It burns
I can't help but laugh at my own tears
                Anticipating you and what you keep in your jeans.
It's silly...... CRAZY even!
               That I could sit rubbing myself against the edge of the bed
While you are....
Where? Where are you?
                             Clearly not here
Not close enough
Not hard enough
               I can't sleep I can't eat I can only watch you and weep
I'm sorry, come back
I wasn't going to bite...
               But I could if you wanted me to....
I'm hysterical my love,
                             I can go all night

She's not pretty
Kind of twisted in fact
Into knots of every strand of emotion possible
Beauty comes from within
But within she is fighting
Fighting against these knots that have become all she knows
She is crying
But sadness is only temporary
For bipolar disorder makes her feel so many different things at once
One minute she'll be high
The next she'll be arguing with herself
Until she can't understand anything anymore and the last word is hers
But from an unknown source
She is pretty
But she doesn't know it
She won't believe it for she doesn't know how
Her head is full of so many contradicting thoughts and feelings
Like you wouldn't even believe

drive with me all day
I'll listen to what you have to say
make no mistake
I love you all the way

hands upon my knee
touching gently everything
give me reason to give in
softly feel this way again

distracted as I graze
your solar eclipse eyes
I'd stare into the sun
to feel that way again

just be here with me now
forget about the world
seeing things clearer this time
It seems you've reeled me in

I don't sleep unless I'm beside you
I forget to eat unless you're eating too
I get shaky and nervous and empty and sad
And I don't like how I look when you're not looking at me.

It's fine
            I'm Ok
Don't worry
            I didn't die today