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Mar 2 · 940
MARSO
leeannejjang Mar 2
bibitaw ako sa unang araw ng marso.
hindi dahil sa hindi na kita mahal,
ito ay dahil napagod na ang puso ko
napagod na itong magantay sa iyo.

bibitaw ako sa una araw ng marso,
pakiramdam ko ako ay isa studyante magtatapos sa kolehiyo
pero dito ang istorya natin  na kahit kailan ay hindi na masisimulan ang tatapusin ko.

bibitaw ako sa unang araw ng marso,
madaming buwan ang lumipas,
kumapit ako sa pagasa mapapansin mo ako.
mga araw na hinintay ko ang mga sagot mo
mga araw na napuyat ako kakaisip sa iyo.

bibitaw ako sa unang araw ng marso
at ang araw na iyon ay ngayon.
leeannejjang Feb 3
ikaw ang istoryang ayoko matapos.
talatang ayaw ko tuldukan.
mga pangungusap na walang hanggan.

sa bawat taong nagsabi sa akin itigil na,
ay ang puso kong nagsusumigaw na laban pa.
lalaban pa ba? o bibitaw na?

araw araw ko tinatanung ang sarili ko,
sabay ang panalangin sa Diyos na bigyan ng sagot
ang magulo kong isip at puso.
.
ilang tula pa ang akin dapat isulat,
ilang salita pa kaya ang akin iaalay,
hanggang sa mapagod ang pusong ito
at tuluyan ka ng bitawan.

pero sa ngayon, lalaban pa ako.
lalaban pa ako habang ang puso ko'y ikaw pa ang sinisigaw
at sana bago ako'y mapagod ay mahawakan mo ang kamay ko
at sabihing ako din ay mahal mo.
Oct 2019 · 3.5k
Mahal
leeannejjang Oct 2019
Mahal, ikaw ba ay handa ng tanggapin ang aking pagsinta?

Mahal, maaari na ba natin hawakan ang kamay ng isa't isa?

Mahal, bakit tila may alinlangan sa iyong mga mata?

Ito ba ay dulot ng nakaraan hindi mo mabitawan?

Mahal, ikaw ang aking panalangin sa may Kapal.
Makasama ka sa bawat pagsikat at paglubog ng mga araw.
Sabay natin bibilangin ang mga tala at hihiling sa mga bulalakaw sa langit.

Mahal, ako ba ay hindi sapat sa para buuin ang puso **** sugatan?

Mahal, maari bang ang puso mo'y sa akin na lamang?

Mahal, handa ako maghintay na sana isang araw maging ako ang sagot sa iyong dasal.
Oct 2019 · 593
Isa, dalawa, tatlo
leeannejjang Oct 2019
Itinaga ko sa bato,
Sinigaw ko sa harapan ng malalakas na alon
Ang pangako hindi na ako iibig muli.

Isa, dalawa, tatlo.
Tatlo beses ako niloko.
Tatlo beses ako iniwan.
Para isang laro,
Naka-bingo na ako.

Dumaan ang mga araw,
Lumipas ang buwan,
Nagsimula ang bagong taon,
Ngunit ang pangako sa nakaraan
Aking dinala.

Isa, dalawa, tatlo.
Hindi na ako muling iibig pa.
Pinagdamutan ko ang sarili ko
Magmahal ng iba.

Kaya ko magisa.
Mga katagang lagi kong binubulong sa sarili ko.
Papatak man ang mga luha ko,
Pero hindi na muli madudurog ang puso ko.

Isa, dalawa, tatlo.
Nahipan ng hangin ang pangako ko.
Isang araw nagising na lang ako,
Inaantay ko ang mga mensahe mo.

Ikaw ang una naiisip sa umaga,
Kausap sa magdamag,
Panaginip sa gabi.

Sa mga araw na mapait,
Ikaw ang nagpapangiti.
Sa mga araw na magulo ang mundo ko,
Ikaw ang nagliligtas nito.

Isa, dalawa, tatlo.
Ayaw ko mahulog sa iyo.
Takot akong madurog ang puso kong
Pinilit kong binuo.

Ngunit paano,
Kung ikaw lang ang nais sa piling ko.
Kaya ngayon itong nararamdaman ko'y itatago muna sa iyo.

