confusion fills every inch within me
accompanied with endless questions
yet all unanswered

i lay in what feels like a vacant room
despite her body laying in the same bed
furthermost from my touch
the space between appears to be miles apart

i lay restless as she lays in deep sleep
the silence in the bedroom seems like an eternity
placing my thoughts in a continuous loop of doubt
replaying our previous conversation
the tone in her voice echoed a wasted breath

i'm left speechless
every emotion has paralyzed my body
i feel my heart pounding against my chest
along with amplified sounds of tears colliding against the pillow
i lay there in silence as the clock continuous to tick
and the small beams of sunlight  begin to appear...
The sun continues on its daily routine

I don’t miss you.
I really don’t.
I miss the person the person I was with you.
I miss the person you pushed me to be.
I miss that you brought the best out of me.
I miss the fear you subjected my demons to.
Leaving me to be the best version of myself, for you.

i've given you my universe,
yet
the stars that illuminate in darkness,
the planets that fill the emptiness,
the sun that warms your soul,
and the unknown beauty surrounding it,
is not enough to complete your galaxy.

I can't fathom the thought of you being gone.

The pain,
Unbearable.

Squeezed my lungs,
Gasping for air.

Threw me down a 20 story building,
Left with a million shattered bones.

Hit by a train,
Nothing but destroyed flesh.

Shot a hundred times,
Burning sensation all over my body.

No pain will ever compare
To losing you.

I'll see you every time I close my eyes.

I will glance at the sky,
And remember you're in a better place.