PrttyBrd Sep 2010

It lifts my spirits, even when they aren't down
It resonates with all things happy
Makes me tremble to the core
The expectation of its warmth
Comes as waves of unforeseen joy
When the ride ends it is always bittersweet
Until tomorrow
Until next time
When that time draws near
I wait with bated breath
In hopeful anticipation, I linger
Almost as an afterthought in throaty air
Like distant thunder in a cloudless sky
With a deep rumble and a Southern drawl
Sweet dreams always follow

copyright©PrttyBrd 26/09/2010- From The Ride of a Lifetime
PrttyBrd Nov 2014

As you wish
So shall it be

Goodbye my friend

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Good intentions often resemble bad ideas...
10w
PrttyBrd May 2015

+One year
+One month
+One day
We share one soul eternally

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As one always
PrttyBrd Nov 2014

Born under the guise
Of endless possibilities
Raised to believe the old adage
2b or not 2b
Wherein the outcome of life
Is limited only by the edge of infinity

Truth is, there is only binary code
Open or closed
Black or white
Do or do not
One or zero

To be or not to be

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PrttyBrd May 2015

At a thousand miles
A heart breaks a thousand times
Yet, still smiles in love

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Senryu
14
PrttyBrd Jan 2011
14

Heart shaped boxes with red satin ribbons
Pink stuffed atrocities that have no use
Sappy lovesick greeting cards
Flowers that always die

Cheap chocolate massed produced
Three months of brainwashing prior
Chalky hearts profess true love
The lonely always cry

Made up days of forced romance
Bullied into mass compliance
Pressured into jewelry sales
Empty grand gestures prevail

Today is a day for puppy love
An excuse to eat by candlelight
Public affection is cool tonight
As we've appeased the Gods of retail

A day like any other day
Rising and setting moon and sun
Though nothing has changed
The heart races still

Though the chocolates are cheesy and stale
And flowers will die tomorrow
Though the world bullied the romance
I've been taken against my will

To the land of cotton candy dreams
For a few heartfelt words on paper
A card that speaks your love
And the truth that is in your eyes

Nervously, the gifts accepted
I am almost at a loss
Tears begin to well a little
And I pray the words don't lie

May I stay in this land of make-believe
Where it feels like a fairytale
Make tonight's dream, forever's reality
Wishes on wishing stars come true

Sarcastically with cynicism
And a dry wit that defines my nature
Hidden deep within the core
Of things I said I would never do

I will savor every chocolate
As if it is your warm lips on my own
And every word and cheesy line
Is the most beautiful I ever read

For you have chosen it just for me
Filled with all you cannot say
So I cherish my pink and heart-filled card
Because it is to me the words are said

From me, there is no cheesy gift
No candy covered sweets tonight
Nothing retail overblown
Just a small white box with a  hand tied bow

A poem in my own hand
As I give my heart on patterned paper
So simple, but it's everything.
Please don't ever let me go

copyright©PrttyBrd 14/01/2011- From 14
PrttyBrd Nov 2014

If I left you in a dream
Leave me sleeping

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10w
PrttyBrd Nov 2014

those little nothing moments that become absolutely everything.

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one-stroke senryu
PrttyBrd Jan 2011

Changing tides
Warm breezes
Swaying trees
And a smile

copyright©PrttyBrd 25/01/2011
PrttyBrd May 2010

I give to you a garden
Complete in every way
A mixture for the senses
To ease the pain away

I give you all the flowers
That grow throughout the year
A blanket that is petal soft
To wipe away the tears

I give to you a rainbow
Colors so brilliant and bright
To brighten up your spirit
Through the darkest of the nights

A world of wonder awaits
Though it is not mine to give
I promise I will always try
As long as I shall live

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PrttyBrd Jul 2010

Once upon a time I knew who I was and kind of what I wanted, or rather expected from life.  I was sure I knew who I was.  I had a plan, general ideas on a tentative time-line.  This comes before that, and so on.  I got swept away in the rapids of others.  Tossed around and wrung out.  

Swept away
White water, no raft
Lonely ride


Left in the gutter, I found my way home; vacant-eyed and sullen, Jaded and confused beyond the realm of humanity, but home.  What had I done to attract such things?  Why was it okay to be garbage to others?  Abused and unwanted, still far from myself.  Plastic bubble gum smiles, no one asks and I don’t tell.  Made it home, scathed and broken.  Thinking the me I knew couldn’t possibly have done that.  So, was I ever who I thought I was?