Isa, dalawa, tatlo.
Tatlo hakbang palayo sa iyo.
Dalawa tayo sa istorya na ito.
Isa lang ako na may paghanga sayo.
P.s. Salamat jose
Jan 2019 · 224
The Sharp Mouth
leeannejjang Jan 2019
When the mouth disconnected with the heart blades are form on the end of the tongue.
The sharpness that knows no bounderies creating wounds that are hard to heal.
The mouth doesn’t realize that the heart is missing.
And the heart was muted from the world.
Late at night, when the workd turns dark and  the mouth closed
The heart will speak.
Voiceless but can be heard.
The vessel  felt a deep pang of pain in the heart.
Blaming the mouth for the blades it created.
Regrets will flood.
Tears will fall.
The vessel wanted to shut the mouth forever.
Thinking of a way, the vessel locked herself in a room with no one except her.
She told both the mouth and the vessel her plan.
To avoid the blades from hurting people she loves,
The vessel decided to create a distance.
An unseen distance.
This makes the heart sad, but the vessel cannot think of any other way.
The home she created is being destroyed by her own mouth.
She was scared.
She was hopeless.
She cried.
Wanted to call for help.
But the wound was to deep.
That not even she can bear it.
The vessel wanted to end everything.
She wanted to shut up forever.
Not wanting to lose anymore what she have now.
-END-
today i feel very very sad and alone.
Oct 2018 · 127
Unwanted
leeannejjang Oct 2018
I can taste the bitterness
At the end of my tongue.

A pang of sadness
Suddenly hits me.

I feel my heart
Cringe in pain.

Not a feeling of lost love
But a feeling of losing myself.

In a process of changing myself
From someone who is desirable.

I turned into someone who is unwanted.

Every path feels like
I'm walking in thorns.

I was unwanted from the start
In a place I should never be.
Been so long since I wrote here. :
Sep 2018 · 3.5k
Kandila
leeannejjang Sep 2018
Huwag ka mag-alala.
Sa darating natin annibersaryo
Ipagsisindi kita ng kandila.

Para sa mga damdamin namatay
At emosyon naibaon ko na sa lupa.

Ipagsisindi kita ng kandila
Para makita mo ang liwanag
Sa mundong panadilim mo.

Ipagsisindi kita ng kandila,
Para maramdaman mo ang init na hindi mo na mararamdaman.

Ipagsisindi kita ng kandila,
Pero huwag mo ito hawakan.
Mapapaso ka lamang at sa huli
Ay papatayin mo lang ito para mapasaiyo.
Jul 2018 · 549
Halimaw
leeannejjang Jul 2018
Mga masasakit na salita,
Mga matang nangdidilat.
Minulat ako ng lugar na ito
Sa marahas na katotohanan.

Sa likod ng mga ngiti,
Mga tawanang nakakabingi,
Ay mga tao sinasaksak ka ng palihim.

Mga halimaw na nagkatawan tao,
Mga sungay na nagtago sa talinong may dugo.
Hahawaan ka hanggang ang dugo mo'y maging kulay asul.

Unti unti, dahan dahan
Ang puso mo'y didilim.
Ang boses mo'y tataas,
Ang mata mo'y manlilisik.

Nagising ka,
Humarap sa salamin
At isang halimaw ang iyong nakita.
Naging isa ka na sa kanila.
Jun 2018 · 219
UNWANTED
leeannejjang Jun 2018
Little by little,
You will find pieces of me
Scattered on our floor.
Bits of me that was shattered
And broken.

I am badly hurt.
Today, yesterday and the previous days.
You look at me with disgust,
Makes me wish I was never born.

I wanted to swap places with those
Other child of yours that died
Due to miscarriage.

Maybe they will be much better daugther than I am.
Maybe you won't hate their attitude.
Maybe you would care more about them, than me.

I was your least favorite.
I was at the bottom.
I knew that since I was young.

You said I was strong.
You said I am intimidating.
Yes I am.
Cause I don't have any shoulders to lean on when I need to cry.

I make myself strong on the outside
For people not to know how much I struggle inside.

But, I'm slowly dying.
Little by little.
Note: my mother hated me for some reasons. She doesnt talk to me. Nor look at me. Yup, this is not the first time but f*ck it still hurts inside.
Jun 2018 · 142
Favorite
leeannejjang Jun 2018
You were my favorite.
My favorite "Good Morning" text.
My favorite on-the-go friend.
My favorite midnight thoughts.
Yes, you were.

I always think how my favorite "person", became my nightmare.

You are now a stranger in this vast world.
You are my "who are you?", in my contact book.
You are a dream I never wanted to see.

But still.
I still think of you.
Jun 2018 · 788
Bakit at Paano
leeannejjang Jun 2018
Tulala sa labas ng bintana.
Matindi ang trapiko sa Manila.
Busina dito, busina jan
Habang bumubuhos ang matinding ulan.

Madami tumatakbo sa isipan ko.
Mga bakit at mga paano.
Bakit natapos tayo agad?
Bakit hindi mo ako pinili?
Bakit ako lagi naiiwan?
Bakit tayo naging ganito?

Madami beses mo na din sinabi sa akin ang sagot.
Paulit ulit ito sa utak ko.
Sa mga sagot mo umugat ang mga paano.

Paano kung hindi tayo naghiwalay?
Paano kung ako pinili mo?
Paano kung ako ang nangiwan?
Paano ko hahanapin ang sarili ko?
Paano kita papatawarin?

