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LS Jul 2016
Good things come to those who wait.
I am waiting.
Good things come to those who wait.
I am waiting for you.
Good things come to those who wait.
I will always be waiting for you.
Good things to come to those who wait.
I will wait for you to realize what you want.
Because
Good things come,
To those who
Wait.
LS Nov 2013
I wanted to be with him
And for him to love me too
But I guess I wasn't
Quite as good
As my best friend.

I wanted to be with him
And for him to be mine
But I guess I was
Too controlling and desperate
For his taste.

I want to be with him
But he doesn't want to be with me
I guess I am not good
For long term relationships.
Or a happily ever after.
LS Jun 2014
Yesterday I felt her
Press against me
And her tongue on mine
And her tongue on my neck
I felt her eyes on mine
And her smile
And we were thinking the same thing
"we shouldnt be doing this"
But my body felt alive
With a yes, yes, yes
It felt alive with every kiss
And every look
It even felt alive when I begged her
Not to kiss her tonight.
Now my body is left
With that image of breakthrough
Rolling in my head
Of the way our fingertips got hot
As they pushed against our skin
It's left me more than dead
It's left me *wanting.
Saw her yesterday. Ended up kissing
LS Jun 2014
God, I'm
******* sorry, okay?
I didnt know
You'd hate me talking
About my almost nonexistent
Love life since you're gone.
Maybe somewhere
In my warped little brain
I thought you'd be relieved
I wasn't ******* around
Like you had worried.
I guess I can't do anything right.
Was
LS Jun 2014
Was
There was so much to hope for
To look forward to
To dream of and smile at.
God it just got crushed so badly.
No more us
Anymore. No more
"sunny summer days".
No more anniversaries
Or birthdays spent together,
No bike riding
No hope no us
It's all gone
Gone gone.
LS May 2016
I am all alone.
Nobody to talk to.
Nobody to understand.

I feel it again,
Feel myself shrinking back
Until I'm a shell.
Until the only thing I can feel
Is my heart painfully beating.

Its like my own body wants to die.
Its never hungry.
My smile is mechanical.
I'm simply playing a role
Instead of living my life.

Khayllia, I've turned into you.
I'm not happy with anything too.
LS Dec 2013
I am a wild child.
I have decades to go
Before I'm supposed to die.
I am young and in my teens.
I have homework and a long school day.
I have hurt and I have tears.
I have regrets and I have lies.
I have lies to myself.
And to others.
I have enemies.
But I also have no job
And anything I have is handed to me.
I am loved and I can make huge mistakes
Without being put in prison.
I am young and I am
As free as I will ever be.
I don't have to grow up for awhile now,
I get to live and laugh
And cry as I please.
Nobody to answer to, just me.
I'm reckless like the rest of us,
I smoke and I drink
And I party all night.
But it's okay because I can.
I am free.
I am youth.
LS Mar 2014
They say you die once but 
Death is a greedy thing
That steals living parts of you 
And keeps them until you 
Pay him with your beating heart.

The first thing death takes
Is innocence. 
It takes it however,
Slowly or suddenly,
Letting ignorance 
And naive thoughts go with it.
Death drinks it up,
Laughing at this 
Young and ignorant taste left
In his sour mouth.

The next is youth, 
He takes it until 
You are full of wrinkles
And you can't hear
Or see properly
And he drinks it up
And laughs at your 
Blind and deaf features
As you stumble around,
Waiting for somebody to lean on.

Next is beauty,
He lets you hold it in your hands
Until he slips it from your 
Fingers 
And into his cup, 
Drinking the conceited thoughts 
And ***** lips.

Death takes love,
And leaves a bitterness 
In our hearts.
He takes hope,
And leaves an emptiness 
In our heads.

