Time stamped messages
Instant gratification
Checked in
Logged on

Time stamps
I C U
Instant disappointment
Overlooked, ignored

Time stamps
Phone updates
Notifications
Instant insanity

Time stamps
Back check lies
I C U
Checked in elsewhere
When, where, why

Time stamps
Insomnia
Where R U
Ah, I C U

Sitting in the aftermath
Of shattered dreams on broken skin
Left to wonder how
Realizing we are all capable of unmentionables
Steeped in regret
Begging forgiveness
Accidents are accidents
Still, there is no forgiveness
Self-affirming the negative
Unintended consequences
Alter perceptions
Who are these people
Who, then, have I become
Though, that who feels more like a what
And the demons laugh
As they frolic in the real world
Let them run free
Let them dance
Who I was
Will hide in their dungeon
For it is safer in there than out here
Yes, it is much safer
And there is no one
To say differently

          Punish the guilty
                    Punish the guilty
                              Punish the guilty

Who needs proof
What is proof
It was only an accident
Unintentional circumstances
Affirm nightmares
No one will find me in here
Safe in the lair of the beasts who bore me
Alone inside my head

There is nothing

                               But darkness

If you cannot forgive

                                              Yourself

I see the days end drawing nearer
Still foggy without getting clearer
The choices I've made
My dreams they invade
Staring back as I look in the mirror

Forgiveness is merely a virtue
Won't alter the fact that I've hurt you
Now filled with regret
Wishing I could forget
Still, my treacherous acts don't avert you

You see me as some kind of Savior
Despite my appalling behavior
My smile cannot hide
The demons inside
From that truth, I'm unable to waver

There is peace
In a heart that can't be given
For there is no fear
Of it ever breaking