Akemi

Akemi Nov 2013

Blanket state
Sun rise, sun set, sun daze
Wide eye glimmer maw
Go swallow the sky whole
And trickle tar . . .
Over Death’s mongrel bone.

11:07pm, November 6th 2013

Inactivity has rendered me a hypocrite.

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Sorry I've been gone for awhile. I didn't disappear into the void, I just needed a break from everything after uni and exams. I'll be working on music and story writing these holidays, so I won't be as active here as I used to be. Might link the song I've been working on in one of my later poems. It's post-rock, so greatly inspired by this band: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4vRrGCVlMHk

#sleep #inertia #inactivity

Akemi Oct 2013

(n)ever slumber

Belly up diner
Fork and knife set to the sky
Infinity swallows
A thousand shining eyes
Belly up sleeper
Hands knotted to the chest
Waking to disaster
Makes the roofs cave in

10:41pm, December 17th 2012

Don't dream large.

#dreams #reality #disappointment

Akemi Oct 2013

self-elected liars

These wandering patrons
Lie asleep all day
With the stillness of night
Clouding their heads

It’s a sunset with no sun
In the sea it’s dead
Been like this for years now
We elect to forget

9:26pm, June 12th 2011

#ignorance #blindness #naivety

Akemi Oct 2013

white tiles

I watched you go
I watched you go
I watched you go
I watched you go
I watched you grow
I watched you grow
Without eyes
I watched you grow

And I’ve been trailing
Ghostly figures wrapped in pain I’ll never know
Just to see if they’ll notice

Take off your bed
Tied to all that sleep
Descending motions
Air warmed with defeat

Set the sails
Out from under me
Those anchors on your eyes
Will disappear if you leave

10:29pm, April 19th 2012

She was in hospital for months and I didn't even know. Didn't care for years, yet was always trailing after her, picking up pieces of her life. Would have been better if I'd just disappeared, and she'd never seen me again.

#love #regret #pain #loss #guilt #care #apology

Akemi Oct 2013

formless love

Every new rise
You ghost further from touch
Your pastel eyes
Dried their watercolour love

Once formless on skin
We were formless in lust
But two hundred nights
Left me desolate

Knotted and heaving
Out of breath, out of season
Losing sleep, losing purpose
Am I not enough?

Knotted and heaving
Out of breath, out of season
Once something worth knowing
But you’re not enough.

2:07am, October 19th 2013

You can't ever hope to replace love with lust. Don't ever be so desperate or foolish as me.

#desperate #loss #lust #*** #meaning

Akemi Oct 2013

her breath in the morning light

Cower complete the bitter dream
And drape this dead desire through the streets
From crimson flush to blister black
You rot through my hands
And leave me with phantom death

11:43pm, October 15th 2013

For the first time in awhile I dreamt of an old friend, one I loved dearly. Everything was as it once had been, but I woke to grief not contentment. The sensation in the dream had been better than any I'd felt from reality in a long time. It broke my heart to be reminded of what I'd lost.

#love #dream #desire #yearning #death #loss #ache #grief #loneliness

Akemi Oct 2013

long winter

Your lips shed a thousand words
That coloured your chin golden
To blend into the last light
Of radiant, dying Autumn

11:33am, October 17th 2013

The more I reflect
On the last time we met
I realise how much was said without words
And how much was lost without them

#loss #beautiful #goodbye #ending #disappear #reflection #cold #wordless #fade