Then you die, and all you have left to give him is your ****** heart
And memories
And he his happy,
All because death hates
Sudden heart deaths,
But he likes to wait until we are old
And full of regret.
We die many times.
LS Dec 2013
My weekend consisted of
Stained and pained smiles
And fists and hits
It was smoking
And it was clowns
And im a beautiful girl
But I am filled with regret
And soft hands left marks
On my body
That I can't even remember
Until I find out later
And I see their stares
And I am guilty within
My parents trust.
My weekends consist of
Sneaking out
And having a *******
Can't tell anybody
Or else I'll be branded as a *****
When I don't even
Remember half of it!
Flashing lights
And falling falling
Sweaty skin
And bitter lips
This is what
My weekend consisted of.
LS Dec 2013
And this is when we
Realize
We are our very own
Demise.
Our unhappiness
And our depression
Comes from within.
And every second longer
It hurts a little bit more
Tearing you
Searing you
From your insides.
You feel that familiar ache
In your heart, your sad blood
Pumps it all around your body.
You breathe it in
With each sighing breath
And you cry it out
Until ÿöü gasp for air.
It's the self hate
And it's the loathing,
It's sitting in bed
And not eating at all
Or eating too much.
It's too many imperfections
On your skin
So deep it reaches the inside...
It's no power
And hopeless love
The frustration
Of a nation
Crying out
With every word they say
You hear the pain
In our laugh,
You can't see the smile in our eyes.
We are dead and wasted
At the age of youth.
Nothing new.
We don't feel the free joy
Or the comfort of strong hands
All we feel is our sick hearts
With something that is
Hate and pity and horror
And everything into one.
It is dangerous.
We the people,
The new people,
Of America.
The forever youth
With forever words,
And the forever pain.
LS Jul 2015
Love is every emotion out there.
It's jealous, proud, selfish.
It's kind, friendly, and forgiving.
Or unforgiving.
It's obsession
And neediness
And it's also being okay with
Loving them from a distance.

Love...it makes us fools.
Makes us do crazy things
That doesn't logistically
Benefit anyone.

It is the most confusing thing ever,
But once it hits you,
You know it is love.

And people can try to tell you differently.
That it isn't love, it needs
More respect, more kindness,
Or more desperation.

But the truth is, nobody knows
What love is.

It's just...something about them.
LS Jun 2014
She is coming tomorrow,
In her brand new car.
I'm nervous.
What if I look at her
And her big blue eyes
And long eyelashes
And smile
And the way she walks
And what if I cry
Because I realize
None of that is mine
What if when I look at her
All I see is death;
Our love,
Our forever.
LS Jul 2016
Kiss me till my lips are swollen.
Hold my hand just a little too tight.
When you grab my hair, yank it
And when you kiss my neck, bite it.

I don't know how to love
Without pain anymore.
LS Dec 2013
And I feel my mistake
Hit my like a wall
And I feel the hate
I am hopelessly in love me
But all I can ask is:
"what is wrong with me?"
So I fail nearly all my classes
Scrape by with a 2.5 gpa
And I sit in my room
Alone at last
And the smile goes away
And everything is in my mind
Swirling around until
I plug in my headphones
And turn it up so loud
I cannot think.
LS Dec 2013
I know I'm in love
Because her face
Is so sweet
When she is looking
At me

And I know I am
Because our hands
Fit together perfectly

And our kisses
Are familiar and fine

And I am hers
And she is mine.

Her hair is dyed black
And she has big blue eyes
Thin lips
But a big perfect kiss
She has a waist
That fits into my hands easily
And hips that are bony
Because they are wide ad healthy.
She has hands
Just as small as mine
And a laugh
That comes out
From time to time.

I don't get nervous
When I eat around her
And I don't get scared
When I tell her what I think

She is everything I need
And more.
And she is my constant
And she is my rock,
But he is the storm.
LS Aug 2021
Growing up I thought love was
Stolen kisses, heart racing
Butterflies.
It was falling so hard
And hitting the ground each time they said goodbye.

