I want u to use me for ur ****** pleasure .....
Make me beg and with u I will do whatever!!!

U were always so much fun....

Can I have one more day???

That's not much!!! Just one!!

Ive been thinking of how to do things to make a change..
Its just hard since I will have to go out of my normal range.

But I need to do something *** living like this isnt fun anymore...
I want to live a life free of addiction....which wont be like before...
I want to be happy and live life to the fullest and all it has in store.

I think about it and that makes me feel happy inside..
I may as well do it.....if I dont like it then at least I tried.
Its gotta be better then sitting alone each night and have cried...
I know it will be better  and it will give strength and restore my pride..

I want a life for once and I cant get it this way.....
So I am going to give it a try.....
I love myself enough to  do this and I will continue to pray.

Snow is falling-
covering up the memory of
Summer

One of my good friends had an operation to remove a syst on her ovaries !!
I just text her bro and asked how she was doing since that's one of my biggest worries !!

He said she's fine in recovery....
What a relief !!!
Hpoe there wasn't any cancer to be found *** they said it wouldn't be known until the syst is out !!!

I'm just glad that she is okay !!!!
Just glad it's over and now she can start to heal right away!!!

You
Me
Them
They
Us
Her
Him

I need a break from all of that. No more memories. Please. Just stop.

I really hope my best friend is ok...
Ive texted her and messaged her and called her a few times today.

she hasnt responded back...
I hope shes is alright.,....
I hope she gets back intouch with me at least by tonight.

I know shes going thru something thats so sad....
I cant imagine loosing a parent....but i dont have a dad...(well step)

I hope each day is easier and she can soon again smile.....
but im sure it wont be for awhile.