i give more than i receive
and i wonder if i deserve more.
but if meeting half way,
and giving less than i feel,
is how to gain equality in our love,
i don't want it.
i can't pretend there's no pit in my stomach
or tug on my heart
or smile on my face
whenever i see you.
no matter what i do,
i can't make your fire burn brighter,
harder
and hotter
for me.
so am i naive to stay
for the affection i receive
when it takes more than it gives?
or is that just love:
it's imperfect.
and i choose it,
him,
us,
every day.
just thoughts- i overthink and overanalyse everything so i'm definitely creating a problem that's not there so it's better to write it down than dwell