Bumubuhos ang ulan.
Hindi ko namalayan pumapatak na din pala ang mga luha ko.
Pitong buwan na simula ng naghiwalay tayo

Pero bakit para kahapon mo lang ako sinakatan?
Jun 2018 · 1.8k
Ayaw mo na.
leeannejjang Jun 2018
Isang araw magigising ka na lang,
Ayaw mo na umiyak.
Ayaw mo na malungkot.
Ayaw mo na masaktan.
Ayaw mo na sa kanya.

Ilang araw ka ba umiyak sa loob
Nga kwarto kayakap ang mga unan
**** basang basa na mga luha?
Isa, dalawa, tatlo.

Pinilit mo ngumiti araw araw.
Tapikin ang iyong balikat
At sabihin "Ayos lang yan. Lilipas din yan".

Ilang gabi mo inisip ang mga paano at bakit na hindi nasagot ng tao akala mo'y hindi ka papaluhain?
Isa, dalawa, tatlo.

Lumipas ang panahon.
Lumubog ang araw, nagpakita ang buwan.
Sumikat muli ang araw.
Nagising ka.

Ayaw mo na.
Ayaw mo na sa mga pangako'ng napako.
Ayaw mo na sa matatamis na salitanv puro sugat ang dinulot.
Ayaw mo na sa kanya.

Isang araw nagising ka,
Hindi mo na tinapik ang iyo balikat.
Sa halip, gumising ka na puno ng pagasa.

Ngunit, bakit tila may kirot pa din sa iyo mga mata?
Nagising ka na ba talaga?
O nasanay ka lang sa sakit na iyo nadarama?
Sumasabay sa buhos ng ulan abg emosyon.
Mar 2018 · 124
Thousand
leeannejjang Mar 2018
I have thousands of regrets
In my twenty six years of living.

I’ve got thousands of words
I cannot utter in public.

I have thousands of emotions
I cannot contain inside me anymore.

Thousands and thousands of them
That I cannot count anymore .
Feb 2018 · 910
Sino ba sila?
leeannejjang Feb 2018
Mali ng sinabi ko ayos lang ako.
Habang unti unting kinakain ng kalungkutan ang puso ko.

Sa isang madilim na sulok
Madalas ako umuupo.
Mga anino nagpapalakas
Sa imahinasyon ko.

Nilalakasan ko ang tugtog sa radyo.
Pinipilit mabingi sa mga kantang
Nilalabanan ang bulong ng hindi ninyo nakikitang nilalang.

Tama na.
Tumigil na kayo.
Bakit ako.
Pinapaalis ko sila.
Pero ayaw nila tumahimik.

Tapusin mo na.
Tumalon ka na.
Lagi nila binubulong ang mga salitang yan sa akin.
Gising man ako o tulog.

Sino ba sila?
Jan 2018 · 198
I barely
leeannejjang Jan 2018
Remembered my dreams
When I wake up.

But all I know
I was terrified
When my eyes opened.

Sometimes,
I want to keep my eyes open.
Not wanting to blink a second.
For I might fall in a deep slumber.

I guess,
When my eyes are closed
My soul is drifting
In a world unknown to all.
Nightmares sometimes visit me
Waking me up in the middle of the night
Jan 2018 · 655
I hope
leeannejjang Jan 2018
You’ll find this little poem
I wrote for you.

I forgive you.
I have already forgiven you.

Let’s set each other free
From the pain of the past.

I will live happily as I am today.
So remove all the guilt in your heart.

I hope we find happiness in the roads we take.
Cause we deserve joy in the pain we encountered.
Dec 2017 · 223
Cinderella
leeannejjang Dec 2017
Tick tock! Tick tock!
"It's 12 midnight" said the clock.
My time is up,
I need to go back.

Am I cinderella?
Wearing a beautiful gown and a glass shoe.
Running out of time to be with you.

You who is holding my hands right now.
Staring at me like I'm your world.
How can I leave you behind?


Love, this is love.
Fading away slowly like the stars at the night.
How can destiny be so unkind?
That even our love expires.
Hold me. Hold me close.
I want to be with yours forever.


Tick tock! Tick tock!
"It's 12 midnight" said the clock.
I need to say goodbye.

Can you give me one last kiss?
Our love maybe short, but my heart will always be yours.

I will look for you beyond the horizon.
Where the sun kisses the sea.
I'll shout your name,
Until you hear me again.


Love, this is love.
Fading away slowly like the stars at night.
How can destiny be so unkind?
That even our love expires.
Hold me. Hold me close.
I want to be with yours forever.


Remember, my love our paths will meet again.
So don't let go for this love will always win.
I love you. I love you.


Love, this is love.
Fading away slowly like the stars at night.
How can destiny be so unkind?
That even our love expires.
Hold me. Hold me close.
I want to be with yours forever.

