in my past I let myself become battered and bruised
I thought being nothing at all
was far worse than being used.
Ive been hospitalized twice
for doing all that I can
just to look nice.
there isn't much I wouldn't do
in order to please
a boy like you.
I'd give you my all
but I'm stuck behind this wall
wishing a door was near.
I gazed into your soul
it was like looking into a mirror
and maybe that's why I think
we're closer than we appear.
I'd follow you anywhere
I'd even shave off all my hair
because you were the only one that cared
about the parts of me that are still alive.
you're all that I want.
don't be afraid of wanting me too.
id wait forever and a day for you
and with the way our story is unfolding
I think I might just have to.

I'm not gonna beg you to come to my grad
and pretend to have something I've never had.
there are certain things you can't forgive
it's basically a list of everything you did.
you won't see me pleading you to come to my prom
you should be the one asking me
because you're my mom.
I grew up in a lie that you couldn't walk
and now you don't even pretend we can talk.
you still don't know about my tattoos
and dad's just as oblivious
to the abuse.