I wish for you
it's all I seem to ever do
Because try as I may you'll think i'll never be true
Though my heart truly only craves you
So I wish I may I wish I might
Wish on a star for you every night
I'll wish my dreams weren't blown away
By my vision that leads me astray
I'll wish my mind wasn't so frayed
Even though this world is unclear to me
Your beauty is what I truly see
You're not as dim as everyone else
because you've clearly got me under your spell
I may not see the colours to bright up my world
But you're vivid enough to light it up anyways
So I lay here watching the days go by
With my mind in dismay watching the sky
So I lay here and here i'll stay
Waiting till I can find the right words to say
Wishing each night on a different star
hoping my wish can get that far
to reach the cosmos and the stars
hoping maybe something from above
will bring back the feelings of love

it's strange that every time I look at you

I regret the things I couldn't do

I can feel my heart shattering all over again

through all the numbness I still feel the pain



but you're such a beautiful work of art

that I can't look away at all

I wish I could win your heart

reality hits me like a cannon ball

it tortures me  that you're not mine

and that I couldn't fix the errors I made

I want everything to be fine

but it's not changing no matter how much i've prayed

I write these words cause honestly i'm lost

I don't know why there is this loss of direction

I don't know much but I know that when I was with you I at least had a reason to forget it and not feel it

because i'd write line after line knowing I was expressing my true feelings

how I couldn't find a word for a feeling that mean't more than love

but I felt it every time I held you close

I saw it sparkle in your eyes

I feel it's absence every time I see the things you left me

it makes me remember it all

all the night's we'd talk for hours

every hour I held you

the thousands of times I kissed you because once, twice, one hundred times wasn't enough

how our life seemed to be as perfect as something written by a poet (an actual good one not me)

now all there is is regret. because without you I remember how broken and alone I am

and it gives me to all the time in the world to think about my mistakes, once again.

To even think of her name makes those words bounce around my brain,
As hard as a head would be thrashed around a car in a crash,
For one To make me feel these very emotions, it makes me feel insane,
once they're out of your life its a missing piece never the same.
My chest aches and throbs like the bones of those passed their time in a nursing home frail, alone, waiting to die closing in on the last goodbye.
Her jade coloured eyes glisten like the gems they are, but only in a picture of my mind that it had taken, despite me wanting to forget, trying to not let regret stab through like a bayonet to my heart, it spikes through when i'm lonesome and the sadness overcomes my mind at dark times.
After All the time that passed all the tears we cried everything we learned I feel I'd rather die than lie and say i'm okay while drying my eyes and quickly running off with a quick goodbye.
Than have your name come back to me have my body shake and my conscious scream trying to escape this dream turned nightmare trapped in this reoccurring theme.
But for now you're gone and it might be for good for nothing I do can ever come close oh what I wouldn't what I couldn't say to make you stay
All the stones skipped to the sea making wishes on stars for thee all those coins in the fountain, all the words I put together a failed art none of which could fix my heart
I still wish I can I wish I might wish once more for this love to start almost every night hoping something might. just bring your beauty back
But there still nothing but aching in this sinking heart with no end in sight

tears come to my eyes
cause the thoughts are there
the feelings are strange
cause i feel as if joy like this is rare
how can i write down the words
for feelings so unexplainable
yet with you they're there
for your astonishing beauty
is an answered prayer

if only wishes did come true
i’d still be holding close to you

i’d see the world i’m living in my dreams
it wouldn’t tear my soul apart like weak seams

life would not be twice as hard
our wishes wouldn’t burn and char

blow away as ashes in the wind
as fate laughs at our tragic fates it intertwined

it seems too much at times to live in this.
waking up so far from that old bliss

I know it’s pointless to reminisce
the life we live is cruel and i’ve come to know this

maybe this world is just not for me
i’m waiting on a miracle i’ll have to see…

they tell me wishes don't come true.
and from what i've seen in my life i feel like that might be true
and though most things i've experienced have been unfair
how i seemed to miss so many opportunities here and there
but i feel like a wish came true when i asked for someone to live for
you seemed to come along and i felt as if the world wasn't so dark
and i wasn't so alone in everything i did
suddenly i wished to live my life again and not spend every moment escaping reality and making me want to see every beautiful thing there is to this world that i forgot to notice from the beginning.
so wishes may not come true
but dreams certainly do.
the proof i have of that is you

you don't know where you're going
neither do I
god knows that i love you
he knows that we tried
but when life gets this way
theres no way to deny
when all we do is hurt
and all we do is cry
theres nothing to go by
so I guess this is goodbye

pure soul with shining eyes
your absence leaves me wondering why

what could I have done to save you and I
the thought of our love brings me to cry