Till we meet again.
Dec 2017 · 1.0k
Kahapon
leeannejjang Dec 2017
Isangdaan at limamput limang araw simula noon kahapon na iyon.
Parang kahapon lang ang iyong mga kamay ay akin lamang.
Parang kahapon lang ang mata mo'y ako lang ang nakikita.
Parang kahapon, ang bawat daan ay tila paraiso sa ating mga mata.
Parang kahapon na ang simoy ng hangin ay ang iyong mga salita.
Parang kahapon lahat ng tala sa kalangitan ay nagniningning na parang walang umagang darating.
Parang kahapon ako'y naniwala sa walang hanggan.

Ngunit ang kahapon ay parang mga bulalakaw sa langit.
Sa iyo pagpikit ikaw'y humiling.
At sa iyong pagdilat ay nawala.
Umaasa na ikaw ay narinig ng mga tala.

Kung ako'y tatanungin kung gusto kong balikan ang kahapon natin?
Oo. Paulit ulit. Kahit na alam ko na masakit ang bukas na naghihintay.

Pero ang kahapon ay pawang kahapon na lamang.
Hindi ito pahina sa libro na pwde **** balik balikan.
Walang na ko magagawa kundi harapin ang bukas.
Ang bukas na gagawa pa ng madami kahapon sa buhay ko.

Maari ikaw ay parte ng kahapon ko.
At sa pagdaan ng panahon ang kahapon natin ay mababaon sa limot.
Kaya ito ang huli mensahe ko sa iyo,

Ikaw ang akin kahapon.
Ang pinakapaborito ko sa lahat.
Isang daan at limamput limang araw simula ng naging parte ka ng kahapon ko.
Isa kang pahina sa libro ko na pilit ko binabasa paulit ulit.
Isa kang bulalakaw na hindi nakarinig.
Darating ang araw ikaw ay mapapalitan ng iba pangkahapon na mas mahalaga
Sinulat ko ito 2 years ago.
Dec 2017 · 164
30th, November
leeannejjang Dec 2017
When I saw you
I feel cold all over my body.

Your smile was like a gift from the angels to me.
I wanted to touch you but I was blinded by your presence.

I’ve waited for 9years
To see you in flesh.

Those seconds that I was able to stand in front of you,
Feels like eternity.

I don’t know how,
But every bits of you
I love it.

You are the imperfect perfect.

How I wish you can be mine.
But, that is too much.
Even if I pray over thousands of falling stars,
I know it is impossible.

But still, I wish that here in my heart that day will forever stay.
Nov 2017 · 131
My Hates is a...
leeannejjang Nov 2017
camouflage for my intense love for you.
Nov 2017 · 191
Can anyone tell me?
leeannejjang Nov 2017
“Hello” I said to myself.
I was blank again.
She visited me again.
Who you say?
The blankness visited me.

She was like a wall.
A blackout.
I once caught myself staring at nowhere.
I can’t think, but I know I’m there.
I tried to talk but no words came out.
I fought it, but I was shut down.

Can anyone tell me who she is?

She visited me on days that I am alone.
Sometimes a minute, or an hour.
Everytime she is around,
I feel nothing.

The sun will not hurt my skin.
The noise will not make me deaf.
The rain won’t feel cold.

Is she my friend or my enemy?
I don’t know.
But when she is there,
I lost my senses.
I lost my dreams.
I lost my will.

It’s like I’m a bottle and she is sipping out my juices.
Little by little I became an empty vessel.

Can anyone tell me who she is?

She leaves without any warning.
And when she is gone, colors will burst.
The world will be so noisy again.
The wall will be gone.
I was like a child left in the middle of a parade.
I really can’t explain but it feels like there’s a thick fog covering my head.
Nov 2017 · 243
Vampire
leeannejjang Nov 2017
Tired.
I’m getting tired for shallow reasons.
Feels like the soil has tentacles
And it’s pulling me down.
Beneath the cold ground.

Bury me.
Bury my entire body.
Let it numb.
Let my soul be eaten by eternal darkness.

No, don’t save me.
I want to be there.
Lifeless body.
Souless.
Numb.

Let no light in.
It stings when it hits me.
Don’t touch me.
Your warmth will make me alive.

Let my skin be cold as the snow.
Let my lips turn to pale blue.
Let my eyes turn white.
Let my body devour every last drop of my blood.
Nov 2017 · 832
Isang linggo
leeannejjang Nov 2017
Isang linggo.
Isang linggo lang tumagal ang relasyon natin.
Pitong araw lang nagawan mo ako bitawan.

Isang linggo.
Isang linggo ako kinain ng galit.
Sa iyo at sa babae mo.
Sa nakaraan **** pinili kaysa sa akin.

Isang linggo.
Isang linggo puro patawad ang nairinig ko sa iyo.
Andali sabihin tulad noon sanabi mo mahal mo ko.

