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Alone I pace these halls.
Wondering when I'm going to see you again.
I bang my head against these walls.
Trying to find relief in the pain.
I can feel my soul die, without the light that you provide.
It hurts when you say that it won't work.
I see the fear, behind your eyes it lurks.
I pull you close and say it'll be okay.
Without you my world turns gray.
You say to take it slow and I grasp onto the hope.
That you won't run and hide.
If you stay I promise I'll provide.
I'll be anything you want me to be.
Your love set me free.
From the ghosts that haunted me.
Your kiss healed the hurt.
It washed away the dirt.
And suddenly I knew that angels.
Did walk the earth, it was no fable.
Finally I knew.
That I had found the one.
It was you.
There was a certain shade of blue
That I happened to only find in you
A certain song I would often hear
That now lets me know that you are near

Neither sad nor joyous
You seem to love and embrace us
A memory so faint and all so clear
I see you in my dreams and sense you're near

In darkness I fear not
For, by my side you have a spot
A watchful eye, an attentive ear
Present or not, I still know you are near.
Its time to leave your sword in it’s sheath and walk to the battlefield to make peace, because this war you are raging against isn’t hurting them half as much as it’s hurting you
#sword #battlefield #hurting #raging
i cant remember a word that you were saying
but i remember every single drop of venom
that fell from your fangs the night that you
infected me with death and decay and refractum,
refractus, broken up or open in a dead language
that still stings in hexes and wills the dead
to life. necromancy is your specialty, commanding
a skeletal army to all your evil bidding, all
collar bones and wrist bones and bony knees
scraped up from all the tripping you've been up to,
running through thickets away from the white lie
of an elephant that haunts your room, conjured
from when you dug up the graves of every single
name that i tried to lay to rest, every action and
reaction and dejection and rejection and destructive
tendency, tendencies, tending to distract from
the subject matter at hand, the rules bent and broken
as you spit your poisonous latin palaver,
empty talk to move the empty skulls of your pawns,
empty threats of empty memories that no longer
have any kind of meaning to me. i laid them to rest.
i held their funerals a long time ago, and there's
nothing you can hold over me besides the skeletons
you left in your closet, that you never bothered to bury.
the dead don't scare me, not anymore, and i've
developed an immunity to your toxicity so that
you don't scare me anymore, not anymore,
because you're just another passed-on memory.
i will never forget the venom that drips from your
lips, but i will not let it run through my veins anymore.
your dead words and dead memories are all uttered
in a dead language, not spoken anymore, not real,
a dead effect that cannot touch anything because
memories lack tangibility, dead regrets in a dead
language that got buried when i decided to stop
listening.
 Nov 2015 Nico Allentine
Jackie
I've come so close to death that I could feel the air escaping my body
I could feel my memories slip and the essence of myself being taken away
I could feel my skin leave my bones and I could see dust and mold reside in my rib cage
So I know what I want from life
I want an off the beaten path kind of life
Where I see new horizons and discover peaks and valleys that turn my heart into a wanderer
I want new boarders and coastlines that create tattoos along my mind covering every inch of all the bad feelings that wanted to take me away
I want a life that has no real destination but is solely focused on the journey
I want a northern lights and blue waters kind of life
A Big Ben and a land down under kind of life
Where the sky is literally my limit and I manage to explore every inch of the clouds
Mistakes are meant to be made but living a life after being so close to death is not a mistake and I will not choose ordinary
I will choose endless amounts of stars and flowing rivers
I will choose mountains and open fields
Anything that makes me proud to say that I chose life instead of what was easier
I can't go back there
Being so close to death makes me appreciate a good life
And I will explore all that it has to offer
Because I chose to live
And that is exactly what I'm going to do
I start this off without any words
But they will come
This is a blessing and a curse
These words and memories I wish to forget are my salvation and damnation all in one
Inside I am screaming
No one knows
No one cares
What can I do ?
Nothing
I'm tired of being mad
I'm tired of being sad
All I want to do is to say what's on my mind
I just want to scream i'm afraid if I start I will never stop
Maybe that's not a bad thing
I'm trying to explain
It really hurts my brain
Who will care? I am afraid, I am so frightened of who I am I can't speak
I am usurped by panic at the thought of another day on this drudgery that is my own existence
There are no other options …
I am described as a disaster
Because my heart has been fixed with plaster
I may not have forgiven myself for the shame
But I can't wallow in my sorrow
Because I have to make something of tomorrow
Repedily  I  regurgitate the same old sentiment of positivity and hopeless hopefulness
That I have grown so accustomed to.
“ Tomorrow is a new and better day”
“ It has to stop raining sometime”  ~ Has anyone heard “ Our thoughts determine our reality”?
So if tomorrow is another day how should I face it should it become another today ?
So why do I continue to say these things ?
For the benefits of myself ?  
Or for those who are listening.



Written by:
Amanda O’Brien
The wind blows me around
I’m trapped in the darkness, ****** in to the whole
Deeper and deep I fall
Nobody there to catch me
I see it
The way out
Time freezes but it don’t wait
I cry out, the pain keeps me alive
I lost everything
My fight means nothing
I’m tired but I climb
I’m reaching for the light
I know I won’t find it
The darkness consumes me
Further down I go in to the darkness
I scream, I don’t want to fall
My fight was the only thing I had
I have nothing
Darkness all around me never to be seen
All you hear is the voice of who I used to be
I cry hugging my pillow
Time to let go
All I let go I see the light but it doesn’t matter
Ill fall to see the darkness
As it swallows me whole
It’s my monster
My scars, they trap me
My memory screams out loud
Nobody know I’m consumed with darkness
It traps me within its grasps to never let me go
im tired of pain, im tired of sorrow,
everyone says its up to you...they all lied,
its not my option,
its everyone esles but mine
i cry
i want to overdose
i dont, im not giveing up
i fight to get my self out but i dig in deeper
im trapped by an age i cant escape form
trapped but a familly hold
trapped but the option of others
i give them the wheel but,
im takeing my heart and running with the wind
i want to leave
get out
never look back
that is my option when
im no logner trapped by an age
and scorched by the options of others rage
He and she
its all talk
one thing after another
happy then sad
never know whats going to happen next
life? People change people is a key
it unlakc many paths
trust is a brakeable path you brake it
its hard to get accross it again
he says
she says
i say the truth
the claims they say
are roumors
they say lies and i say truth
peace and honor
never to e heard becasue of the claims of others
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