged of many years an yet it had only Been 3 days, 3 complete life times. One fraction of eternity. I walked never looking back knowing it was I leaving the void behind me.

---

I did not care for wanton games this evening. I am not a plaything contented to puzzle over strings dangling of bobs, bits and things. As the cab rolled up and I was safely tucked inside, I thought of the ensuing orchestration of our physicality. I felt with such fervour we would meet again soon. That was three lifetimes ago. And I still won't let myself falter.

---

I write to pass this endless time.
A few pages from a book long ago
S Smoothie Apr 2018
Her shoulder was bare
a bronze shimmer
uncovered by the slip
of her sleeve
he couldn’t help but to gently stoke the curves
the sea breeze played with rogue strands of hair
and her beauty was her sadness
as she gazed unpon the ruins
of her buried heart
she seemed inconsolable
yet defiant
and a calm peace
drew him in
and he loved her in that instant
like he’d never loved before
and knowing it was completely hopeless
reconciled himself
to her protector
and keeper
of her faith
in something greater.
she didn’t move
and he took this for her compliance
a small mercy
in the tragedy of their lives.
Author's Notes/Comments:
in the darkest times a small glint becomes a bright sun of hope.
450 · Jan 2018
The 13th Mystery
S Smoothie Jan 2018
...

A whisper on the wind
carried news of your impending arrival

even the birds held their breath,
not even a twig deared snap in anticipation.

You were one one of
the 12 great mysteries of life.

But I  saw through you.

You took far more than I was willing to give unwittingly.

I am my own mystery,

so I whistled sweetly crunching on soft twigs
suffering all the hard stares and curses of the woods.

But, these are my woods,
my fields of green and my happiness never depended on you.

I wont hold my breath or on to any false hopes.

I know what there is to seek,
and what I don't want to find,

I know what I am.

Do you?
450 · Jun 2017
Who knows?
S Smoothie Jun 2017
Feelings rush around my body provoking the thoughts in my head.

The struggle to delineate right from wrong bares down on me like a heavy dark shadow carrying the weight of my misgivings.

Am I a tool furthering destructive programming from big brother?
Or
a hapless dreamer looking for silverlinings in the dark ?

From divided love and loyalties,
I swing: a pedulum of frustration and anxiety one minute and stop  in apathy the next.

Perception and point of views have too many depths to dive into.
each one a murky abyss offering nothing but the promise of enduring mystery.

I throw my hands up
and still  get shot anyway

I show the colour of my beliefs
and im labelled a facist

I fight for my freedom
and am labelled a racist

I respond to hatred with contempt
and im held in contempt

I fight a war that I never started
and found myself left to my own devices

The enemy laughs
as it uses our enlightenment
against us.

Delusional,
we think we're winning
Propaganda machine doesn't sleep,  
always on a
24 hour
need to know basis.

I stole love and I withheld it
I cried poor and never meant it
The vice in my hands
told me to do it

What happens now?
449 · Jun 2017
Ixnai on the hearsay
S Smoothie Jun 2017
It's clear that I have lost friends
That's what fire in your soul and the resulting fearlessness brings
I don't have a lot of intelligent open minded people rifling through my works or giving them the attending  or attention they deserve. They might overlook the irony sarcasm, wit or inherent fairness that is so carefully crafted into endless themes. Sometimes a social leveler, others a defensive maneuver of a wounded animal or all out aggressive neutralizing campaign. Regardless, I never wrote for any of them, I wrote for me.
They were just lucky I let them see.

- The SS
I don't mind being called a racist, Marxist, freedom fighter, guerella or any thing else because if you never stood up and said something about something despite what someone might think; you never helped change the world.
448 · Oct 2020
Neither truth nor lie knew
S Smoothie Oct 2020
They blinked

A film of Mystery

Drawn up

glassy shields

Deflecting truth

A dazzlement of lights

Leaving faded whispers

Trails of left stars

Burned up in some atmosphere

Signalling the phoenix dive

A refusal to meet fact

A skipped beat over reality

Dreams split into prophesy

Lips hung in the air

Pregnant with pauses

Lost in denial

They blink

As if they'd never known

Their love before

The truth was hovering

But neither one

Reached out to touch it

And none could figure out why?
S Smoothie Apr 2014
once again I am summoned to the irrisistable beat of your love drums.