Isang linggo.
Isang linggo ako umiyak.
Dahil sa mga pangako mo na napako.

Isang linggo.
Hindi ko kaya kalimutan lahat ng nagawa mo sa isang linggo.

Sakit.
Galit.
Lungkot.
Isang linggo lang naitanim mo sa puso ko yan.
Nov 2017 · 234
Crown
leeannejjang Nov 2017
You were blinded by what you called Love.

A love that imprisoned you for years.
We thought you were finally free,
But you go back to the cage on your own will.

You accepted hate.
But you got angry when hate was thrown at her.
Saying I don’t understand what she is going through.
That she is in pain.

How about you?
Before you stand on her side,
Do you know how much hate you implanted on me?

Yes, I won’t ever understand her.
Nor I wanted too.
Because same as you,
You never understand how I felt.

She’s an evil *****.
Standing on her own shoes.
Hurting her for what she did.

Me, I’ll watch her bleed.
Cause she deserve for what she did.
I’ll sit here.
Wear my crown.
For I don’t need a king who treated me like a trash.
Nov 2017 · 291
First to leave.
leeannejjang Nov 2017
I have no intentions of seeing you fall down.
Nor be happy while everything crumbles in front of you.
I've been there, where you are right now.
The reality you wanted to see,
seems like an impossible dream.

You've turned your back to me when I offered my hands.
You've pushed me away when I'm willing to hug all your
broken shards.
Your broken pieces cut through my heart.
I was wounded by my own love to you.

Dear, I'd still wanted to hold you close to mine.
Until all your pieces are fixed together.
While mine are being cut apart.

But seems like this is not what  you want.
If seeing you fall down is what you wanted me to look,
I won't see it.
If cutting all of ties will bring you peace,
I'll grant it to you.
If me being out of sight would relieve you,
I'll gladly walk away.

I covered up all my love for you with words of hate.
If that would help you feel a less guilty.,
I'll live under that covers.

I don't mind being branded as the bad person in your story.
But if blocking me away will help you,
Then I'll be the first to leave.

Finding happiness is what I wanted to see from you.
No tears, just smile.
But I know that happiness is not with me.
thank you.
Nov 2017 · 160
Pain make us...
leeannejjang Nov 2017
Vulnerable to sadness.

To doubt someone’s intentions
Of kindness.

Turn love into hatred.

It makes as hard and stiff
From people around us.

It isolates us from the reality
We blocked with our walls.

But pain also makes us stronger.

To love more ourself than others.

To see true intentions of someone beyond their smiles.

To love people around us deeper
Because we know the pain.

Pain is a weakness and strength in one weapon.

You can yield it as a sword
Or hold it like a shield.
It’s battle only you can decide on how you will win.

To love more or to be eaten by hate.
Nov 2017 · 183
Shake, shake
leeannejjang Nov 2017
Shake, shake, my heart is shaking
Uh-oh what is with feeling?
Shake, shake, my heart is pounding
I don’t understand a thing.

That night I waited for you outside.
My heart is shaking.
Slowly, you came to me.
In your wheels, you smiled at me.

Shake, shake, my heart is shaking.
I was excited to see you.
My friend and my brother.
But, no no no.
Why am I shaking?

Gently, you put the helmet on my head.
As if I’m a child who doesn’t know a thing.
I sat behind your back,
Hold at your shoulders.

Shake, shake, my heart is shaking.
As you start the motor,
Wind to our faces.
I smiled. I smiled again after all the pain.

Shake, shake, my heart is shaking.
As you hold my hand to help me go down,
I saw not just my friend, but a man.
A man who I respect and a brother who I treasure.

Shake, shake, my heart is shaking.
We all have a boy that is our friend. No romantic relationship, but a family at heart
Nov 2017 · 232
Keep your Head Down by TVXQ
leeannejjang Nov 2017
Keep your head down U-Know time (Max)
You know what time it is?
This is return of the king

(Everything has ended) I didn’t even start yet
(We broke up) I haven’t even heard the reason yet
Everyone around me keeps asking me why I’m like this
Why are you like that, why are you like that? I’m already the bad guy

(If it’s a sin) If loving you was a sin
(If that was a shin) If being genuine is a sin
(I’ll keep it low, I’ll keep it low) I’ll hold it in and stand my ground

(Keep your head down)
You look pretty, but inside you’re so different, that’s what I’m afraid of
(Keep your head down)
I said I loved you but I’ll let you go

(Why?) Did you leave me so easily
(Why?) Did I look easy to you?
(Why?) My heart is ripping to shreds
(Why?) If every moment was a dream
(Why?) If only I had the time to set it right
(Why?) I prayed for your happiness

I was always satisfied with having you
I was happy to dream the same dream as you no matter what they said
I had to let you go, but I’m just walking my path anyway
Now I’m just chillin’, Feel like I’m healing

