Being alone doesn't feel the same
You're on my mind and whose to blame?
I want to yell I want to cry
I want to love you i want to die
you're in my dreams all the time
I wish I could make you mine
what do I do where do I go?
I want to run I can't let you know
I'm tethered to you I feel the thread
The thoughts of you race in my head
I know that I didn't want to stay
but I dig my grave deeper everyday
I wanted you to know I cared
I felt too much and now i'm scared
of losing you and losing friends
I don't want this to start or end

To even think of her name makes those words bounce around my brain,
As hard as a head would be thrashed around a car in a crash,
For one To make me feel these very emotions, it makes me feel insane,
once they're out of your life its a missing piece never the same.
My chest aches and throbs like the bones of those passed their time in a nursing home frail, alone, waiting to die closing in on the last goodbye.
Her jade coloured eyes glisten like the gems they are, but only in a picture of my mind that it had taken, despite me wanting to forget, trying to not let regret stab through like a bayonet to my heart, it spikes through when i'm lonesome and the sadness overcomes my mind at dark times.
After All the time that passed all the tears we cried everything we learned I feel I'd rather die than lie and say i'm okay while drying my eyes and quickly running off with a quick goodbye.
Than have your name come back to me have my body shake and my conscious scream trying to escape this dream turned nightmare trapped in this reoccurring theme.
But for now you're gone and it might be for good for nothing I do can ever come close oh what I wouldn't what I couldn't say to make you stay
All the stones skipped to the sea making wishes on stars for thee all those coins in the fountain, all the words I put together a failed art none of which could fix my heart
I still wish I can I wish I might wish once more for this love to start almost every night hoping something might. just bring your beauty back
But there still nothing but aching in this sinking heart with no end in sight

My heart breaks as i hear my sigh
echo through the midnight sky
wondering, thinking, asking why?
what causes these loves to pass me by

Leaving without so much as a word
leaving all the thoughts in my head broken and unheard

I never told you how I feel
Cause your love towards me was never real

I live loving who I think you were
Drinking away the feelings till memories blur

I'm stuck down here asking why
Why I let these people make cry

I consider myself so unlucky you see
Cause you fell for him instead of for me

But, We will soldier on put our hearts in a cast
Because one day we will find a true love to last

so much can be stolen when we live for ourselves
I can't live this way much It makes life a hell

I'll give all to others and hope for the best
trusting giving to others will end the aching in my chest

some call me modest and selfless and look on with pride
others call me selfish and foolish and see hate in my eyes

whatever they do I hope my actions keep true
because one day I hope I can laugh it off with you

i'll cut off bit by bit of the dreams I have left
cause the things I want for myself seem to be taken by theft

my words fall on deaf ears as if they're pretended
cause so many others left their dreams unattended

My words don't carry the weight that they should

If there was something I could do to make you care I would

But you're so far away and our love will never be

all these things I feared to foresee

I've been waiting for your call skipping stones to the sea

knowing I won't hear back cause there are loves better than me

all these letters don't go the distance to reach you

but i'm so far gone from your life that they don't need to

I feel embarrassed to say that I need you

our lives had to split cause of errors that we all do... you though me so untrue

truthfully I wished to take back all the things I did so crude

the late hours of the morning keep me up with this awful mood

I wonder why you're still always there in my dreams at night

but when I wake up you're never there by morning light

it's strange that every time I look at you

I regret the things I couldn't do

I can feel my heart shattering all over again

through all the numbness I still feel the pain



but you're such a beautiful work of art

that I can't look away at all

I wish I could win your heart

reality hits me like a cannon ball

it tortures me  that you're not mine

and that I couldn't fix the errors I made

I want everything to be fine

but it's not changing no matter how much i've prayed

you find it strange I have to write down all the words that come to my head when I think of you
poetry, an artform
I find it stranger that you're a work of art yourself and you don't even have to try
thats way more beautiful than my words could ever be