Beautiful masks worn
Thin veneer of porcelain
Hides maceration

Haibun

copyright©PrttyBrd 01/07/2010
PrttyBrd Feb 22

I will hold you
Tightest
When you feel most
Alone

10w
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PrttyBrd Feb 2015

Tracing the shadows behind your smile
Smelling the pain that bore your demons
Seeing the heart that masks your soul
Watching your gaze mesmerize
Observing the depth of honest emotion
Beneath the face that lights the world
Still, it is your kiss that offers your greatest truth

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It's never just a kiss...
PrttyBrd Dec 2014

You are my truth
The only truth I've ever known,
And I cannot live without you
You are my very soul
You can never let me down
You are amazing
I've always believed in you...
My entire existence, all through time, I've believed;
And I will until the end of time and then beyond
To me, there is only you
Nothing else exists
And you are mine as I am yours
Always and Forever

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PrttyBrd Dec 2014

Life breaks us down
Each and every one
In different ways.
But if we don't persevere
To fully rise between the blows
Then we are destined
To live life on our knees
Lost somewhere
Between joy and pain
Never fully feeling either.

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PrttyBrd Jun 2010

Chased by the deafening echoes
Of the silent screams in my soul
The cold steel walls of my heart are rusty
Aged and oxidized from the briny ocean of tears

copyright©PrttyBrd 23/05/2010
PrttyBrd Oct 2015

One only needs to gather thoughts when searching for something nice to say

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one-stroke senryu
PrttyBrd Jan 2015

If at first you don't succeed
Spill your tears on paper
Pour your lamenting soul into the universe
Take a deep breath
And try again

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PrttyBrd May 2010

A colorless sunset disappears
Melancholy underlies a quiet night alone
Itchy feet and restless thoughts
No sleep for the weary
White noise fills the space reserved for real emotion
Crippled mind and clogged heart
Regurgitating memories trying to feel myself
Comfort in the absence of pain
A vapid existence
A quiet night alone

52610
PrttyBrd Mar 2015

"Wait a second",
But each second after that second
Draws into tomorrows
That spill into yesterday

And now,
It's an hour that feels like a year
In a second past a second
Without you

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Wanted to name it Hurry the Fuck Up, but, um, no.
PrttyBrd Jun 2015

Birthed at the center of my soul
You are my very heart
You are the seed of compassion
And the water with which it blooms

Birthed at the center of my soul
You open the window of joy
And close the doors tinged blue
A teacher of spirits, of freedom

Birthed at the center of my soul
Your kindness bleeds into me
Saturating my casing
Rendering me tender, despite myself

Birthed at the center of my soul
We became...as intended
Entire beings
Flowing between a unified spirit
Connected now as then

Birthed at the center of my soul

62915
PrttyBrd Jul 2014

my stranger
is no stranger than yours
my stranger in wanton yearning
unfulfilled in lustful need
stated in words behind a glorious smile
every desire spotted before spoken
unrealized reality attached in naughty secrets
binding in the everyday, so sweet
make it hurt so damn good
sugar and spice in pretty pictures
painted in the sweat off a begging brow
joy fills the air with each squeeze of desire
with each pang of acceptance
dancing on the edge of bliss
drowning in skeletons uncloseted
owned by a stranger
whose stranger is no stranger than you

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PrttyBrd Oct 2014

when words elude the scribe to page, life ceases flowing.

101014

10w
PrttyBrd Nov 2014

You ask me how I can love you
You who is broken, and limping, and lame
I stop you before the tear can fall
Taking them from your eyes
And crying them out my own
I tell you the truth of absolute love
I tell you I wear no blinders
I see you as you are
I see your imperfections but we are all flawed
Those minute cracks in your soul
Trickle out pain in swirling hues of tender that highlight your heart
A heart you profess is black and stone
But it beats strong within my chest
Where I will nuture it and feed it with my own
I see all the nicks and bruises and breaks
They are not reasons to walk away
They are the very thing that makes you worthy
Your damage healed in stregnth
You are not broken
You are beautiful in all things
A tender heart that bleeds for others
That hates you for not being better...for me
Don't you know?  Can't you see?
There is no better, you are as good as it gets
It is I who is unworthy
And in all your fear of being alone, you overlook the truth of who  you are
of who I am when I am with you
You see beauty in every corner of derelict
You fill my cracks with your joy
To the point where you feel you run out, not even knowing you gave it away
You see in me what I am unable to see in myself
And because it is you who sees it I believe you
I see your cracks and spackle them with love
I see the scars and am thankful you survived the journey
And tomorrow, or next week, next month, or next year
When you have grown strong in my love
When the time comes that you realize I am naught but pieces duct taped together
I will still love you
When you  see the truth of what I have always known
I will still love you
When you move on to brighter days and greener pastures
I will still love you
When you see that you are worthy of more than I am able to give you
I will still love you, as I do now
For I never learned how to unlove someone
And you have always been worthy

111314
PrttyBrd Nov 2014

Life tends to teach lessons no one wants to learn

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10w
PrttyBrd Nov 2015

I am
Blessed
And
Honored
To be
Loved
By
You

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I love you
10w
PrttyBrd Apr 2014

