Maybe I am in love with the night.
I love night talks, night walks and nightly silence.
But most of all I love night thoughts
Thoughts full of sincery
In the morning there is no sign of the man
who became friends with the darkness.

I still miss you,
I still love you,
But I can't take it,
If you won't show the same.

When we were young,
I am glad you snatched my toys.
Now,
I am glad I could inherit your fashionable wardrobe.
Through good, bad
happy and sad
You are the best friend
I never had

Happy Birthday Kakak.

I am
Surrounded by a sea of people,
And still feel all alone.

I look into the mirror,
I see a reflection of me,
Bidding to be solid once more
By words I can't identify.

In my mind,
I stretch my arms,
I pull out my heart
In my tender warm hands.

Saying I'll survive,
I begin to stoop down to pick it up
With sadness in my eyes
And my shattered heart.

Solid mirror,
show a shattered spirit
With each I pick up,
I need to learn to let go.

Here comes that Beautiful Boy,
Whose smile out shines the sun.
But I sure do like the way
His eyes sparkle
When he look at me.
And make me feel beautiful.

If you would not write poems for me,
I will be still loving you.
If you would not say the three golden words 'i love you' to me,
I will be still loving you.
If I was missing and you didn't search for me,
I will be still loving you.
If you would not be here and care,
I will be still loving you.

But if you came calling me,
I'd still answer in a heart beat.

I am never quite empty.
No matter how hard I try,
There is always something inside.
Something evil, something that shouldn’t be there.
I hate it for being inside me.
I need to get it out,
Before it takes over my body.
I try my best to get rid of it,
Try to force it out of me.
But everything goes black...


The coldness against my face snaps me back to reality.
My eyes slowly open and focus on the hard white seat I am resting on.
I lift my head to look inside,
But see only the cool undisturbed water.
I lower my head and again feel the cold porcelain against my cheek.
I close my eyes,
Surrendering,
Knowing I will never be pure.
Never quite empty.

Here we go again.
We argue over the smallest thing,
With one whole misunderstanding,
Why can't you trust me, darling?

I lost you somewhere,
Our perfect puzzle
Broke piece by piece.
I've tried to get every pieces back,
But it just don't fit together anymore
So here I am,
No one left
As loneliness weighs heavy on my chest.

I want to be loved, your love is smothering.
I need a man, you’re just a boy.
I want to find my soulmate, you can’t figure out what you want.

I swear the mountains were purple that day.
Endless land that ever goes,
From dawn way out to dusk.
The mists are shifting, ever drifting,
Hiding everything,
Except the mountain tops.
What’s in the mist?
What is so deep?

Madness...

I dream of a place,
Where theres a field of beautiful flowers,
Romantic music, colorful fabrics and
Bunny rabbits hopping around.
I dream of a place,
Where the sky is pink and orange,
the sound of a river
a crone caressing my hair,
The tulips drip a deepest red
The grass, lush and green.
In a silent lake with swans made of suns and tears
With swans made of snow and ashes.
The place which I dreamt of with passion
yet lived only once.

*I'm a dreamer that refuses to let go.

Maybe someday,
You'll understand
Why I've spent my whole life
Trying to put it into words
And for once you let go
Of your fears and your ghosts
No proof, not much
But you saw enough
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams.

Every love begins with a lot of hope, every love begins encase In gold
Oh you never fear what you never know will be
I remember times when you took my hand
You might as well of taken my every breath
I never felt a moment of regret till now.

I don’t wanna say what I’m gonna say, but I’m gonna say it anyway...
If you say sometimes things aren’t meant to be then I gotta go with what I feel
I gotta go with what is meant for me?

Everything I do is pointless.
I feel completely
worthless, lonely, unloved.

Broken feelings
shattered trust,
Maybe
You never truly belong to me.
I love you,
But I hate liars.
So I just sit there and feel my heart
And it’s breaking into a million pieces.

Eventhough most of the time you are a sick, twisted and pathetic,
Out of billion guy in this world I still find you…
Amazing.

Tonight I had trouble sleeping,
Because my heart was a weeping.
I am not broken
Because of love,
I am broken
Because of the world.

I feel sorry for myself.
I am lost, still in search of me.
You claim love but how can I find,
The truth behind these words, I have tried.

I feared the future until
I realized that life just kept getting better.

I revered the past until I understood
That it could no longer hurt me.

But then again I asked myself,
Who was truly there for me?

Yearning for some order I notice patterns in the pavement
Racing lines, creating ties, crossing T's and dotting I's
Grainy memories collide with one another as I wonder
Pondering the source of my observant sense leaving life in sunder
Beautifully benign to me, remembering the sea of colour.
Yellow, red, green, purple, blue.
Colorful of wonderful sarees
the cornfields are bright and yellow
ripe with laughter
the little Indian dancers
done up in feathers
create a new world
all in my eyes.

The night you vowed you would never stop loving me.
The night that I was truly undoubtedly beautiful to you.
You were the closest thing I've felt to true love and definetly the closest to HEARTBREAK.

Lots of pain,
Leaving scars that will endure long after the infliction.

When you can't sleep at night,
Because when you conclude your eyes,
They are standing there to remind you
That you are alone.

Not everyone will appreciate what you do for them.