Fury has fueled fire after fire
Now that rage has long since been retired
Swirling under the surface but now skin is thicker and walls our Higher
Rage bubbles into boiling tears
There's no place for anger
No place to speak
Feelings are forbidden
Listening's for the weak
What are you doing standing up you're supposed to be meek
Nothing to see folks
Nothing to see
Just little old me angry at would could be and what would have been
How foolish having feelings
Having opinions
I aspire to be a statue
Stone void of imperfections
Slow to chisel slow to break
I wouldn't mind a chip or flake
For what does one puny piece of my stony soul ruin for the show

A ******* in another parking lot
Begging for money avoiding shots
Choking and dying for a better life
That's what you thought I'd be right?

You told me so I couldn't breathe and you just didn't believe until I hit the ground, out, stone cold

Jokes on you
Ridiculous fool
You laughed and ridiculed everything I possibly wanted to do just to keep me closer to you
I'm glad I didn't stay I'm not your servant
Not your slave
Not your puppet and I will never obey!

For God's sake you made impossible to study or have fun
I needed at least one of the two and when it was up to you I had to settle for none!
I couldn't eat
Couldn't sleep
Couldn't speak
God knows I only ate 6 times a week
95 pounds and getting slimmer
All I asked was to be able to make some dinner!

Profound that I passed once I moved my ***
No longer am I under your thumb, I'm done
I've won

I passed my class
Passed my peers
I can eat and sleep even speak ever so clear

What you wanted my future to be
What you whispered in my ear
The downfall of my wits and heart shall never come near
For I am not yourself
The harlot the sits upon the muddy stains of her life and settles for men that push her through the mud and muck to stand atop themselves

For shame uneducated fool you know nothing of me
I am nothing like you

Harmony in the keys
Tap
Tap
Tapping
A melody that makes you sway
Washing over you
All of your aches will fade
You will go dancing away
Lighter than air
Without a care
As the tap
Tap
Tapping caresses your ears

What have you done
To my eyes
My love
My life
It's all or nothing but it means nothing to you
What have you done to my eyes
What have you chosen, my love
Why is it that my life is all or nothing to you
Can you see how how this ends
I'll always be nothing to you

Grab me
Pull me closer
Hold me to your chest
Before you go
Before you dissappear
Hold me close
Kiss my lips
You can't leave me like this

To those who looked but never listened
Never had the heart to bear witness
To admit you've felt something more than just a numbing ache
One who chooses not to recognize nor identify, with anothers' pain
Stuck in your own head
Lying waste to your brain
Can you imagine living like you use to once again?
The breeze, no longer choking and hot but somehow chilling to the bone
The colors no longer monochrome
The robotic tasks that you repeat are for some a momentous feat
For each breath of air comes so worldly care
Each care turns into a tearing pain as slowly you learn to love again
The landscape no amount of gray can cover
The eyes of a once blind lover

Well now
What do we have here
What have we done
When it's cold we love the sun
When winter's over we'll go wishing for another one

Blood
Smoke
Drugs and gunpowder
These elements we live by
These elements we stand for
Think your morals grow louder
Yet you still cower
Sitting in the corner
Begging for power
Used to look down on us from your tower
In our streets now
You soon dispose of your jovial candor
You are learning now
I am so proud of you
A patronizing pat down is now at hand
Your tongue was your only weapon then
What about now?
Bullet and blade are popular weapons of our trade
Could you harden your heart and take the shot?
Take a stab at living how we do
Understand now that the conditions of our demise is normal in society
The news doesn't care
Not unless we cause quite a scare
An obituary is hardly ever found in the papers
Who reads those things these days anyways
I bet you already think you know our motives
Prejudice against the people your window points down towards
Laughing while you say we are the reason it got this way
You are though
Do you not understand?
We take these positions because we have nowhere else
The streets are crawling with us
Because people like you are walking on our backs