Maybe love is just consistency
And infatuation is erratic—
Like your heartbeat when
You’re around them.
The silence when they leave is so loud.
I wish I learned how to drown it out.

Now I know that love is
Slow, deliberate kisses.
Slow, deliberate *******.
His hands wrapped around my back
So tightly I am enveloped in him.
It’s waking up next to the same person for years.
It’s crying into their shoulder
And them crying into yours.
It’s them whispering when they’re mad,
Never calling you names.
Even when you hurt them.
Even when you deserve it.

I love our comfortable silence now,
I never have to be anybody but me.
He loves me.
The silence isn’t quite so loud anymore.
LS Jul 2014
Hello poetry
Is more like my diary
Than it is poems.
Maybe that's all poetry ever is.
A prettily worded diary.
LS Jun 2014
I'm worried
She thinks I don't care
That I've simply moved on
When I feel tears at the back
Of my eyes all the time.
I don't go out much,
Too busy in my room
Losing myself to
Endless stories.
I'm worried
She is already over me
In a way,
When all her smiley faces
Make my stomach turn up
And down.
God I'm so worried
She will hate me
And think I'm a monster
Because if she did
I'd believe her.
LS Dec 2014
I'm so empty
Inside.
All I want is to love someone.
But it's like I can't feel anymore.
LS Jan 2015
He holds my hand
He kisses me soft
He takes me out
He loves me right

Why am I still in love with her?
LS Dec 2014
All we want is someone to love us.
Somebody who will kiss our foreheads
When we are asleep. Who will tuck our hair behind our ears. Make us laugh. Make us smile. Distract us. Someone who wouldn't ever break us, and someone who will pick up the pieces. We want a love that isn't tainted by the stains of our ruined fingers. When we go home we want to smell like them. Wake up to them. Soft. Sweet. Then passionate. We want someone who will say "I will love you as long as you let me".
LS Jan 2018
He was loved by pastors
And drug addicts on the sidewalks
He was loved by his parents
And all his ex girlfriends,
He was loved by Jesus
And he was loved by ****** too.

His mother worries
Satan wanted him in hell
Just as much as God wanted
Him in heaven.

I wonder what his funeral
Looked like
I wonder what irony God had placed
Inside his heart that day.
Battle drug addiction for two, three, five years.
Get clean.
Then get run over by your own snowmachine.

Let your friend find it idling on top of you.
Let your mother cry over you
One
Last
Time.
Because she’s saying “he will be loved, he will be missed.”
But she’s loved him and missed him for years.

I think of you every now and then,
How it felt to kiss you
And how it felt to be near you.
I think of how you’d message me
Out of the blue, and how you’d always say
“You were my first love, Lindsey.”
Hell, most of my first poems written on here
Are about how much I loved you.

And now I’ll never know.
Now I’ll never get to say anything to you
Ever again.

Sometimes when I think of you it’s almost like a buzz going on in my pocket.
Like you’re messaging me late
And asking how I’m doing.

I’m doing fine, Jacob, I’m doing just fine.
LS Apr 2015
When they see her they see straight perfect teeth, round full lips.
Dark hair and tan skin,
A shy smile
With big sweet eyes.
Small, petite, but with ***** up to her chin in all their perky triple d glory.
No stretch marks.
They all fall in love with her
Smiling at the ground when she asks why.
Then they all look up at her
Slow
And say
theres just something about you..

I sit down, giving up immediately.
LS Jul 2014
I fall for alcoholics,
Drug addicts.
I fall for people
Whose parents are getting divorced
Or have to take care of children
That aren't even theirs.
I fall for people
With nicely sized noses
That have been broken a couple times.
I fall for the ones
I think I can save.
Why
LS Aug 2014
Why
Best friends don't
Date each others
Past loves.
LS Apr 2016
You changed into something
Harder,
Something
Colder.

Something
     Almost
                  Out
                          Of
                                Reach.

