i’d rather stay awake with you
until 4 am and talk about
what you eat for breakfast every morning
your favorite season of the year
how old you were when you lost your first tooth
eventually our eyes wouldn’t be able to stay open
any longer and we’d fall asleep
mid-conversation in eachother’s arms
with the lamp still on in the corner of my room
and my window cracked open just enough to
hear the breeze shake the tree in the front yard

because an emotional connection is so much stronger
than a physical one
i don’t want to be your one-night stand
i want to be a piece of your heart
the reason you get up in the morning
that song that’s always stuck in your head
i want to be the sun in your sky
you sure are in mine

you smell like lavender and
everything i've ever wanted

i think about you a lot
much more than you(‘ll ever) know
when i pass you in the hallways and
when i get home at the end of the day and
right before my eyes close at night
mostly i think happy, hopeful thoughts about what we could be
but then when i snap back to life
from my wonderful daydreams of you and the ocean blue in front of us
i remember that you don’t think of me at all
and i’m just that girl in your math class
your thoughts and longing belong to someone else
i may as well be invisible to you.

ouch.

i want to fall in love
even though i know it usually ends in pain
because even pain is better than feeling
nothing at all

i wonder sometimes
am i truly
                                         i n v i s i b l e
do they see right
through me like i am
                                        g l a s s
waiting to be
                                        s h a t t e r e d

every time i hear your laugh or
catch a glimpse of that look you give only me
i can’t help but think of
how ******* much it’s gonna hurt when you leave

in a constantly fluctuating
ever-changing word
there are two things that
will remain no matter what

1. yourself.
at the end of the end of the day
your opinion of yourself is
the only one that matters
take care of your body and mind
nurture yourself
fall in love with your
beautiful, messy being

2. your family.
no matter how bad you messed up
how big of a mistake you made
they’ll always be there to hold you up
don’t push them away for
something temporary
they raised and grew with you
they really do know what’s best

don't abandon the things
that stuck with you through it all.