To pass the hours
With gemstone flowers
Sit and watch the world sparkle brilliantly
When it hurts your eyes
And you begin to cry
The harsh glare of burning light
Forces you to go inside
Pass the hours from your secret tower
Grown over with gemstone vines
And when you wish again for gemstone flowers
Again you peek outside

Hello there
How are you
I just wished to enlighten you
Splitting apart our community isn't something I would suggest
We won't go down without a fight
We won't be the sheep that you guessed
Rolling over and becoming a bridge
For your muddied feet to walk on
Well
That's something we'll resist
Take a look back
Back into history
We love our community
Love our school
Even that bad times
We love it here
Grew up with much juevenille cheer
We have walked these halls for many a year
Eve and morning
It wasn't all that boring
We enjoy it
So never fear
Your plan is trashed
All out of whack
You'll sure see us all back next year

Hello there
You
Sitting in the corner grumbling about your health
Would you listen?
I need some help
It’s hard holding up the world all by myself
When you bother to look up do you realize my shoulders aren’t a shelf
You can’t pile things on top of me and expect me not to crumble
My legs are weak
I’m starting to stumble
May I have some support
Not your usual retort
I understand I must be stronger
I don't think I can hold on much longer
May I lay on you
Simply a word or two
Just a brief relief
A second of peace
If not I understand
But please would you take my hand
So I know where to go
On such a slippery *****
Where is the dry land
I'm being buried please understand
The weight in this muck
I'm losing my luck
Back bent eyes closed
Its up to my throat I have nowhere to go

As you jump
From the ledge
Let it play
In your head
Over and over
'Till your skull
Meets the cement

Bye and bye
You waste your time
Time to time
You wonder if you're right
Minute by minute
Hour by hour
People want absolute power
It will not happen
We will not change
Questions we have will have to remain
Unanswered
Whilst we rot in our undug graves

To what do I owe this honor
Being your toy
A scheme
Thinking you could pass me around to another
With no love
No thought
I meant what I told you
With every piece of my tearing heart
I love you
Even still
You shove me to another once you've had your fill
Is this all I've been to you
Is that all you want
How could you...
Broken
Unsure
Why should I be a part of your life anymore
I'm not your plaything
I'm not your doll
Seeing you toss me aside...
I can't take it
I don't want to fall

Luring you
Pulling you
Until the rope snaps
You break in half
Wish to put the pieces back
You don't know which is real
Try finding them with your emotions
Realize you can't feel

Hate is what you show in your voice
It is saddness you show in your eyes
All through your life this mask has been your disguise
Don't you think it's time to face your fears?
Don't you think it's time to be brave?
Instead of soaking in your self pity, tears and words of hate

You play god
By messing with another's head
By using secrets you shouldn't know
By crushing hearts that were close to your throne
By stealing hearts you already owned
Now that you're gone
You're on your own
Playing a god
Without a role

My responsibilities
Are mine
Yes
What a miracle it is
That me,
A girl
Can take care of things myself

Another hello
Another goodbye
What's it matter to you
You have time

Im going deaf
I'm going blind
I can no longer trust my mind

Dainty dandelion
Dancing in the summer breeze
Delicate and bright
Dancing ferocious and free

Matches
Cigarettes
Knives and bottles
People's addictions
People's models

Fish swim
Where ravens swarm
Where the sun is watery and warm

Careless and sloppy
Bland and choppy
That
Is what
This
Has
Become

If ever you wonder who you are
Remember love, you come from the stars
From the dreams of who I wished to be
From the love of all those who fall at your feet
From your wildest dreams
From your darkest defeats

You come from the flowers in bloom
The rocks weathered through
The grass and dirt that pads your hurt and gives you courage enough to power through
You come from the heat of passion
From the fizzle of love
The spark of joy always ignited when you blow through
A tornado of happiness
Of warmth and love
A cocoon of safety where I hope I can show you all of my love
Because you come from above

Hush and shush
Close your eyes
Just let go
Take a dive
Do not fear
If you'll survive
Whats the point of having a life
If you don't live it?