I still cling to you
But it gets harder for you
To answer my texts
And to pick up the phone
Every day.

I still need you
But it gets harder for you
To kiss me back
And need me too.

You, you are not all there.
I am wearisome.

And I have worn you down
To the bone.
LS Aug 2016
You are worth it to me.
I'd trade all the stars
And the sun for you,
I'll walk in the moons
Pale light to see your pale face.

I'd trade every cigarette
I've ever smoked or I'll ever smoke,
I'll breathe in your
Intoxicating scent instead.

I'd trade all my first kisses,
All my hugs and first loves.
I'll pour my young love
And my old love into your pores.

I'd trade every laugh I've ever heard,
Every delighted giggle
Just to hear you laugh
Every time I'm nearby.

I'd die for you, yes and,
I'd live for you and die with you.
LS Jul 2014
You made me wrinkle
My nose
And made me blush.
You're hundreds of miles away,
But...
Nobody has ever said
My smile was adorable.
Thank you.
LS Jul 2014
I just want him
To reach out
And hold my hand.
LS Apr 2016
Oh Khayllia--
Isn't she just so beautiful?
So new.
Her cute curly hair
And her dimples when she smiles.

I bet it feels so good
Knowing you make her feel special.

She's so short.
Her eye brows plucked to
Perfection.
She is sweet.

I can see why you
Pulled her in.

You're such a snake.
I wonder how long it'll
Take you to get bored with her.
I wonder how much
It'll hurt her.
LS Sep 2014
I kissed her and she tasted
Like cigarettes and the
Gucci guilty she uses to cover the smell
She tasted like regret and tears
She tasted like desperacy
As if she'd never kiss my lips again
And her tongue was so sweet
Pressed against mine
Softly moving
She and I, we feel the same.
Except maybe im
Just a little more numb.
LS Jun 2014
You know you're still in love
When you have your jacket
And the last person that wore it was them
So you smell it,
With every breath you take
You cry
For some odd reason,
And you don't want to ever
wear it again,
Never zip it up again.
Because the last person that did it
Was them.
And it feels like you still have
A tiny part of them with you.
I got my stuff back from her yesterday. Couldn't even really touch it until today.
LS Jul 2014
You smelled
Sweet
Of outdoors and wine
Your eyes
That vibrant blue they get
When you've been drinking
A little too much
You are so skinny now
A thin yet
Curvaceous rail,
The body all girls
Wish to have.
You ask to use my bathroom
Your heels in your fingers.
God,
You're so beautiful.
So ******* beautiful.
So beautiful
I'm crying.
LS Aug 2019
You’re all sharp teeth and jagged edges
Every time we touch it’s electric
Slowly taking bites from my hips to my lungs.
Break my ribs open
There’s my heart next to my shattered sternum
When you pull away my breathing is ragged
Lick the blood off your bottom lip.
Smile.
Kiss me with it.
LS Apr 2016
Things you told me that were lies:
• I love you
• you're the one.
• I want to spend forever with you.
• the thought of touching someone else makes me sick to my stomach.
• I'll never leave you.
• you are so beautiful.

Oh baby,
You wouldn't,
You couldn't
Know love if it slapped you in the face.

Don't you know that
Moving on a week later
Hurts the person you
'Love'?

Well. Thank you.
For reminding me.
Reminding me of
How I'll never be good enough.
So why even try.
LS Jan 2015
I promise you that whatever problems
I have with her
I still love you
And
You are not alone.

You ask me why I'm with you?
Fine.

I'm with you because of the way
Your eyes look when you are looking
At the ground and smiling
And the way you brush my hair back
With your fingertips
How you hold my face
And kiss my cheek
The way you laugh
Walk
Hold my hand
Wrap your arms around me
I promise you
You aren't alone in this
I love you for your
Scratchy beard
And soft caressing hands
Just know I do love you
Even if it means nothing to you
I do.

— The End —