I go in circles.

no man's land

one oar in the sea and the other pointed at the ocean.

lost in the midst of wanting and understanding

I like the circle best as it bodes closer to you my love
and less as I further away my back to you.

I am here.

you are not.

I cant come.

you will not.

what am I to do when you make my heart dance so beautifully?

what life is there without our symphony?

waves of love crash the shore with no one to greet them.

I stare into the depths of the ocean.

a marbled reflection.

a contemplation.

no man is an island.

an assurance.

you pull me in to shore just out of reach

and you keep walking down the shoreline

do you know my heart goes with you?

and all I can do is circle it from afar
as I push myself out into the ocean once again I know,

you will do what a gentleman does,

give my heart back, and in doing so

never from you will it part.

I float in circles,

trying to dance while I hear the beat of your drums

in an unsteady vessel,

half full, half empty of love.
447 · Feb 2018
Nothing much
S Smoothie Feb 2018
For the times that seemed so dark and hollow

You have been a beacon of light

You've  tripped me up

You've helped  me up

Your heated touch has stung as well as thrilled

Your eyes have held disspointment

And unrivaled love

You've ripped my heart from my soul

And put it back just as easily

I guess what I know is that

The beauty of us

is in the restoration of tragedy

The righting of wrongs

The life of lovers

Tormented souls

Finding meaning and solace

In each others arms

Wrapped by the thighs

In passionate pleas

For Love to last

Forever and all the versions

In all dimensions

Of existence to last for infinity

Is after all our aeons together

The depth of our challenges

Nothing much compared to

Our infinite forever love.
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446 · Jan 2020
Tips
S Smoothie Jan 2020
Fingers yearning, burning for touch

Cool skin warming under the heat of desiring eyes

Melded from memories of midnight places

And timeless glances

Welded eyes want to give all the clues to every secret longing, yet nothing away.

An inch spanning eternity a fragile bridge formed by the heat of breath swirling invitations of divine pleasures and intricate patterns for desires filled with aching, yet wanton abandon refrains

The rare heady warmth and enveloping depth of hearts intertwining in some mystic soul ritual, as if it had been too long and naught but for the savouring of such tension like the surface of clear glassy water before shattered by the shock wave of a projectile, just before chaos and expulsion ensue,

tip to tip shared breath, aching for the finite change of the slightest touch, not a hair arched forward, not a finger tip dared move, frozen in the complete confession of a love found unforced, not chosen, nor designed by day dreams. It just was as it had always been inextricably theirs yet not for this moment, this plane, or this existence, but love, never plays by the the rules
You're all on your own from here, do love like it matters most, do chances like they'll never come again, to life like it's the most wonderful thing of all!
446 · Jun 2016
That thing we do
S Smoothie Jun 2016
Once again thoughts run haywire
overun by you
mind crackles alive with alternative universes.
Or cracks we could slip through and melt together.

-----

Searching for an exit its too late
Nothing but the inevitable longing of home

----

Warm eyes melt away the distance
As always,
time has no meaning for us,
it only passes drawing circles around us
dragging with it destiny's indelicate strings  into knots of fate
That only seem to tighten

----

Resistance is futile
Fate has consipired
face to face again
Heart to heart,
Soul to soul.

----

Old wounds fade
A new pain rises
The inevitable nothing
Another lifetime of longing
Two steps away
And aeons apart

----

A tangled mess of miss-timed,out of tune
love symphanies
That inevitably end apart

----

What else is there to do
But to spend endless aeons in your eyes
And capture long lived memories
Of an ancient past
Where everything was held in eachothers arms

-----

The Gods decreed no
Setting our pawns in motion
But there are no other obidences
In our soul's hearts
Despite our best intentions
It seems we can never be
Truly drawn apart


----

Let the emotions fall
Through the guard veils
Let the hidden energy of our souls
mingle in eacothers atmophere
To be in this moment,
In all the gloriousness of love
The truest kind
The kind for all ages to come
Ours.
445 · Jun 2014
Aches beside sunsets
S Smoothie Jun 2014
it was a cool breezy sunset

the colours of passion swallowed up the skies

and chased the sun

dragging the starlights over the sea.

a chill set in.

