Forget me
And who I ever was

Forget the
Tears I've shed
And the blessings I'd give

Forget my existence
As I become one with the wind
Never to be seen
Rarely am I heard
But I am still here, as real as before

Forget my memory
And the baggage it brings

Forget the hardships and
All the pain unseen

Just let me waste away
Floating out to sea
Let it be the last time
You'll ever think of me

So tired
of living
I could just
Die
So tired of waiting
For a good thing
When all I'm fed is
Lies
I will never taste
Happiness
The taste is bitter
On my tongue
So tired of neglect
Or the twisted words you said
So tired of the way you
Cry
When there's no more tears
To be shed
Nothing with you
Has ever made sense
And knowing that you
Will never repent
Makes me so tired
I could just
Sleep
Spend all of my life
Forever in my
Dreams

In sadness
I smile
In sickness
I push
In trials
I wear a mask
So no one has to
Know the horrid truth

I once was bare
For all to see
There were no secrets
Hiding underneath

This is the cost
The innocence of our youth
That is why when I speak
All you hear is the truth

So full of deciet
But it's all an illusion
Don't take off the mask
That I'd molded so carefully
It's the only thing that separates me
From my true identity

When we were young
And the snow fell down
Is when we would play
Even if we were too old
And we'd cause a lot of mischief
Because that's what we did
And we'd laugh the night away
Within winter's embrace
And we shared our first kiss
As our hearts floated away
And said that our love
Would never fade

As we got older
And the snow rained down
Is when we would worry
If we could travel in safety
But we had bills to pay
So we'd venture out anyways
And he bought me a ring
Got down on one knee
In the beauty of the world
And asked me to be
Forever his to hold
Forever his to keep

Together we grew old
On that day
The snow fell like ashes
And the cold brought me pain
As we laid him in a coffin
On a cold December day
I knew my life would never be the same
Still, I wished for the time
When the snow was falling
And you were still mine
When we used to laugh
And we used to play
And kiss and love
And dream of our future
But now he's gone
And my future is dead
So now I'll lie frozen
Numb in my bed

Every now and again
I wonder
Why a part of me Still cares

When every hit and every
Burn
Leaves me numb beyond compare

You've  never loved me
You never will
And yet I'm longing for you still

It doesn't make sense
These thoughts in my head
I just wish they'd go away

I don't want to care
I don't want to feel
Feel as if maybe my dreams
Could be real

I don't want to hope
I don't want to pretend
That maybe this love isn't
In my head

You're so distant
You make me feel
So distant
And I can't stand it

I wish you would just leave
And never hurt me again
Deep down I wish you could be
Something like a friend

If only
You could see
How happy you could be

If only
You could know
That at the end
There is hope

If only
You could feel the love
That we feel for you

If only
You were here
To see all these faces

If only
You saw
All the ones who miss you

If only
I could hold you again
For one last time

If only
I'd have been there
Moments before you died

If only
We could laugh again
I want to hear your voice

If only
We could be
The way we were before

If only
I didn't have to
Come to see your grave
I would much rather
Come to see your face

Sometimes I wonder:
If only
You were here
I would be whole again
And never let you disappear

It's unfortunate
That you had to die
Even more so
Because it was me who
Had held the knife

******, you cried
******, so perfect
The way you screamed
When your stomach
Was exposed

Your heart was racing
In a fear unspoken
Your breathing was slim,
For your lungs would not open

Blood paints the walls
And I take a taste
Someday maybe I
Will share the same fate
Welcoming death's
Eternal embrace

I miss the touch
The feel of a mother's love
Or a father's caring concern
With their arms around me
Together
Forever
But some things
Were just never meant to be

I miss the long talks
And how she would listen
I miss the guidance
And how he would try so hard
Just to understand me
So he could know me
Better than ever before

I miss the sense of family
And long for some security
They were my foundation
Together, we were happy
But only for a season

I miss the heartfelt tears
And all the time we'd spent
Throughout the years

I miss you mom
I miss you dad
I miss all the times
We will never have