She grew tired of her thoughts
and the weaknesses they had found,
So she flicked her embered cigarette;
and burnt them to the ground.

Whether you feel a warmth
or you got the chills
That's me thinking of you
with different degrees of thrills

Maybe some people aren’t destined to find love
no matter how many times you knock the door, the House remains abandoned and nothing ever fills your chest,
at some point, your ribs cave in and you suffocate on your own blood
A tragic death
Maybe no matter how many times you sell your body, hoping someone will make love to your remains, it is still never enough
Maybe the conversations filled with laughter and dreams, remain just that; empty echoes of a forever lost in space & time
Maybe no matter how many people wrap their arms around you, you’re still fragile, you’re still a feather floating along the wind hoping someone would turn you to something more;
Something meaningful.
Maybe no matter how many times you cross paths, you’ll always remain strangers, meeting through parallel universes and it’s always the wrong time or the wrong place or the wrong something but never the right anything
Maybe some people aren’t destined to find love
To be love
To be in love
To feel love
They’re destined to drown in love
To suffer in love
To love but not be loved
To die of love because no one was capable of holding such vast amounts of love
Maybe some people are lonely
Maybe it’s me.
It’s always been me.

Don’t tell me you love me because I know you don’t
Don’t tell me you’ll always be in my corner cause I know you won’t
Everything I touch falls apart so I can no longer hold your heart
Never in possession of the right hand so I can’t play the right card
You look at me & see a King, that’s what I struggle with
so I tend to push away just to keep you from facing undeserved punishment
You tell me you can handle my darkness but I know it’s too overwhelming
I’ve done enough damage to your heart to sit & watch the swelling
I don’t know if it’s the women I choose or the women I tend to lose
but everytime love meets me face to face, my interest in it begins to snooze
I tell myself I’ve been hurt too much but maybe I haven’t hurt enough
I say that I’m ready to settle but then again, I don’t even want love
Never a lonely king but the missing piece to the puzzle is what I seek
& I can pretend to be happy without it but that part of me will never be complete
I tell you to leave me be but I know I can’t handle watching you leave
then I realize the fool I’ve been then I fall down & beg on my knees
My past has me torn cause I fear going thru the same pain once again
so please forgive me if you fight to have my heart but I don’t allow you to win
I don’t want you to fall for the terror, you can do bad all by yourself
cause you can’t possibly love someone who barely loves themself
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I could spend the rest of my nights searching for another you
trying on lovers like new pairs of shoes
knowing the sun will rise along with the memories
but I'd rather spend my morning hours with thoughts of you
than have to pretend his hands will ever compare to the way your words made me feel

You used to eat all the blue M&Ms in the package last.
Now I eat all the blue ones first to convince myself I’m over you,
Yet every time I do
I only think of you.

Silently I cry hoping no one hears
Secretly caring for another in love's affairs
Experiencing love's worst of weapons
Heartbreak ominously beckons

Silently tears fall as I lie alone
On the bathroom floor unbeknown
For there are no more words, no more lies
Only a silent tear that never dries

Silently I cry with images of his face
Dimpled cheeks, his kiss and warm embrace
Hopelessness ensues for the way he held me tight
Remembering he's with her tonight

I lay in bed at night beside the one I'm bound
Holding my breath as tears compound
Feeling the love I once gave and then knew
All the while he's with someone new

Silently shedding tears as my life takes its toll
Killing my very essence, my mind, body and soul
Hearing the words, feeling the crippling pain
A lover's secret inevitably ends in vain