It’s too late, you said you can’t come back
You’ve always believed that I’d crumble without you
That’s a misunderstanding, why would I do that? why, why, I told you I wouldn’t

(Hey) I was really, really sad, because you were so immature
and I was afraid you’d meet someone bad (Why? baby)

(Keep your head down)
You’re really pretty, but that’s all there is to you, there’s nothing important inside of you
(Keep your head down)
A nail is driven into the heart that is holding in the pain of love

(Why?) Why
(Why?) You let go of our love so easily
(Why?) Did you ever think that someone would get worried?
(Why?) I don’t think you know yet
(Why?) Exactly just what you let go of
(Why?) Just remain there and watch me grow

Ha~ Don’t play with people like that
In front of me, all you do is speak of lies
You’re such a two-faced person
(Why why why) Since when did our crystal-like feelings become so opaque?
Our love has ended, I’ve let you go, and now my heart is empty
But my future is gesturing towards me to get up and smile
I’m letting you go, live happily (why why why)
One day far from now, far from now, I want to just smile comfortably

(Why?) Why
(Why?) You let go of our love so easily
(Why?) Did you ever think that someone would get worried?
(Why?) I don’t think you know yet
(Why?) Exactly just what you let go of
(Why?) Just remain there and watch me grow

(Keep your head down)
Erased, disappeared, you’ve burned to death in my heart
(Keep your head down)
Erased, disappeared, you’ve died in my heart and you no longer exist
Song by TVXQ a kpop boy group.
Thank you for this song.
It reflects how I feel
Nov 2017 · 132
Grandpa
leeannejjang Nov 2017
An old man sleeping on a bed.
Machines work side by side.
I can feel his soul drifting out.
He seem so fragile.
Every touch may **** him anytime.

I want to touch him,
But I can’t.

He was once a strong man.
He smells like cigarette in a summer breeze.
His back is like a mirror of his hardwork.
His feet full of scars but strong enough to walk any fields.
His hands are rough.
But his heart is soft.


He kissed me on the forehead.
Lifted me when I cry.
Sweets come out of his pocket when I am sad.

Now he’s lying there like a lifeless man.
Are you following your wife?
I wanted to ask.


I pray he would stay.
A little bit more.
I pray.
Grandpa please be well. I’ll see you soon.
Nov 2017 · 163
Accused
leeannejjang Nov 2017
My hands are clean,
But I was accused of stealing.
I was left alone,
But I was judge of getting what is not mine.


Am I the suspect now?
When on the first place,
I was the victim.

How could the suspect now
Be the one who is the victim.
And me, as the convicted.

You said it was yours on the first place.
It was also mine when you left it to rot.
I tried to fix it.
Slowly, gently.
Until it shines again.

When you see the beauty again.
You ripped from my hands.
Claiming it was yours
And I;  Stolen it away from you.

I’m the suspect.
The accused.
The convicted.

The real suspect now walked down the road.
With banner on her head saying
She was the victim.

A victim.
A victim with a rotten smile.
Pretending to be nice
When deep inside
Lurks the devil.

Take it.
Take it all.
Leave nothing to me.
Let it rot again in your hands
Until it dims again.
Nov 2017 · 120
Last time I wrote
leeannejjang Nov 2017
I have someone in my heart to dedicate it.

The next day I wrote again,
Someone broke my heart.

Now I’m writing for no one.
Since I was left alone.
When  inspiration is gone so are my poems
Nov 2017 · 577
M-R-T
leeannejjang Nov 2017
Antagal ko nag-antay sa iyo pagdating.

Mainit.
Maingay.
Masikip.

Sa bawat hakbang palapit
Ako’y napapaismid.

Kasya ba at kaya?
O kasaya at di na kaya?

Unti unti.
Eto na, eto na.
Papasok na ako.
Toooot-toot!

Bigla nag-sara ang pinto.
Ako’y umatras at napahinto.
Tiningnan kitang umalis.

Isa, dalawa, tatlo.
Umabot ng tatlumpung minuto.
Wala ka pa din.

Naiinip.
Naiinis.
Nagagalit.

Bakit ang tagal mo bumalik?
Nakita kita, ako’y napakapit sa bag na dala.
Inihanda ang sarili

Bumukas.
Lumabas.
Tinulak.
Pasok!

Sa wakas ako’y nakapasok
Sa loob ng bagon.
Ngunit kinaya man,
Ako’y yari na sa akin amo.
Pagkat ako’y nahuli na
Naman sa amin pagtitipon.

Napakamot.
Napayuko.
Napamura.
Araw araw na pagsubok na mga pinoy na ngMrt pagpasok
Nov 2017 · 188
On a stormy day
leeannejjang Nov 2017
I’ll take all your thunders.
Be it a rainy day or cloudy.
I’ll give up the sunshine just to be with you.
Nov 2017 · 117
Alchohol
leeannejjang Nov 2017
Alchohol taste right
When your heart is suffering.
It’s like dabbing it directly to the wound
And would sting like hell.