I wished to hell I had his arms around me

only the warmth of his memory remained

and that kind of warmth

does nothing for the lonely chill in this cold night air.
444 · Oct 2017
Unsaved Work
S Smoothie Oct 2017
The unrighteous seek the words to passify their guilt and find peace driving it away with their actions.

The righteous seek the word to acknowledge thier guilt and wash it away with repentence and find peace.
Uninterrupted peace makes for stagnant waters...
442 · Dec 2017
How do you find Motivation?
S Smoothie Dec 2017
You don't find it.
YOU CREATE IT.
It starts with -
Just because I can, I have the will.
Because I have the will, I have the means,
because I have the means, I allocate time.
Because Time is precious, I Prioritise.
Because priorities compete, I assign equal times to needs.
thus I begin.
Once I begin, I reprioritise, because I can ...

A thought with no action is of no concequence
440 · Apr 2014
it never seems so.
S Smoothie Apr 2014
I havent thought of you all day.

till this second.

I had a lovely time,

the wet pleasant weather sending cool breezxes and light rain

relaxing in bed.

warm body snuggled up tight next to me

everything so beautifully perfect...

till this second.
440 · Jul 2019
Afterthought
S Smoothie Jul 2019
As I step on to the precipice of the unknown

I don't dare look down;

instead I trusted that once that step was taken

I flew.



The whistling of doubt swirling around my ears

Drowned out by the scream of delight

Free falling to uncertainty



I never bothered to learn how to fly

I had too much faith

All broken wings are mended



control is nothing but a choice

And never have I ever run out of choices



The best choice I have ever made

Is to call a ***** a *****

Never to doubt my self in anything

That mistakes aren't real

A course of action is simply a choice

and a collection of reactions

That don't exist except in a memory



I am always in control of my reactions

And that's why I didn't flinch when you threw my dignity to the floor

I walk out and left it



Obviously you were in need of some.



Excuse me, but I have other choices to make

Get the **** out of my way



I'm gonna fly!
Come fly with me!
S Smoothie Jan 2017
Hauled over the back end of the bed
spread eagled and faced down,
plunging your **** deep inside
***** deep is when you decided to say I love you,
but you couldnt say it when I said it looking into your eyes
at my birthday dinner and June was there watching.

----------------

i flicked the toast over
buttered side to buttered side
just the way you liked it
it was a small thing
I didn't do anymore
you never said a word,
but you knew not to complain
It was the apartment in Brussels when I surprised you
I noticed the toast
and smell of her *** on your fingers.

-----------

She he pushed her stiletto heel into his **** as he both begged her not to and calling her god. She knew he liked it but it kind of left her feeling disappointed. She was rather hoping she was enough.

------------

******* are funny things
I usually forget all about them
excpt when you walk in the room
they just want to leap out and attach themselves to your mouth
clamouring for the privilege of being first.

--------------


your words are sharp and cruel
the sudsy sink hides the long blade clutched
slowly prying opening up a clamshell
your body is rude, imposing,
poking and prodding.
still I can't help but gasp as fingertips nuzzle into my crotch
anticipation of the violence used to free the tight hollow
but this time is different, somehow wary
gently tugged to the side, thumb caressing lips
Puckered crevices fill as soft nudges burn with warmth
gently deeper,
the handle clutched tighter trying to grasp on to anything solid
The veil now lifted you sink ******* leaving me with authority
i sudden shock wet lips on wet lips pulses of pleasure ripple
suddenly Im moving into you begging for more
smooth skin glides up my calf and inner thigh the knife released
to Shepard you in you resist mesmerized that the tables have turned so easily,
Finally with all the confidence of a tyrant you begin unleash yourself only you froze, pulled out and walked away.
For ***** sake! and I swore to my self I would drive that god ****** knife into your heart today. You *******! And just like that. The game just changed.

-------------------

Coffee for one again
usually there's two
so you must be ******
was it when I mentioned that name
yu know, when we were both writhing naked on the floor?
It was a simple comparison.
Why so sensitive?
It only happened once.

