insecurity gets the best of me.
even when I don’t mean for it to.
a fear of becoming bothersome
with these afflictions I try to suppress.
I suffer restlessly with these sentiments,
earnestly craving a silence from the voices
that resound persistently in my head.
I struggle with the irons wrapped around me,
screaming routinely that it’s all a facade.
no matter how hard I try, how far I run,
the thoughts are always ahead of me.
always one step in front, beckoning me.
enticing me to welcome their embrace.
an embrace of sorrow, of lies and of pain.
a place of immeasurable uncertainty.
blanketed by a face of calm.

I trust you will take care of me
for as long as we both shall live
during days of rain and darkness
I know you'll be my light
your warmth will envelope me
your skin shall find my own
with every whisper, every heartbeat
I'll give myself to you
I trust you with my life
that you'll cherish and protect me
I will follow you wherever you go
because you are my shelter and my shield
your love will be my guide
my medicine and my covering
I know full well you will take care of me
for as long as we both shall live

when I awoke, my bed was empty,
and your warmth was not beside me.
I looked for you, you did not come.
my eyes searched for yours,
only to be left with a broken heart
when the door opened,
revealing an unfamiliar comfort.
o, let me receive you, come now.
fill this empty space in my bed,
plant a kiss upon my head.
take my hand, trace my skin.
outline my aching frame.
like a river, let thine love flow.
deny me not this truth.
love me, that’s all I ask of you.
riches we need not.
just the love in our hearts.
let this carry us through all of our days.

I love, my love. this love I give to you.
here, love! find rest in my ***** of sleep.
dear, heart. I beseech you, open your pain.
let hurt flow and feel the stinging of the rain.
pray, do not hide from my shield.
instead, won’t you come find shelter in your grief?
I implore, implore! I swear to you I hear.
no judgement shall find you, from what you whisper in my ear.
I promise you refuge, and a never-ending love,
shall descend on you like healing light from above.
come, humble vagrant.
pursue my listening ears.
I promise to never push you away,
no matter what it is you say.
I see your value, your identity, your worth.
such beauty given at your birth.
I ache and long to share your pain,
help in anyway I can.
I’ll take your pain and your sorrows,
I’ll make them my very own.
here I am to love, like a fetter bind thy to me.

just tell me that you think I look pretty tonight
and that my eyes look dazzling under lights
please don’t hesitate on all that you’re thinking
because now all the thoughts in my head are spinning