hyper awareness

fingertips crackle with
electricity

my spine
is a lightning rod

eagerly consuming
every stroke of your fingers

body thrumming
with electricity

mind power
shifting into
maximum overdrive

they say that good things
come with time

but with you
time is an illusion
and every day spent
building up to this point
means nothing

because all i know
in this moment
is you
standing before me

how lovely it is
to be a werewolf in disguise

full moons come
in the form of pain
transforming me
into a monster

though i have tried,
i cannot break open my soul
and share it with you
because there is nothing left
to break

they expected me
to miss them
but i kept walking
in the opposite direction

you learned what happiness is
because you learned what love isnt

its funny
how we take refuge at night
stuck between
lingering and lurking
when everything and nothing
is wrong and right
all at once

thoughts deep enough
to drown us
drip dry overhead
staining our bodies black
as the sky outside our lazily cracked windows

every sound is amplified
limited eyesight
heightening our sense of hearing
encouraging us to remain
quiet
dark
calm
but never asleep