----------------

the jam sat on the table next to the tea and scones
eyes over easy we looked at each other as she pottered around looking for the cucumber for her sandwiches, she found it in an odd place
and served them as if she had served the queen. We ate them of course most satisfyingly as she harped on about what you did and didn't like
we both agreed we especially liked our cucumber sandwiches,
all the while with your hand in my thighs.
439 · Jun 2014
love tangles and knots
S Smoothie Jun 2014
love escapes us

it roams free in the netherworld

it comes to touch us lightly on the shoulder

it plays with the strings tied to our hearts

tangles and knots

it trips us up and cuts us free

what is it dear love that you want from me?
439 · Jan 2018
Nothing Much
S Smoothie Jan 2018
Your eyes keep outlining the shape of your desires

Transposed on to my body

Watching you watching me

No secret, im left exposed

Vulnerabilities exploited

with a mere flicker of the eye

Primed eyes locked

Its the moment

Flight or fight

Zeroed in on my waist,

a triangulation of anticipated pleasures

Eyes drawn up,
the signal fire is lit

a flourish of your jacket like a bullfight

Swaggering towards me

arm raised in another flicker

the resounding crack of a slap breaking

broke the air

Fear panic and dread.

frozen.

And yet,  the kiss left

was soft warm and gentle

Weaving the shape of a homely warmth

that as soon you broke away

left a chasm so cold

i was driven to clamour for it

Only for a second though,

You know what a stubborn ***** i am.

Admitting it was never an option.

Even with my breath in your mouth.

Still when asked what i felt

You know my reply.


First draft

Your eyes keep outlining the shape of your desires

Transposed on to my body

Watching you watching me

No secret, im left expised

Vulnerabilities exploites with a mere flicker of the eye

Primed eyes locked

Its the moment

Flight or fight

Zeroed in on my waist a triangulation of anticipated pleasures

Eyes drawn up the signal fire is lit a flourish of your jacket like bullfight

Swaggering towards me arm raised in flicker the resounding crack of a slap breaking broke the air

Fear panic and dread frozen

And yet the kiss left was soft warm and gentle

Weaving the shape of a homely warmth that as soon you broke left a chasm so cold i was driven to clamour or your warmth

Only for a second though,

You know what a stubborn ***** i am.

Admitting it was never an option.

Even with my breath in your mouth.
438 · Dec 2015
Bang, bang...
S Smoothie Dec 2015
Irksome calm
Uncomfortable silence
Tension before the violence
Unsettling mind
Uneasy heart
Oceans apart
Denial of trust
Darkness and shadows
Lies like truths
Piercing arrows
Stabs of aching
The sound of breaking
If only you had said
What's in your head
I wouldn't have filled in my own blanks
With lead.
438 · Jan 2017
Haiku Quintessence
S Smoothie Jan 2017
In truth

Eyes brought me to knees
Only God shows what God sees;
Heart closes, eyes opened


Hope

Hands wrung tight on hope
Truth landslides down the mountain;
Loose hands never hold

Resist

Dissolved in your sights.
Puddle of inconsequence;
Easily taken

Mismatched

Found, lost in your eyes;
The universe tilted left.
Now, nothing is right.
437 · May 2014
trying not to vent
S Smoothie May 2014
Trying to stay strong
But i feel so **** alone
The only way out of this steaming pond is to drain the sucker dry

Tired of swinming in my own sweat and tears
Delivering on other peoples promises that never took into account my quality or my generosity, only thier comfort in my selflessness.

I am a being like not too many others whos goodness and light has slowly been leached from my bones with no sustinance i have reached the form of a blackened stone

Heavy and compact repelling all light to the centre. This is the state of being used one phase before ashes.

Self preservation embarks on negative pressures...

better watch the **** out when this diamond comes the clarity will be blinding and the cut so clean youll barely notice

till even as a paper weight you wont find me ill be sparkling precious in anothers eyes who's smile enhances mine.
437 · Aug 2021
The Rite of Words
S Smoothie Aug 2021
I have a warming glow

coalseced in the pit of my soul

giving rise to more profound insights

that are yet to claim their words.

I pray they do find them similarly

in days yet to come,

but the beats pass unavailed often.
Starwards comments on  Bare Naked on Postpoems were the inspiration.
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