For my birthday
you bought me my favorite book
That I already had
for your birthday
I bought you
when you met the new boy at school
I told you he wasn't a good guy
you did not listen
when you told me
that the boy I'd known my whole life wasn't a good guy
I list without question
you told me that your mother did not approve of my new haircut
this fact I already knew
last night you told me that you are uncomfortable and ashamed standing next to me
this fact I did not know
8 years ago when I met your parents
I was astonished and ashamed to stand next to them
for they pinned you to the wall like a dartboard
like a piece of meat for their game
they pushed pins in you of self doubt
of self hate
They said to you word I had never heard and adult say to a child before
if they could they would have cut into your flesh themselves
taking razors to every fat cell they did not like
8 years ago I stood up to them
to do what you never could
1 week ago even after you stoped listening to me I stood up to them
I tried as desperately as I could to take away their words
I stand here as your own personal dartboard
and because of that
I am now ashamed for you to call yourself my friend
Its sad to think
That when we drifted apart
It was because you let me go
You stoped thinking about me
You stopped "wasting time"
Roses bloomed in her eyes
The day the sky changed from grey to divine
We danced on starlight clouds
And chanted songs of childhood springtime
We never thought to wander
The pasts or plunders
We loved to the world turned round
And never stoped to tie our shoes
Round and round on the money go round
Your hopes they kept on turning
Those fortunes ran dry no wealth was found
It's the music game you were learning.
Not all that glitters is made of gold
And it's not always greener on the other side
You followed your dream giving your soul
Then your hopes they passed you by.
your futue was sealed through rose coloured glasses
You looked at your world through a crystal ball
You thought your name would reach the massis
Only to find they weren't there at all.
Now singing your songs just to get by
You tried to aim for the stars
You used to play in concert halls
These days it's clubs and bars.
The music world's not what it seems
It is the nature of the game
Now your looking back on broken dreams
There was never that Hall of fame.
So when you made it too the top
There was only one way you could go
And when that time your music stoped
You were back on earth below .
The music world in the main stream is fast paced
Many carry on with music after fame.,Seen so many
Who were so well known who we rarely hear now but still
Great .It's the nature of the game.
Today I looked in the eyes of death.
My heart stoped for a bit of secend,
my eyes dropped for a spill of minutes.
I was dead inside with this boy dead outside.
I was a mother who lost a child,
I was a father who lost a son.
I was a sister, a brother and a friend,
everyone who once believed.
This is how it ends.
Eventiually we all lose in our own game.
A clear sight I can see
A future that has opened up to me
A cage that belonged to who
with A door that is now open too
A heart that hasn't stopped beating Ever since I met you
A glimpse caught in a moment of stoped time
The wings fly faster then the seconds going by
The sun with a glare makes the light reflection of a rainbow appear
Surrounding the future with many years
and Perhaps I have been deceived
That I am capable of hearing a Ding
I do not need a trumpet or drum
just a sound will do me in for
for even just a small patter
Is more then I have ever heard
As I have lived an entire life of the utter silence.