Paint my screen with love.
By virtual osmosis, perhaps I shall smile

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one stroke senryu
PrttyBrd Jul 2015

I look for you in the corners of each ethereal electronic glow
Crossing paths and catching glimpses
Cold trails and residual warmth
Time-stamped yesterdays
And real-time vacuums
Blended truths and planes of exisistence
Realizing, my truth, lies with you
Wondering who I have become
While knowing who I am
Missing words
Losing time
Feeling the very life in my veins
A junkie
Tweaking bad for a hit
I look for you
In the corners
Of each ethereal electronic glow

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Hmmm, think I'll pull out that ten word to stand alone.
PrttyBrd Jul 2014

Happy our paths crossed
Wrapped up in conversations
Naughty by nature

7214
PrttyBrd Jul 2016

I'm lost
Floating without purpose
Living lifeless
Away from love

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10w
PrttyBrd Jun 2014

You are an artiste
painting with words
shading with wit
coloring with vocabulary
and adding texture with subtle metaphor

There is melody in the emotion
elicited between the words
between the very letters
that you weave into the heart
into my heart.

3D pictures forged in the mind's eye
tacked to the soul
with each line
with each word
with each letter

You are an artiste

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PrttyBrd Dec 2015

In the rush of the waves
There is stillness
While she dances
Her laughter;
A symphony of souls
The warm water
Cradles him
As he lies mesmerized
Entranced by Her

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Something to aspire to
PrttyBrd Jan 2015

Sitting in the aftermath
Of shattered dreams on broken skin
Left to wonder how
Realizing we are all capable of unmentionables
Steeped in regret
Begging forgiveness
Accidents are accidents
Still, there is no forgiveness
Self-affirming the negative
Unintended consequences
Alter perceptions
Who are these people
Who, then, have I become
Though, that who feels more like a what
And the demons laugh
As they frolic in the real world
Let them run free
Let them dance
Who I was
Will hide in their dungeon
For it is safer in there than out here
Yes, it is much safer
And there is no one
To say differently

          Punish the guilty
                    Punish the guilty
                              Punish the guilty

Who needs proof
What is proof
It was only an accident
Unintentional circumstances
Affirm nightmares
No one will find me in here
Safe in the lair of the beasts who bore me
Alone inside my head

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PrttyBrd Jun 2010

Rainbow colored jelly beans
Kaleidoscope dreams
Brightly colored sunsets
A patchwork quilt of wildflowers on grasshopper hill
Soft breezes cool what the sun has heated
As peaceful as it seems
Butterflies flutter by as the flowers sway
Sunshowers and songbirds
Inner peace in a perfect moment

copyright©PrttyBrd 31/05/2009
PrttyBrd Mar 2014

Little girl
Little girl
Stupid as can be
Holding onto things that aren't real

Little girl
Little girl
Look around and see
With all you hide, there's nothing you conceal

32514
PrttyBrd Jul 2014

Catching feelings on a breeze, ingesting emotions inhaling you

One stroke senryu
61014
PrttyBrd Nov 2014

Your soul bleeds pages
Swimming in your words of truth
I found my own heart

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In response to Penmanship by Quinfinn
PrttyBrd Jan 2011

I hear the words and feel inflection
I reach to you, yet fear rejection
Your eyes can't lie they show what's real
Your words don't say the love you feel

I don't doubt that your heart bleeds true
Though you're lost between what's right for you
Too much distance, too much time
Too scared to wait, we crossed the line

Too eagerly we skipped ahead
Now, on cracked remains we tread
We hit fast-forward with no rewind
We can't break free from our own kind

So we long and yearn and suffer long
In silence we don't feel it's wrong
Hearts have merged despite the rest
Still we pull away on friendships quest

To love without loving,  and live our lives
Separately we feel the knives
The ones that cut our hearts in pieces
For every moment it never ceases

We talk without speaking and look the part
We live, hearts not beating, like living art
We cry in the darkness alone and distraught
In denial we awaken alone with our thoughts

Nights stretch into months of dark gray
Even though we talk every day
It's empty and lacking, yet we hold on
Pretending the love we share is gone

copyright©PrttyBrd 02/01/2011
PrttyBrd Sep 2012

Tapping at the hotel door
I see the man I've seen before
Getting close but wanting more
I'm on a mission
Risking all believing lore
No indecision
A life of longing and desire
No one else doth I require
Only you can burn the pyre
That's been created
Electric skin and hearts afire
Love's not abated
In the times that we hath known
A closeness never overgrown
Leaving nothing to bemoan
Halves of just one heart
Time has passed and years have flown
Stopping love's impart
Ignoring empty souls and then
Enshrouding love behind a friend
Realizing there is no end
To this addiction
Living on what life portends
Love's interdiction
Yearning what life separates
Too old now for long debates
Tired of always fighting fates
It's now or never
Giving in to what awaits
In this endeavor
So, here we are in darkest night
Hearts grow wings and take to flight
Bodies aching at the sight
Of one another
Side by side love makes it right
There is no other
Here we stand in open door
Feeling what we've felt before
One step closer to amor
No inhibitions
Embracing what we're longing for
In Love's admission

