i was near hanging
standing on the chair
ready to stop breathing oxygen, air
i thought of you
and how we used to be
it pushed me closer to the edge
i thought i'd fall off
but then i remembered
how in your arms i always feel caught
crying and shaking
i made myself climb down
you are my wicked hope
you are my home
i need to keep breathing
if only just for you
you have saved me so many times
darling, i'm sorry and thank you
Last night.
I can never **** myself physically, I'll just keep doing so mentally. Emotionally.