I assume that the more I consume
The happier I get.

It’s like a bizzare love triangle
Between me, reality and alchohol.
Pulling me in.
Until my world becomes blurry.

There’s no escape.
Nor I wanted to leave.
It was a dream
Where the whole world is happy.

A temporary bliss.
From the struggling reality
I don’t want to face
Hang over hits me hard.
Nov 2017 · 101
When the pain fades away
leeannejjang Nov 2017
Happiness will find its way.
Nov 2017 · 137
Life
leeannejjang Nov 2017
Now I set you free.
Free from the hate I throw at you.
Fly, fly away.
Let your wings spread.
Don’t let the chains of the past
Stop you from dreaming.

Go, go all the way.
Don’t look back to what have hurt you.
Life, live your life.
It’s only a storm,
It will never bring you down.
Acceptance is the hardest part. But once you accpet things, you’ll see the beauty in everything.
leeannejjang Nov 2017
I wish I can be reborn there and live peacefully.
Tired of living in this world
Nov 2017 · 108
I was lost
leeannejjang Nov 2017
And never found...
When you feel you don’t belong to this world
Nov 2017 · 97
Dear Hate,
leeannejjang Nov 2017
You always come when clouds of darkness is above.
Unexpectedly.
Uninvited.

****** eyes.
Trembling hands.
Dark thouhgs.
I feed you with those foods.

You always seems to find me
When I’m lost.
You always seems to worry
When I’m drowned with tears.

My dear friend,
How long has it been?
A year or two?
Come here, I’ll feed you again.

Let me craddle you in my arms.
Let’s hide in the darkness for a while.

But, my dear friend.
I cannot stay for too long.
Hard it may seem,
But forgiveness I must give.
All of us hated someone  for the pain. But we all need to move on and forgive
Nov 2017 · 100
Quoted
leeannejjang Nov 2017
And now I'm stuck
Which way? Left or right?
And since I can't decide
I am dropping them all, leaving nothing behind

Once a man quoted this lines.
At first I felt sad about it.
A forgotten being.

But then, one day I realized every
Bits of that lines shouted lies.
He’s not stuck.
Nor he doesn’t know the way.

He already decided and left with something in his hand.
The sadness I felt turn to hate.
No lies will stay forever hidden.
Nor truth will keep quiet all the time.

Now armed with what I know.
I therefore take my flight.
Leaving and not looking behind.
For this man deserves nothing
But be buried in his past.
Nov 2017 · 104
Salvation
leeannejjang Nov 2017
Whisper to me your words of sadness.
I’ll turn that into a beautiful melody.

Hold me with your wounded hand.
I’ll make your scars a beautiful remembrance.

Kiss me with your scared lips.
I’ll caress that with warmth of my love.

I’ll be your salvation in this darkness.
Come, come to me.
Nov 2017 · 849
Basahin mo
leeannejjang Nov 2017
Nababasa mo ba ito?
Alam ko oo.
Dahil dito sa mundo ito
Alam ko naririnig mo ako.
Maaring maging mahaba ito isusulat ko.

Pero sa huli pagkakataon magsusulat ako para sa’yo.
Sa huli pagkakataon pakinggan mo ang sasabihin ko.

Naalala mo un gabi sinabi mo sa akin gusto mo ako?
Oo, alam ko na ako yun bago mo pa sabihin.
Nagtataka ka bakit hindi ko sinabi sayo?
Kasi natatakot ako umasa sa bagay na wala patunay.

Naalala mo un araw na niyakap kita mahigpit?
Natakot ako noon dahil baka marinig mo un puso ko kumakabog.

Naalala mo un araw na sinabi ko gusto din kita?
Ilang araw ko inipon yung lakas ng loob na sabihin yon sayo.

Naalala mo yun araw na nagaway tayo at sinabi mo may pag-asa pero takot ako?
Alam mo ba yun araw na yun kinain ko lahat ng takot ko dahil mas takot ako mawala ka.

Naalala mo un araw na sinagot kita ay naging tayo?
Sobra saya ko dahil may tao tumingin sa akin kung ano ako at wala hinging pagbabago sa akin.

Ikaw naaalala mo ba lahat ng yan?
Naramdaman mo din ba yan?

Sa huli pagkakataon magsusulat ako para sayo.
Huli? Oo huli na. Dahil baka kahit kailan ay hindi ka na lumingon sa akin.

Sa huli pagkakataon sasabihin ko sayo,
Oo minahal kita.
Oo mahal pa kita.
Oo nasakatan mo ako.
Oo sobra sakit na mas pinili mo bitawan ako kesa ipaglaban ako.
Oo gusto kita tulungan pero binulag ako ng galit sa puso ko.
Oo galit ako sa kanya sa babae hindi ko mapalitan sa puso mo.
Oo gustong gusto ko na ako ang piliin mo nun gabi un.
Oo na sana pangalan ko ang sinabi mo.