To what do I owe this honor
Being your toy
A scheme
Thinking you could pass me around to another
With no love
No thought
I meant what I told you
With every piece of my tearing heart
I love you
Even still
You shove me to another once you've had your fill
Is this all I've been to you
Is that all you want
How could you...
Broken
Unsure
Why should I be a part of your life anymore
I'm not your *****
I'm not your fill
Seeing you toss me aside...
I can't take it
I never will

The war between the weak and strong
It rages on
Yes it rages on
Through the inky black of night
Through the shining blue of day
Each thinks one is the other
How little do you think of one another?
To believe that for past mistakes you must always pay
Pay in full
Once it is found that payment is needed
To think that past mistakes cancel your current strengths
When in truth your strengths are the product of mistakes
Why believe the world is black and white?
When repeatedly in your life it has been proven instead to be gray
Why think one is strong and another is weak
Based on the testing of a few thousand characteristics out of billions
Why think you are one or the other when in truth everyone is both

Can't you hear the whispers
Left outside
Wasted
Abused and now abrasive
Threats flow from the dark
From outside
Where the whispers reside
Every heartbreak
Every hardship
Spilled plainly from the thing that whispers
    
It can't be human
    
What is it
What could possibly torment you this way
Bombarded by your mistakes
Whispered from the dark
Into your ears
Into your soul
You turn black
You look back
    
What is the thing that's whispering
What is this thing that knows all of my secrets
Frantic
In a panic
Where is it
Where is it!
This all must stop
Pease just stop
    
The whispers
The whispers
They grow louder
    
None of it matters
I swear none of it mattered
Must you make me remember
Reveal yourself
What are you
Why do you whisper
How do you know my secrets
How do you understand my mind
It's not my time
I don't want to die

The thing that whispers
It stepped out of the dark
Same eyes
Same face
Same birthmark
Covered in scars
You're not human
You're not me
This is impossible
This can't be
    
You spiral into insanity

I fly high
I fly free
Why are you trying to trap me?
Why can't I follow my dreams?
Have a choice?
Have a thought?
Have a voice?

I know why the caged bird sings
It sings of help
It sings of being set free
It sings to tell its story
One of injustice and immorality
It sings to plead to passers by
'Oh please set me free'
It sings to say hello
It sings to say goodbye
It sings to congratulate it's brethren who have reached the sky
It sings to mourn for those yet unable to fly
It sings it's song all night and all day
In hopes Someone would understand
In hopes someone would relay its words

An empty house
Desolate and lonely
Waiting
Breezes carrying dust through
Tearing down cobwebs
Sweeping away memories
When the house is empty
When the house is cleansed
Free of every reminder
Of your painful past
Will you return?

Snow
Sparkling
Unmarked
Until a car drives by…
Air
Cold
Numbing
Until you turn and go inside...
Wind
Whistling
Tearing through the trees
Until the storm ends…

I haven't yet deleted your messages
I haven't yet erased your memory
Every word you spoke to me
A cherished memory
Every chord played
From your guitar
Wrote itself into the stars
For the world to see
Or are my eyes playing tricks on me?

If you could drown your emotions in a sea of music and laughter
Would you?
If you could forget your memories with problems of the present
Would you?
If you could numb yourself with weariness
Would you?

Lately you've been falling down Darkness surrounding you
I want to show you the way
You say you don't want to see
I wish to give you light
You say you like the dark
I wish to know your trouble
You say there is none
I've excepted your words
I've excepted your choice
This isn't over
This isn't done

You are amazing
In every sense of the word
Every step of the way

From your own little disgrace
From your own little mistake
You disgrace me
If I disgrace you

You say that you are worthless
Ugly...

Well I say you're invaluable
Beautiful
Priceless...

You say you are crazy
Demented...

Well I say you're sane
Sensible...

You say to hate you
I simply cannot
There's too much to love
Don't try to downplay yourself
Your value
Your sanity
Your beauty...