I know what I am,
yet sometimes I find it difficult to understand.
I was walking the path of deceit
....hoping I would find someone who would hold my hand.

I never knew the feeling to be looked at like a person that really matters,
At the verge of my defiance,
I found someone whom I can count on and climb the highest ladder.

You gave me strength,
You gave me hope,
You made me feel special,
I felt like we were bound to be together,
Although to the world I was the Devil!

Loving is hard as people always say,
Yes it was but not as hard to see you walk away.

And then again,
I was all alone but with a different pain
The pain I couldn't bear,
In the path of deceit again,
With the pain you left me with as your share.

Maybe it was me, the reason for us to end,
But wherever you are I hope for the best,
Because now I know who I really am and I never should have let you hold my hand.

I'm having one of those days,
where nothing seems alright.
My head's stumbling like its in the ******* maze!
And I'm losing in every fight.

What the **** is going on?
Feels like the water is flowing backwards,
The gravity pull is upwards.
Seems like everything is messed up.

Oh what a shame
Don't know when it all began.
You play all your mind game,
Trying to put all your blame,
On ME!!

Pretending that you were here for me,
Offering me your helping hand.
You tried to serve and feed me,
Only what's good for you.
I swallowed it whole,
But now I'm spitting it back on you!

I've drowned in your shadow,
So dark and deep!
Couldn't even figure out,
If I'm fake or real!

You sold me out, knocked me down,
Stabbed me on the back,
Soaked my heart in gasoline
And burned it down!

Now I could care less,
Coz my head is full of ******* rage!
Oh my vision has turned red,
So you better runaway.

Yeah you better be scared,
When my eyes are furious and red.
Had enough of your stupid games,
Its my turn to make you pay!

Time as a monster
Keeps tick tick ticking over.
Sometimes behind me,
Most of the times ahead of me,
But when its right beside me,
I get really scared.
Wish I could be spared,
But it cares for no one
And keeps on coming and coming and coming...

I am a God, I am the Devil.
I provide the circumstances for an easy life yet I am the one to make it hard.
I am the one who brings you down still I am the one who raises your level.
I am the one who gives you hope and I am the one who leaves you scarred.

I am the one who cared deeply but I am the one who remained a mystery.
I am the one who exaggerates your pain yet I was the one who put you out of misery.
I was the one who helped you climb the highest mountains still I will be the one who will push you out of envy.
I am the one to lie but I expect everyone to speak truthfully.

I am the Buddha, I am the ******,
I can spread peace worldwide yet I can be the mass murderer.
I could put the gun in your hands or I could free you from your own prison.
I can start the war in the name of racism or later people could pay me tribute and start a different religion.


I am a human being, that's who I choose to be.
I make mistakes and I learn from it.
I am not perfect, that's not what I intend to be.
This world ain't a joyride but I know I have the guts to live through it.

I don't know what's going on,
Don't know what went wrong!
In my mind, nothing's clear,
Seems I've turned my life to over-steer.

I just want to disappear,
In my loss everyone's here to cheer!
Feel so empty in here.
Losing you was my only fear!

Then you turned on your way,
It was my darkest day!

When we stayed up all night,
Made me feel so safe and right.
Holding you meant world to me,
Felt so alive and free.

I must have done something wrong,
To you is where I belong!

We fought so many times,
exploded like the freaking mines!
Should have been me to leave you,
maybe I was scared of this view.

I wake up all these nights,
remembering all our fights.
When you first blamed me,
Should have been me to leave!

Been a long long time now,
stuck here down below.

I don't know what I'm doing here.
I don't know how I got here,
Maybe I do, but all I can see,
at the way top above,
glimpse of a sunlight
through a tiny hole.

I've tried so many times,
trying to crawl back to the sunlight.

The walls are too slippery,
There's no ledges to hold on to...

feel so scared in the dark,
as I am the only one.
yet I feel so ashamed,
even though there are no eyes of anyone.

Each day I wake up, Today is The Day!
then I realize there's no one here, what can I say...

I cry, I scream, I rage,
sometimes I realize I'm expressing, but only in my head!

No matter how many times I climb,
I keep falling down.
I wish there was someone else,
that can keep holding me now.

Can't figure out what else can I do...
Still I'm dying to crawl out through!

Filled with regret and so ashamed.
Wasn't my mistake still I am to blame.
Feels like I'm trapped in a box,
with no doors and windows,
Really hate this feeling,
This ******* *****!
It haunts me, your memories!
Everywhere like a shadow!
No matter how hard I ******* run,
It hunts me down!
Coz love is a fire,
I don't wanna burn in it!
Yeah maybe it was my fault,
But I don't wanna burn in it!