Sa huli pagkakataon, oo kung ako ang pinili mo lalaban ako.
Nov 2017 · 631
Mali ba?
leeannejjang Nov 2017
Mali bang piliin mo ako sa gitna ng kaguluhan ito?
Mali nga ata.
Dahil sa gitna ng kaguluhan ng puso mo iba ang nakita mo.

Mali ba piliin mo ako?
Mali nga ata.
Dahil sa pagbabalik ng nakaraan mo nakalimutan mo ako.

Mali ba na minahal mo ako?
Mali nga ata.
Dahil ang bilis mo bitawan ako.

Mali ba sabihin ko sa sarili ko hindi na kita mahal?
Mali ata.
Dahil hanggang ngayon sumasakit pa din ang puso ko sa pagmamahal ko sau.

Mali ba na magalit ako sayo?
Mali ata.
Dahil sa likod ng masasakit n salita nabitawan ko, nais ko pa din sabihin mahal kita.

Mali ba na pakinggan ko sila?
Mali ata.
Dahil alam ng puso ko ano gusto ko.

Mali ba?
Mali ba lahat ng nasimulan natin?
Dahil kung oo, tang ina tadhana to.
Mali nga ba talaga? O nadala lang tayo ng emosyon hindi natin npaghandaan
#b
Nov 2017 · 124
Chances
leeannejjang Nov 2017
How many chances should you give someone?
Once? Twice? Or a lifetime?

Every chances you gave,
A part of you fade away.

Can you still be you with the missing pieces?

Now I ask again, how many chances should you give?
Once? Twice? Or a life time?

Every chances you gave,
You expose yourself to pain.

Can you still manage to get your pieces back after?

Now I ask you again, is it worth giving another chance?
Oct 2017 · 361
Gyera
leeannejjang Oct 2017
Isang tahimik na panalangin.
Habang ang mundo’y nagkakagulo.
Hinahanap ang paraiso
Sa lugar na puno ng mga armado.

Maaari bang ako’y sagipin?
Sa madilim na kwartong akin kinaroroonan.
Tunog ng baril at wala humpay na pagsabog ang akin hele sa gabing malalim.

Nasan si inay?
Nasan si itay?
Ang katawan nila ay kasing lamig ng yelo.
Hindi na sila nagsasalita.
Hindi na sila gumagalaw.
Tulog na ba sila?

Maaari bang ako’y sagipin?
Sa bangungot na sa akin ay kumakain.
Sana sa akin pagising isa maliwanag na kinabukasan
Ang sumalubong sa akin.
Oct 2017 · 121
Reflection
leeannejjang Oct 2017
Have you ever felt so alone  that even the stars above the sky hides behind the clouds?

Have you ever wonder where you should belong when  you are home but your heart is lost?

Have you ever asked why they can’t hear you when you never stop speaking?

Dear, look at me.
Now, look into the mirror.

Do you love that reflection in front of you?
If not,  then I tell you this.
Above anyone else,
You should love that person in front of you.

Every scar.
Every bits.
Every pain.

Love all of them.
When you started to love yourself,
Everything will fall into places.
Love yourself.
Love your life.i
Sep 2017 · 103
Monster
leeannejjang Sep 2017
I am doomed by the storm
You created inside of me.

There's no escape.
There's no turning back.

Learn how to handle me,
Or I'll eat you alive.
Little monster
Sep 2017 · 271
Comeback
leeannejjang Sep 2017
the tips of our fingers almost touch.
But we're pulled to the opposite side.

I can feel your breath on my nape.
But when I look back I found darkness beyond.

It's the agony of losing you,
From warm flesh to dust
Beneath the ground.

Is it cold in there?
'Cause my whole body is numb
Though I'm still breathing.

Is it happy there?
'Cause my eyes can't see anymore
Due to tears flooding my cheeks.

Can't you comeback here?
'Cause I lost all reasons to live.
Losing someone dear to us is truly an agonizing feeling. Giving hugs to all who are sad out there.
Sep 2017 · 328
Secret love
leeannejjang Sep 2017
We are strangers in the daylight.
Lovers in the moonlight.

We seek the darkness to
Fulfill our love.

We hate the light that separates us

We know love is a btch.
But we keep f
ckin with it
Until we perish.
Sep 2017 · 142
Consistent?
leeannejjang Sep 2017
You know what this
World taught me?

No one in this world is consistent.
Today they like you,
Tomorrow you will be nothing to them.

In this vast world,
Loyalty is so rare that finding
A gem in a dessert
Is much easier.

You see,
we made promises to compromise
Our mistakes.

But in the end,
we are prisoners in  each others  words,
Full of lies and pretentions.
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