copyright©PrttyBrd 05/09/2012
PrttyBrd Feb 2014

Unto You

Body
Pleasure

Mind
Understanding

Heart
Love

Soul
­Peace

10w
22014
PrttyBrd May 2010

Open eyes can see as it all floats far away
Though denial runs deep even in the face of self-realization
Standing still in hopes that a small part will linger
Visions of yesterday's happiness shade today's shame
Different hues can tighten the squeeze
Small bits of who you thought you were run out
Lost in the vast nothingness that has taken hold
Twisted views of reality skew the mind against you
In a good moment there is peace
Too quickly forgotten, too quickly lost
Searching to find a shortcut back to who you want to be
Realizing in darkness that maybe, that never existed
Wondering if in this so-called truth lies the reality of others
Is this who you are?
Is this who they see?
You can choose to live in the worst thoughts of you,
Or believe in the best version of yourself

52410
PrttyBrd May 2015

Pain so hideous
Love turns a blind eye to tears
Just desserts...alone

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Pain isn't pretty and apparently is quite unworthy of love...
PrttyBrd Apr 2014

tú eres mí alma
mí corazón entera
mí propio vida

My Beloved

you are everything
my heart, my soul
my very life

43014
PrttyBrd Nov 2014

knowing that today
is only yesterday's tomorrow
and
tomorrow's yesterday
makes it difficult
not to live in the past.

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PrttyBrd Oct 2016

The bubbles in her hair were pink
Laughter on a breeze
Grace was all she wore
And it was stunning

102216
PrttyBrd Apr 2016

Weeping turtles
On angels' wings
Electric harps
And choir sings
Traveling time
Remembering
As an era
Comes to close

French chabot
In fruited hues
Revving engines
With horses used
Nothing that
Compares 2 U
And songs
We'll never know

From pain
Was born a troubadour
Pushing limits
Breaking doors
Supernova
Evermore
Songs with
Silent lines

A legend lost
Within the mist
Of mewling souls
Interminus
Taking time
To reminisce
The party ends
In nines

042216
PrttyBrd Nov 2014

a memory
another life
the birth of time
a single being
ripped in two
thrown to earth
drawn together
through lifetimes
never whole in solitarium
through dimensions
across seas
generation after generation
a life unfulfilled
until united
in bliss
as One

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Happy Birthday
PrttyBrd Feb 2015

Oh keeper of my soul
Guardian of the sky
Seep within my depths
Deposit your tender heart
For I will defend it with all that I am
With the fight of a warrior,
I will protect thee
With the spirit of a mother,
I will nurture
And heal your scars beautiful
My love, all of my love,
I lay bare before you
Ingest me, consume me
Infuse me into your purest essence
The fire of dragons lays dormant within
Awakened with purpose alone
Protecting fiercely the most delicate of hearts
Mine is in your charge
As yours is in mine
Espoused and revered
To the death
Without fear
We will vanquish the shadows of doubts
Casting out with them
The lies that would beseech us stay
Timeless and eternal,
Coterminous, harmonious
One and the same are we
Born united
We are infinite, fated
Bounden and bound
One

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PrttyBrd May 2015

For the very first time
I trusted freely
Loved universally
Spoke in open truths
I believed a heart
And words that moved me
When my cracks grew large
And my flaws were unflattering
Words bit into flesh
Backed across the line of beauty
Where distance its kinder
Than reality
When all perception is clouded clear
For the very first time
I trusted freely
and I learned quickly
As I am
I will not be loved

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PrttyBrd Aug 2010

Alone in a sea of the most colorful people.  Rainbow dotted horizons and sparkling reflections of joy.  Amazing view of happiness, of what it should be, of what it could be.  Standing atop a rock in this ocean.  Searching for the unknown.  Waiting and uncertain.  

Passing by in waves
Ebbing and flowing in time
The tide will soon turn


Green-eyed monster tickles toes.  So many cries of glory and elation. The clueless linger atop a rock.  Unseen or unnoticed, unloved or unwanted, or just unintentional and unrealized.  Isolated by fear of falling.  Afraid of the unknown.  Afraid of breaking.  Afraid of the ocean and awash in melancholy to see it pass.

Toe dipped in slowly
Taken out to deep water
Left to drown alone


Confined to that space.  Safe from all who are unable to scale those smooth walls.  Unwilling to drop a line without a safety net.  A smile with each thought of "what if", seems like happiness from afar.  Seems like contentment, Seems like a mirage.

copyright©PrttyBrd 17/08/2010
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