Love,
Fortunate,
Cheerful,
Happy,
Excited,
Enthralled,
Ecstatic,
­Fantastic,
and Fascinated.
Are the list of words
That are so bland
In comparison to how I feel,
when I take your hand.

My one wish? *To have met you so much sooner.

This drug that I can't stop soaking in
After the first dose, I watched my universe change from within
It was a feeling that sent me to oblivion
Every emotion mashed in a massive collision

I am addicted and only want more
of this truly fascinating feeling
I look into my life and it seems like everything but poor
Everything else is so bland in the dealing

I crave this drug everyday
Every single hour and minute
with this to say
You are this drug, and I need it.

There is something you must know
That every minute and every place I go
I am battling my past and it's brutality
Getting so beaten I seemingly forget this reality

I want to so badly forget this somehow
This is where I say I really need you now
You will see my scars and feel my pain
Unforgotten memories I don't want to retain

Beaten for no reason
Forgotten by family as if committed and unknown treason
Called names with no proper ground
I've lost so much, with nothing found

This is where I really need you
This one thing I ask of you to do
Please accept me for my painful past
Hold me close and help me forget these memories at last

"Once again, someone proved my ideal of love completely wrong."