spending all theses nights watching the sky
getting caught up in our own lies

I want to give it another try
but all i'll get is another goodbye

you shouldn't have left my heartstrings tied
because without your kiss i'll surely die

all these nights writing rhymes
thinking through all the same ****

wasting all my ******* time
hoping luck might come my was a bit

asking myself whats the point to it all
trying to help but wasting my breath

going through stupid medication withdrawal
thinking of ways to bring my own death

everything thing seems to be gray now
I can't even write **** trying to make this poetic.... **** everything

sick of using people like objects
feels so wrong to tell someone I love them
when I don't give a **** about them

i'm such a terrible person right now
but I don't even generally care
it's how i've been treated by others anyways

just kicking myself over and over
cause I ****** up
i'm only sinking deeper

so much can be stolen when we live for ourselves
I can't live this way much It makes life a hell

I'll give all to others and hope for the best
trusting giving to others will end the aching in my chest

some call me modest and selfless and look on with pride
others call me selfish and foolish and see hate in my eyes

whatever they do I hope my actions keep true
because one day I hope I can laugh it off with you

i'll cut off bit by bit of the dreams I have left
cause the things I want for myself seem to be taken by theft

my words fall on deaf ears as if they're pretended
cause so many others left their dreams unattended

I know you probably heard it a thousand ******* times
But this life it will get better so keep your dreams alive
One day this rain will let up
So keep the dream alive
The weather always changes
In life's skies throughout our lives
Some days things just don't work
We get trapped in our minds
Waiting for miracles to show up
We think we waste our time
Spending nights I'm segregation
With broken minds and broken hearts
Don't let it **** your motivation
You're a gift you were from the start
Maybe there will be days where the magic kinda fades
This world it's sorta tragic but we'll make it through the pain
It can't always be like this
We won't spend every single day
Bound to a depression
From what the others say
Someday we'll make it out of here
We'll be stronger from it all
The skies will part and clear
Cause our greatness isn't small

My words don't carry the weight that they should

If there was something I could do to make you care I would

But you're so far away and our love will never be

all these things I feared to foresee

I've been waiting for your call skipping stones to the sea

knowing I won't hear back cause there are loves better than me

all these letters don't go the distance to reach you

but i'm so far gone from your life that they don't need to

I feel embarrassed to say that I need you

our lives had to split cause of errors that we all do... you though me so untrue

truthfully I wished to take back all the things I did so crude

the late hours of the morning keep me up with this awful mood

I wonder why you're still always there in my dreams at night

but when I wake up you're never there by morning light

broke my heart
broke my bones
crushed them deep
hurt my soul

burnt up notes
lost my hope
where i'm going
I don't know

I had faith I could
Find love in you
But I ****** it up
that i'm used to

wish I could change it
but the words they don't manage
we hurt and my heart split
with this cycle it stays

when i'm thinking of you
these thoughts come to
my heart is in pain
for me there's no gain

to hurt is all i'll do
the blood it soaks through
I cannot hide my pain
on all days in rains

so i'll give up on love
it's all a big hoax
it felt like heaven above
dreams of holding you close

My heart breaks as i hear my sigh
echo through the midnight sky
wondering, thinking, asking why?
what causes these loves to pass me by

Leaving without so much as a word
leaving all the thoughts in my head broken and unheard

I never told you how I feel
Cause your love towards me was never real

I live loving who I think you were
Drinking away the feelings till memories blur

I'm stuck down here asking why
Why I let these people make cry

I consider myself so unlucky you see
Cause you fell for him instead of for me

But, We will soldier on put our hearts in a cast
Because one day we will find a true love to last

Being alone doesn't feel the same
You're on my mind and whose to blame?
I want to yell I want to cry
I want to love you i want to die
you're in my dreams all the time
I wish I could make you mine
what do I do where do I go?
I want to run I can't let you know
I'm tethered to you I feel the thread
The thoughts of you race in my head
I know that I didn't want to stay
but I dig my grave deeper everyday
I wanted you to know I cared
I felt too much and now i'm scared
of losing you and losing friends
I don't want this to start or end

I find it strange despite the time
all these nights I still think of you

still wishing you were mine
but just with one thing different maybe two

I picture how well my body fit with yours
as you're probably finding how well it fits with all the others

I wasted time pondering behind closed doors
whilst my mind and soul were smothered

I don't really need to be  bothered
the alcohol numbs me enough to settle the score

you find it strange I have to write down all the words that come to my head when I think of you
poetry, an artform
I find it stranger that you're a work of art yourself and you don't even have to try
thats way more beautiful than my words could ever be

I wish i could say
the way I see your beauty
with the words I say

I can't find the nerve
to say that your memory
will always be here

but i know it will
you're in my dreams already
and it tortures me.